Chapter 1: The Best Kind of Pain
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"I found love where it wasn't supposed to be: right in front of me" - Amber Run
when I say it doesn't hurt, that means I can bear it
True enough to his word, one can count on his hand the number of things that made Killua Zoldyck hurt. But nothing - not the painfully delicious electric shocks that once caused his body to convulse, not the blows delivered to every inch of exposed skin, not the whips lashing across his protruding ribs- nothing, prepared him for the boy with honey skin, carrying sunlight in his veins, and the pain that came with him.
Gon Freecs made Killua hurt in all the wrong places.
Just watching him made the Zoldyck heir wonder if the boy brought the sun to its knees every night.
In the world of darkness he was born into, Killua saw and encountered very few sources of pure radiance in the fourteen years of his life.
Gon you are light
He is the epitome of Goodness, Killua realizes.
But how could Goodness ever love such a thing, with such a crooked heart
Absentminded touches, laying side by side on warm grass, laughter; all this fills Killua's heart with the prospect of something new, something other than bloodlust and killing.
And whenever Gon utters
"Killua!"
The said boy is certain no one's ever spoken it with such reverence, Gon's voice breathing out his name like a prayer. It makes him want to cower in the presence of terrible warmth. It makes his head pound and his eyes clear and his feet tremble. It makes his chest collapse into itself, and no amount of clawing at it would give him air. Terrible.
Killua Zoldyck didn't usually hurt, but now he did. And if it always came in the form of honey skin and amber eyes, he didn't mind this kind of pain.
Not one bit.
Song used: I Found by Amber Run