Waiting...
I've been waiting for so long...
Why don't you hear me? I've been trapped here in the shadows for so long, screaming myself so hoarse that my voice can't yell anymore, and my brain only knows one word: your name. So why don't you answer me?
I thought I meant so much to you. It seems I was mistaken. All those times I held you, whispered 'I love you' in your ear, did they mean nothing at all? Of course not. If they had you'd be here by now to take the darkness away with the light in your eyes, to drown out the silence with the bells in your laugh.
Where are you? Are you still bound to this world as well? I'd like to think that you are, just as a comfort to myself that you still want to find me, although its been so long I've almost given up hope on that theory. If you were here you would have come to me by now.
So even after all we went through, you couldn't come back to me. Did you think about me at all? I don't understand. You said you loved me and of course I believed you. I believed that we'd never be apart, even in death. I was so sure... Even as those bullets hit us, as I watched you fall in slow-motion and felt the life being ripped from my body...Even then I wholeheartedly believed you would wait for me, and we would leave this world together.
But I was wrong.
You know, you're the only reason I keep going. Only you. I hope that, wherever you are, you realise it.