Preface
Camp. It's always so hot when I get there. I'm not even going to mention the bugs, or the smell. But apart from all of that, Camp St. Charles is my, well, second home. I was so glad to be back. The friends, real friends, who didn't care how you looked, sometimes embraced the idea of crazy. It was the perfect place for someone who didn't fit in. Someone like me. So left out at school, but accepted at this small isolated place, for just one month every year, I felt like I was where I belonged, but all too soon, I had to leave. My sanctuary. My safe haven. My second home.
It was another hot day at camp. When wasn't it hot? I don't know. It was breakfast time. I still had half of cabin clean up to do. That was going to really take a lot of work on my part. It wasn't something that I particularly enjoyed doing, but it was something that had to be done. I sighed. The rest of the day wasn't too bad, but all that I really wanted to do was go back to sleep. My team had sports and I had to play.
"Hey, could you pass me a bowl?" someone asked me. I was so used to passing stuff up and own the table that I didn't even know who asked. Maybe I was going insane. I hoped so. This was definitely a day that I wished I was at home with my family. I was so thirsty. Why couldn't Carlisle send some blood with me in my trunk? Oh, right, it would look really bad if a camper had bags of blood in there stuff. I should stop giving Jasper a hard time, he was right. Not hunting for three weeks is hard. Visiting Sunday seemed so far away. I knew that if I slipped that Carlisle would be mad, but for crying out loud, I wasn't even a full vampire. Only one fourth. "Are you paying attention?" Karin asked me. I looked up. They were used to me not saying much sometimes. When I got thirsty, but they knew it for a different reason, but I didn't know what that was, around Visiting Sunday, I would talk much.
"Your activities are, Challenge Course, Football, and you have Basketball after lunch," Karin told us.
Great. In Challenge Course, they always made us do an activity where you had to physically touch. Hopefully I could hold my breath or something. This shouldn't be this hard I argued with my self. I should have control, I should be able to resist. And all too soon, Laura rang the bell for quiet. Announcements, then back to the cabin. At least it wasn't siesta. The stagnant air of the cabin would surely drive me insane. At least Alice was here with me. I could talk to her about what I was going through. She was my adopted sister and a full vampire. It had been a month since she had last been hunting. She had it worse than I did. Our pitch black eyes met for a second, we nodded and looked away. Everyone else was so absorbed in what they were doing, that they didn't notice.
When we all got back to the cabin, I asked Alice,
"Is it always this hard, the longer you go?" No one else would know what we were talking about, but Alice would.
"Yes it is. And it's going to get worse," she replied. "Why didn't you eat breakfast?" She asked me. I could eat human food after all.
"I'm not in the mood for food, and whatever goes on my plate, I have to eat," I said. That was the rule. That was why Alice was in the nurse's place, so much, because she couldn't digest her food. Only blood. She had to choke it up. Poor thing. I on the other hand could eat but chose not to. I was only half there during cabin clean up. My mind was really at home, no, in the forest where, Emmett, Edward, and I would go hunting. It was so much fun, but as soon as I thought of blood, my throat started burning.
"Ow!" I exclaimed.
"You ok, Meg," Mary Beth asked me.
"Yeah, I'm fine," I replied.
I sighed again. This wasn't going so well. I knew I would have to sneak out to go hunting, and if I got caught…well, I would be in big trouble. It was a good thing we didn't have horses. I definitely would have bitten one of them, and might not have been able to stop. Not to mention the horse wouldn't let me close to it. I would stay with Alice in the stable and we could talk about whatever. I couldn't lose control like that. Alice would have been right behind me.
Great. There's the bell. Touching a human, or being that close was not a good idea. Oh well, I would deal with it. Note to self, send Carlisle a letter since they cant be read by other people to send me blood or bring some soon. I was going to snap if he didn't.