Ayumi's Secret Chapter 1: One Night Stand, a corpse party fanfic

Chapter 1: A One Night Stand

She stared down at the pregnancy test. Her stomach twisted in knots as she waited for the result. She watched as the pink positive symbol appeared and she sighed closing her eyes. How could she be so stupid? She knew the consequences yet at the time she didn't even care. She just wanted to feel something other than the pain of loss.

Ayumi wrapped up the evidence in toilet paper and disposed it in the waste bin. Then she retreated to her room with a head held low. She could hide it for a while but because of her small frame she knew people would be suspicious. She could act like she was eating a lot due to depression but chances are she wouldn't be able to put up the charade for long. She let out a long sigh and plopped herself down on her bed.

She reached back to grab her cell phone and scrolled down her contact list. She just looked at the highlighted name and gulped but before she could press the send button she closed the phone quickly. There was no way she was about to call and tell him. She already did the damage of using him and messing with his feelings. He probably hated her after what she did to him.

"Dammit. I'm such an idiot!" she cried.

One month ago/

Ayumi stood before Kishinuma's door. Her hand hesitated for a minute but she then knocked. Her heart started to race when he opened the door "Shinozaki?" he blinked his eyes. He seemed surprised to find her at his door so late in the evening.

She took a deep breath before she rushed right into him. She wrapped her arms around his waist pressing her face into his chest. She nuzzled into him "Kishinuma-kun, I'm sorry for coming by so late. I just couldn't stay home. I just..my sister."

At first his initial reaction was to stand there stunned for a moment, his face growing hot and his heart beating hard in his chest. He placed his arms around her pulling her close to him in a comforting manner "I'm sorry about your sister, Shinozaki." He rubbed along her backside.

"I'm just sick of it. I'm sick of losing people I care about. It's my fault! I shouldn't have brought up that stupid charm!" she cried.

He shook his head "Stop blaming yourself. It's not like you knew that would happen." He placed a hand upon her head.

She looked up to him. Her tears running freely down her cheeks. For some reason whenever she was near him, she felt secure and safe. He always knew what to say to her to make her feel better. She liked being in his arms it made her forget the pain a little.

She loved Satoshi yes but she also enjoyed being around Kishinuma. Her mind was rolling around with an idea. Before she could think more against her actions she leaned up and pressed her lips against his. His eyes widened at the sudden kiss. He pulled away looking a little confused "Shi-nozaki?" he stuttered out.

"Kishinuma-kun." She placed her hands on his cheeks and looked up into his eyes "Please, help me forget. "

He froze in place his eyes resting on her eyes. His mind was screaming at him to stop this before it got out of hand. Though Yoshiki had a hard time refusing Ayumi and she probably knew it. He licked his bottom lip "Maybe you should think about this a little more? I mean, I'm not Mochida." His gaze shifted away.

She couldn't go to Mochida-kun. She couldn't let him see her in such a weak state. Besides he barely paid any attention to her. He simply gave Naomi most of his attention and if not her then his little sister. There was no room for her, even if she did love him. She knew that Satoshi had eyes for Naomi "I want this! Please just help me forget." Her fingers trembled.

Dammit! He couldn't refuse her. He leaned downward planting his lips against hers. She whimpered wrapping her arms around his neck pulling him further in to the kiss. He knew this was wrong and that Ayumi wasn't her usual self due to the circumstances. He just couldn't bring himself to refuse her.

Day After/

She walked the halls of Kisaragi High. Her heart was heavy and her stomach was nauseous. Once she entered the classroom she was greeted by Mochida "Shinozaki! Good Morning." He smiled.

"Good Morning. Mochida-Kun!" She shot him a cheery smile.

Ayumi took her seat at her desk and she glanced towards Naomi's desk. It has been empty for months now. After coming back she was unable to cope with Seiko's death and she fell into a deep depression. It was so bad to the point she hadn't eaten or slept. So her mother admitted her to a hospital in which Satoshi visited every day after school.

She couldn't help but feel a tad jealous "Nakashima-san doing well?" she asked him.

He sighed lowering her gaze "I really wish I could say yes."

Just then Yoshiki entered the classroom. His eyes rested on Ayumi and Mochida, his stomach twisted in jealousy at the sight of them talking. Satoshi looked up and noticed him giving him a light smile. He just waved and took a seat at his desk. His eyes rested on Ayumi and he sighed, she had been avoiding him ever since that night. She probably wanted to act like it never happened.

Satoshi leaned further to Ayumi "Is something going between you two? Are you mad at him or something?" he noticed the odd awkward tension in the room.

"Kishinuma-kun? Oh, no nothing is going on." She said loudly on purpose.

Yoshiki's right eye twitched, so she was going to ignore everything from that night. He huffed and leaned back in his seat.

During class Ayumi glanced over to notice Yoshiki's eyes on her. She felt a little uneasy under his watchful eyes. She probably should talk to him about that night but she didn't want to upset him further. She probably should have stopped him when he told her that he loved her. But the feeling was so good she pushed it out of her mind.

When class ended Ayumi headed towards her locker. When she approached it she found Yoshiki leaning against her locker waiting for her. She bit down her bottom lip "Kishinuma-kun, is there something I can help you with?" she asked him.

His eyes narrowed and he grabbed her wrist pulling her towards an empty classroom. He shut the door behind them "What is going on? Why are you avoiding me? I did what you asked of me and now you want nothing to do with me?" he huffed.

"I'm sorry. I really should have made things a little more clearer." She lowered her gaze to her feet. She didn't want to look him in the eyes right now. She felt so much guilt for messing around with him "I really just wanted something to help me forget for a little while." She told him honestly.

He growled "So what? That thing we shared that night meant nothing?" his voice cracked a little.

"No. I still love Mochida-kun."

Dammit. Mochida! It's always Mochida. He knew he couldn't be angry with her. He knew that she loved Satoshi but he had hoped since the two of them were intimate her feelings had changed. But, no it seemed like all he was to her was just a toy to use when she couldn't play with Satoshi "I see." He said as he lowered his gaze to the floor.

"I'm sorry, it's my fault. I shouldn't have continued." Her eyes filled up with tears.

He sighed "Forget it. Just for the future leave me alone okay?" he shoved his hands in his pockets and left the classroom.

She whimpered "I'm sorry Kishinuma-kun."

Present/

She did what he had asked and left him alone. It was hard at first when Satoshi wanted all three of them to hang out during lunch. The two of them wouldn't talk to one another and Satoshi would just be there sitting in awkward silence. Now that she was pregnant that complicated the arrangements. She wanted to leave him be and go through with the pregnancy herself. Since it was her fault after all and she hurt him enough.

He didn't need to be tied down to her now that she was having his baby. She sighed placing a hand on her stomach. There was barely a bump but she knew in a few months it was going to be hard to hide it. She needed to tell her mother but she feared her reaction. At this point Ayumi really had no one to go too.

As she headed towards class her mind was swimming with what she should do about her pregnancy. She could end it and move on with her life. However she couldn't bear the idea of taking a life after all the death she's seen in Heavenly Host. She was so busy thinking about what to do she didn't watch where she was walking. She bumped into something and she blinked her eyes "Oh! I'm sorry!" she bowed her head.

"It's alright."

She blinked her eyes and looked up to see Yoshiki. His expression was hard to read but at the moment it didn't seem all that interested in her. It almost seemed like it was bored "Kishinuma-kun.." his name left her lips.

His eyes softened a little but he just moved out of her way and headed towards class. Ayumi sighed and followed in after him.

During lunch Satoshi pulled Yoshiki aside "Hey, what is going on? Shinozaki said nothing was wrong but it's been weeks now and you two are still so distant." He was really starting to get concerned.

Yoshiki just shrugged "It's nothing." His eyes rested at Ayumi.

Satoshi didn't buy it. Not one bit! He knew the two fought a bit in the past but they would always make up by the end of it. He also had a feeling that his best friend had a bit of a crush on Ayumi "Are you sure?" he pushed further.

"I'm sure." Yoshiki replied in a light growl to show he was growing agitated.

Satoshi just sighed and took his seat back at his desk. He hated this not knowing what was going on. He probably should just forget it but he didn't like seeing his friends not being on speaking terms. It made lunch so awkward for him. Just shaking his head he pulled out his cellphone to glance at the time and watched it tick away as he picked at his lunch.

Ayumi glanced over at Satoshi "Are you free after school?"

"Well—I was suppose to visit Nakashima-san after school but I should have some time before I go."

"Great!" she smiled brightly "Meet me at the gates!"

Yoshiki tried to ignore the pain of jealousy. He knew it was none of his business. Ayumi could do whatever she wanted to do. They weren't together—she made that quite clear. He sighed turning to face the window.

After class Ayumi met up with Satoshi by the gates. Satoshi at first was curious on why she invited him out "Shinozaki-san!"

She smiled at him. "I won't keep you for long. I just wanted to talk."

The two of them stopped by a playground close by the bus stop. Ayumi sat herself down on a swing and placed her hands on her lap "Mochida-kun, I need to tell you something." Her gaze shifted away from him.

"What is it?" he said as he approached her. Resting his hands on the chains that held up the swing "Is it about Kishinuma?"

She just nodded as she looked up to him "I've done something horrible to him."

He blinked his eyes looking down at her. Her expression seemed rather distressed and her eyes if he wasn't mistaken looked as if she was near tears "What did you do? I mean it can't be that bad?" his fingers laced around the chain as he rocked her gently.

She bit down her bottom lip "I used him." She choked out.

"Eh?"

"I—." she paused for a moment "I slept with him!"

"Shinozaki? Are you serious?" Satoshi couldn't believe it. Ayumi always seemed like a well brought up girl. A little strange with the cult stuff but he could never imagine someone like her to just sleep around like that!

Ayumi just nodded as tears ran down her cheeks "Yes. I used him! I wanted something to distract me from the pain! So I went to his apartment and I came on to him. At first it seemed like he wanted to resist but I pushed him into it!" she lowered her head.

Satoshi let go of the chain and rested his hands upon her shoulders "Is that why the two of you haven't been talking? I mean, I suppose it would be a little awkward but-."

"I told him..it meant nothing."

"Oh.." Satoshi's expression fell.

"I must be horrible to you now? Disgusting right? To have used your best friend like that—I bet you think I'm some whore now too."

"Shinozaki, I know things have been tough. I don't approve of your actions. However, I could never think of you that way." He tried to comfort her. She obviously needed to talk to someone and since Naomi wasn't around for it. He would have to fill in for the role for now.

She just shook her head "That isn't the worst part…"

Satoshi could feel her trembling and he blinked his eyes. Could she be sick? Perhaps she was cold? He went to remove his jacket but before he could the words that slipped out of her mouth next shocked him.

"I'm pregnant."

"Shinozaki? Are..are you sure?"

She looked up to him "Yes. I've taken about five tests. I'm such an idiot!" she cried.

"Have you told him?" He almost expected that could be the reason they avoided one another. Perhaps Yoshiki wasn't ready to be a father. No, there was no way he'd be a dead beat father. He may have been a delinquent in the past but he had changed.

"I can't tell him. After I told him that what happened meant nothing. He told me to leave him alone for now on." Her fingers clasped the chain of the swing and she sighed "How can I drop this on him now? Surely, he hates me."

"Still-I think you should tell him. It's only right!"

Ayumi just shook her head as she got up from the swing "Promise me that you'll never tell him! Mochida-kun, please?" she looked to him with pleading eyes.

"I—I promise."

Yoshiki was leaving work when he noticed Ayumi sitting on a bench waiting for a bus. She was out this late? How long were her and Satoshi together? He shook his head and walked past her sitting form making no attempt to talk to her.

"Kishinuma-kun."

Dammit, she noticed him. He stopped in his tracks and look towards her "Eh, Shinozaki? Out so late? I guess things went well with Mochida?" he felt so bitter right now.

She looked to him with a worn expression "It's not what you think."

"Honestly, it's none of my business. I mean if you want to screw Mochida now that is fine by me!"

Ayumi shot up from the bench and her eyes narrowed "How dare you! I would never do something like that!" she shouted at him.

"Oh? But it's okay to do that to me?" Yoshiki yelled.

"That-"

He laughed "A mistake right? Well don't worry I've already forgotten about it and you! So have fun with Mochida! Though I have feeling you'll have a hard time getting to his heart since it belongs to Nakashima-san!" he growled.

He was horrible! She knew she deserved it. She just sunk back down on the bench and turned away from him. She could feel the tears building up "I'm sorry. I really am—I know what I did was wrong. I used you and I regret it."

"Feh, whatever." He said and stalked off into the darkness of the streets.

Once he was gone she broke down. He was so cold to her. He use to always look to her with adoring eyes but now they were cold. This was her punishment for doing what she did to him. She placed a hand on her tummy "It'll be okay. It will be."

A/N: Sorry if they seem a little out of character. I haven't written a fanfic in a good while. T_T