Almost Lover Chapter 1: Sweet Nothings, a teen titans fanfic

Disclaimer: I do not own the Teen Titans or any of it's characters, nor do I own the song Almost Lover which is by A Fine Frenzy.

A/N: Hi! This is my first fanfiction so please help me improve it through your suggestions and commentary. NOTE: I edited this chapter on 4/18/2011. So in case you are a returning reader and you're like "WTF IT'S DIFFERENT," well, now you know why. I might come back and make more edits later on FYI. I'm not really happy with this chapter at all. One thing I would like to ask readers is whether or not I should keep the song lyrics in there or just take them out. Please keep that in mind while you read and let me know if you have an opinion.

Raven's POV

She staggered, barely catching herself and continued down the cold hallway. Silent screams shook Raven's mind and she gasped, clutching the edge of her navy cloak and increasing her speed. The plain door stood half-hidden in the faint moonlight drifting in from the skylight slanted on the ceiling. One name, 'Raven,' was painted in simple black letters on the door. Phasing through, Raven collapsed on her bed and gave in, releasing the raging river that had swirled and grew behind her mental dam for the past month. "Dammit," she thought bitterly, "I'm crying! I promised myself I wouldn't cry, that fucking BASTARD!"

A small figurine resting on one of the many dark shelves smothering the walls of the large room glowed black for a moment before shattering and sending shards across the room. Several other items followed suit and after only a minute, the floor glistened with the sinister light of thousands of broken pieces. Watching sourly, the petite girl lying on the bed, sighed and let her own broken pieces flow down her cheeks to join the mess below.

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

The bitter memories danced across the girls mind, bringing forth more tears. "It's been a month... Why does he still affect me like this, why? He is trash, an asshole, I should be happy he's gone." Raven's eyes darkened as a deeper version of her own voice sounded in her mind, "You loved him, that's why you still hurt. Poor, poor, weak little Raven. Your emotions truly are your downfall... It's pitiful really, he used you and you made it easy for him."

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

A sour sneer rose on Raven's face, swallowing her delicate features and transforming them into sharp, angry lines and shapes. Feral snarls dripped from her parted lips, echoing around the dark room. Morphing her despair into anger she rose a foot off the bed and began to fly upwards, straight through several floors, startling Robin in the gym when she passed right next to him and continued on. "Dammit, now Robin's going to come play the hero and try to 'help' me."

Finally reaching her destination, Raven landed softly on the roof of the giant 't' shaped tower she called home. She sank to the ground, her burst of rage dissipating as she considered how to convince Robin she was okay. Lapsing into deep thought, the memories crept to the front of her mind to haunt her once again.

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

They walked hand in hand, down the busy street towards the cafe on the corner. He smiled down at her and pulled her closer, whispering sweet nothings to her hair. A goofy grin grew on Raven's face as she sank into the security his convincing smile bestowed upon her. Completely under his spell, she continued with the man she loved at her side.

Another scene shuffled in to fill the gap created by the previous memories fade.

The same couple sat happily on a red, wood bench surrounded by thick trees and shrubs. A baby blue sky specked with several fluffy clouds occupied the space above them. The man began to speak, "Raven," he began, "you've transcended my wildest expectations with your progress. I believe you are ready to begin the spell. You can do it now, you can set me free, my sweet Raven..."

The memory faded away as Raven sensed Robin's presence next to her.

"Raven?" His voice was cautious.

"What? Is there an emergency?" Raven replied coolly, dodging his intentions. "I'm not really in the mood to talk right now so if there isn't any trouble then you should go." She did not try to soften the bite in her tone.

Robin's eyes widened, clearly offended. "Tell me what's wrong Raven, and don't just say nothing because I'm not stupid. I know there is something going on. Is it about Malchior?"

Raven just stood silently scanning the city from their breath-taking vantage point. "No," she said after a moment, " I wouldn't try to lie, I know your not that foolish. It is about Malchior but that is all you need to know."

"If he did anything to you I will personally kill him in the most painful way known to any creature!" Robin's voice rang out over the soft hum of the breeze.

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Raven fell back into a silence, once more allowing the painful images to occupy her thoughts. Robin, annoyed spun and stomped away. Before disappearing down the stairwell, he turned and said, "Sometimes I don't even know why I bother, Raven." He watched her still figure for a moment before sighing and continuing down the stairs to join his other teammates.

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

The tears returned to Raven's pale face. She remembered the mess in her room. Flying down the stairs and to her room, Raven heard many unidentifiable objects explode under the stress of her rampant emotions. When the door swished shut behind her, Raven looked around her lonely room. The shards, like eyes, gleamed back at her and followed her movements as she gathered a normal outfit and changed out of her uniform.

An hour later, she sat in the empty corner of her favorite cafe. Consumed in her thoughts, Raven quietly observed the other customers. A single face stared back at her. Her heart, what was left of it, jerked to a painful stop. Gasping she struggled to clear her mind and stop hallucinating. Halfway across the room, Malchior , in his true human form, walked up to the shocked sorceress. He smiled at her, it wasn't that smile, but it was a fake one. Malchior bowed mockingly at her and then turned and left. Confused by his strange actions, Raven drew several shaky breaths before leaving the cafe. As she swung out onto the now empty sidewalk, her eyes narrowed in anger. "That jerkass, stupid, conceited, sonovabitch. Despite everything he has done, I still love him. Dammit, I love him!"

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Malchior's POV

Malchoir watched Raven stomp down the sidewalk, clearly pissed. He smiled bitterly and felt a single tear trail down his cheek. Surprised, he lifted a finger to rub it away and watched the sweet Raven, no longer his, walk farther from him. The pain in his chest increasing with every step she took.

A/N: Thanks for reading! I really need help so please leave a review to tell me if I should keep going or just drop it here. I really liked this chapter until I got to the roof, then it just kind of fell apart… anyway, please tell me how to improve it! Thanks!