If I was stronger?
If I was better?
Would I still have lost you?
If I wasn't insulting you?
If I had accepted you as my friend?
Would you still be whit that lazy bum instead of me?
If I hadn't left for my dream?
If I had told you I love you?
Would you love me back?
But maybe its better this way because you seem happy, are you?
Two months after I finely could come back to you
I saw the look you sheered, you blushing and him smirking.
The happiness you radiate from those Skye blue eyes.
The smile tugging on your lips.
Your tan hands on his shoulders as he held you around the waist.
I also saw the sly look on his face as you shyly looked away, the glare he sent my way and then the grin as he pulled you closer.
And then finely the smug look telling me whiteout words that he was the winner of the most important battle. Your love.
I guess he where saving his energy to just that while I spend all mine on arguing whit you to get your attention.
I saw the gentle look in his eyes before he kissed you and starting to make his way from the monument whit you still in his arms smiling.
I remember the prickling pain behind my eyes, the hurt in my chest and the taste of defeat on my tongue.
I had lost.
I had lost the most important thing in my life, my light, my love.
When I asked you later on why him you said
"You can't choose who you are going to fall for. I didn't ask for it, I just fell and fell hard. You know Sasuke, Shika is my everything and I wouldn't want it any other way."
I understand that it doesn't matter how much praying whishing and hoping I do, the blond kitsune will never be mine.
So I settled whit being your friend.
I just wish I Knew what I did or didn't do for it to be this way, but that really doesn't matter cause I can't change the past I just want to tell you I love you.