Date: January 3, 2021
I dreamt of him again today. The man who held my heart one day and shattered it the next. I hated these dreams. It was if I would never be rid of him. Like he held every part of me in his hand still even though he had thrown me away. Abandoned me. I wasn't enough for him. I never believed I was but for a minute, just for one small moment in our relationship, he made me feel as if I was. He was beautiful and I was just me.
The girl who knew only how to express herself through violence and music. I wasn't a peaceful person and I guess looking back, neither was he. Maybe that why we fit together so well for that short time. Our worlds collided and all was calm just before the moment when it all came exploding apart. I called it the big bang in our relationship. He called it, the arrival of Bella Swan, my best friend. Neither of us had known how her arrival would change his family, how it would change him.
Edward was pansy and I hated him too. Just when I thought we were all fine and were going to be okay, he tore our lives apart. He ran and he took Jasper with him. Bella's accident was just an excuse, everything he said to her a lie, but that didn't stop her. It didn't stop us. We ran and when we couldn't run any farther, we hid. I attended Julliard and Bella went to NYU. We never thought that we would end up here again. Face to face with the people, the family that had torn us apart.
But then again, that's what happens when you become somebody. My name is Hayley Scott and this is my story.