Sora loves Sunao, Ichikawa loves Nagase, Shinichiro loves Nanami – but nobody loves Matsuri. Really? I guess there is someone who would never agree to this. Warning: OC + shounen-ai
Disclaimer: I don't own "Sukisho"/"Sukisyo" or any of the characters of "Gakuen Heaven"
Warning: OC (POV), shounen-ai (boy loves boy)
My own
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My name is Nakajima Kaoru, seventeen years old, hair-color deep red, blood type A. I'm a second year at Seishin Academy and captain of the karate team. I also use to spend much time with the student council because our outgoing president Shinomia-san recommended me as his sucessor. For this reason there would have been quite enough excitement for me this year. Apart from working for school and training with the team I would also have to campaign. So I guess it's not the right time to have a crush on someone. No, it's definetly not the right time to fall in love with a classmate. You may be asking 'why not' now but that's just because I didn't mention yet that my school is an all boy boarding school. Only boys. Therefore the object of my desire is male. And indeed I would be glad whether this was the sole problem. The truth is that the guy is very well known all over school for being a weirdo, acting daffy and hyperactivly taking photos of every embarrassing situation he gets to see. Unfortunately the truth is too, that I could laugh about his slogans all day and I think about his laughter all night. I'm totally smitten with his long blonde hair and his amazing turquoise eyes. I'm pretty sure he doesn't even know my name, but whenever I see him my heart starts jumping. Even though I'm only a few centimetres smaller than him (and he's stunningly tall) by the time we randomly meet I just feel petty. He will never notice me and as a candidate for the student's presidency I have no chance to make him see… Dammit. I shouldn't have thoughts like this. All I should think about is my training, my schoolwork and my candidacy – I can't dissappoint Shinomia-san, who trusts in me. But still all I can observe is this one person: Honjou Matsuri.
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These days make me feel uneasy.
Hashiba Sora one of my schoolmates was hospitalized. He had fallen out of the fourth floor's window but luckily only gained slight injuries. Still we don't know the reason for this occurrence. I discussed the matter with president Shinomia who asked me:
"Do you think he really fell out the window because of being sleepy like some pupils say?"
I shook my head "We inspected the place of happening. The window was destroyed completely and there were glass spinters everywhere. This is only possible if someone went through the glas by force…."
"So" Shinomia-san interrupted "For that you think he tried to kill himself?"
"If he was then only out of affect." I replied without further thinking "Normally suicides are commited by taking poison or slicing an artery, not by running through a window. Even if he wanted to die by jumping, I think it would be more typical to jump from a roof…" I was a real smartass back then, huh?
"So" Shinomia-san's face had some kind of a strange look "Seems like you've thought about ways to commit suicide intensely."
WTF?? Did Shinomia-san really think I would?! That's absurd. Fortunately he continued
"In your opinion Hashiba-san is someone who would try to kill himself? Should I as the student's president interfere?"
What should I have answered on this? Sure, I know Hashiba Sora by name and we have got several lessons together but actually we never had a conversation going deeper than 'Good morning' or 'Enjoy your weekend'. Under no circumstances I had the impression of him being labile. However he is none of my friends, we are not close, so he might feel suicidal and I just wouldn't have noticed. Maybe I should have talked to him more frequently. Suddenly I felt guilty. Isn't it always like this? Someone kills himself and everyone says 'Oh my god, I had never see it coming, he seemed happy as ever'. Just like everyone else I'm a bloody ignoramus. I guess I'm not suited for presidency…
"Kaoru?" Shinomia-san intercepted my thoughts. "You are considering hard. I presume you're not sure?"
"You're just right, Shinomia-san, I'm not sure…. I'm sorry. I can't tell what Hashiba is thinking, I don't know him that good. And therefore I have no idea what made him fall."
"So am I" the president gave me a reassuring smile. "I don't know him either but I guess noone knows everyone's heart. That's why we have certain friends."
He is great. Isn't he great? No, he isn't only great, he is what you call amazing. President Shinomia is empathetic and friendly, calm and warm, although he is the perfect type of a leader, strong, ambitious and selfconfident. I truly admire him but in the middle of my heart I fear the burden of being his successor.
"Kaoru?"
I shouldn't be that absent-minded, I know.
"Don't' worry to much."
He shouldn't be that compliant, I think.
"Let's see what we can do without jumping into the matter. Do you know anyone close to Hashiba? His best friend?"
"Um.." Sure I know the closest friend of Hashiba Sora.
"So?"
"I guess I do, however only by name, too." I got to clean my throat here.
"That's ok. If only you know whom to talk to."
WHAT??? Talk to? Him? It can't be. Shinomia-san does not really want me to talk to… Matsuri.
"Would you mind to go and see him today or tomorrow? I would feel relieved if he thinks of the whole matter as an accident. If not, we got to do something in order to help Hashiba to regain strengh."
Oh, I wouldn't mind to go and see Matsuri today or tomorrow. I wouldn't mind to go and see him everyday in forever. The problem is just…
"Would you, Kaoru?"
Certainly. I will just go to Matsuri, fly myself into his arms and… Dammit, did I just blush?
"Sure, I will, Shinomia-san. I will immidiately look for him…"
"No," Shinomia-san laughed "Hashiba is still in hospital and out of danger. There is no need for you to skip your clubactivities. You can look for that guy later…"
Clubactivities? The only club I can think of activities right now is the Matsuri-Fanclub. I'm the first member, president and treasury (but clubs with only one member aren't accepted, so it only exists in my phantasy..)
"By the way." The president is really patient. If I were him I would have kicked my own ass by now "Who is the guy you are thinking of?" Shinomia-san wants to know
"Honjou Matsuri." And YES I am thinking of him. Always.
"Oh that guy." Shinomia-san said and I know he was thinking 'jerk' but he would never say it out loud.
Dammit. It's really not the right time to have a crush on someone, especially I shouldn't be in love with…
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"Excuse me." I knock at Honjou Matsuri's door. I have never been here before. On the door there is a signboard telling about 'dorm master Matsuri, a festival and the suggest just to ask him for whatever' Some people might have naughty thoughts reading this, but not me, I'm just cool.
"Please come in." I hear his voice from inside.
I enter the room, looking for my host. He is sitting on his desk printing pictures. And he is the most beautiful person I've ever seen in my life.
As he recognices me, he stands up.
"Nakajima-san, hi, how are you?" he welcomes me. I had not expect him to know me.
"Thank you, Honjou-san. I'm sorry to disturb you." I'm surprised. My voice sounds absolute sedately and I act as if I'd feel just easy, eventhough I do not.
"Oh, no problem! Please take a seat." He is pointing to his bed. I quietly sit down and he places himself on his only chair again. I'm only SITTING on his bed, you crazy people! Nothing else is happening. We are both fully dressed.
"How can I help you, Nakajima-san?" Matsuri asks me
You could get undressed…
"I'm here at the request of president Shinomia. He wishes some question to be discussed with you."
"Oh, your predescessor?" He queries. Does he doubt my motives?
"Our current president." I feel my smile getting frozen. I don't know why.
"You will be at the next election, nobody doubts that." He still smiles so warmly. "You have been his right hand since the two of you met, so it's only logical for you to be his follower."
"You are informed about the council matters pretty well." Am I being harsh?
"A wee bit." He responses friendly.
"Not many people are." This was meant to be a compliment but it doesn't sound like it. "I mean.." I want you, now! "the majority of the students doesn't even know our vice-president Iwai-san. I guess everyone could tell he was vice-president and none would even question it." What the hell am I talking about?
"Yeah." He approves. "It's a great pity."
"I guess." I say regarding my feet. I guess, I should stop saying 'I guess' and just change the subject. I look up into his eyes. They are so amiable and he is still smiling at me, even though I don't deserve it.
"President Shinomia." It's like I'd dwell upon this subject yet. "Is very worried about Hashiba Sora who is supposed to be your closest friend."
"Is that so? Sora is doing fine." Matsuri ensures me. "He only has slight injuries and will be back at school soon. There is no need to worry. Sora really had good luck. But please thank the president for his concern, Nakajima-san."
Ok, how to say it gentle?
"The student's council is wondering whether he wanted to commit suicide." I go like a bull at a gate. I really deserve a kick in the ass today because I'm acting like a complete asshole. My friends used to call me insightful, I guess they are wrong (I guess again).
"Oh." No smile anymore.
That's all my fault. His friend fell out of a fourth floor window and all I express are the wishes of some useless punk's association – forgive me Shinomia-san.
"I mean…" I try to give it a better turn. "If he feels overwhelmed by some problems, maybe we could be helpful, I mean." 'I mean' isn't any better than 'I guess' and saying it twice in one sentence makes it worse.
Suprisingly my beloved Matsuri starts to smile again. An unbelievable reassuring and at the same time disarming smile.
"Just as I told you." He states "There is no need to worry. As you know there will be a transfer soon and after this transfer Sora will always be happy, I guarantee you. Because the student who will join our school is Hashiba Sora's true closest friends and the love of his life. So you see, there's no necessity for sorrow."
Aureate. How can anyone be so lovely. If I'd put forth my hand I could reach him, touch him. Maybe I could even pull him close and…
"I see. Thanks a lot for taking your time, Honjou-san. I hope I didn't molest you too much. Please deliver Hashiba-san the students council's best wishes." I stand up preparing to leave.
"You didn't molest me at all, Nakajima-san. I hope I was able to resolve all your doubts." Matsuri respondes friendly. I want him to be mine. I want him so badly.
"Thank you." I bow and head for the door.
"You're very welcome." I hear his voice behind me, but I'm already out of the door. Me , the always busy future stundet council leader, me, the complete dumbass.
I walk towards my room wondering whether taking another shower would help me to relax although I have already showered three times after training before I went to meet Matsuri and it didn't help me. I ask myself if anyone knows about my feelings but indeed I seem to act quite normal towards others. Everyday I follow the lessons, I reach good results, I help out at the student council, train karate with my team and then hang out with some friends. Probably it's my routine which helps me out. Otherwise I am surrounded by people close to me all day. Is it really possible that nobody has noticed yet? Oh I wish I could tell somebody but there is noone I could talk to about this: I'm madly in love with a guy who is known as an awkward jerk even to Shinomia-san. Dammit. (I should defintly stop swearing)
I decide not to have another shower because thinking of the most gorgeous person on this planet might cause reactions I don't want to experience in public.
So I just go to bed far too early.
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All the names of the Ocs are tributes to the Anime "Gakuen Heaven