Hi! This is Trisara Eaton, and I'm writing this A/N in 2015, like a day after I posted chapter 26. Okay, now for those new readers, PLEASE READ THIS: My first couple chapters' writing are pretty shit, I admit. They are cringe worthy, and so I'll be rewriting them. Please bear with these crap chapters! If you wanna know what my writing now is like, go to the recently updated chapters. I didn't really make the best first impression with my writing for this fanfiction :s
I'll state at the top of each chapter whether they have been edited yet. I'll put an indication there. I'll state whether my A/Ns in the early chapters are written in 2015 or not. The A/N below is written by adorable and innocent young me. :3
Without further ado, my first chapter, written when I was convinced that my writing was actually good! :D (lol no xD)
Tobias' POV
I can't live like this anymore, I can't live a life without her. I miss her, my Tris. I wish she didn't disappear. There is a possibility that she is gone... Forever.
So here I am, going to the Fear Landscape again. Specifically, the fifth time today. I know this is ridiculous, but what else can I do? Everything else will remind me of her. Even when I sleep, I dream of her. Her gorgeous blonde hair, her amazing laugh, her beautiful face...
Snap out of it, Tobias! Try to forget her!
Although the Fear Landscape reminds me of her more than other things do, at least I will be distracted by other things. I will be so focused on my fears that I will forget that she isn't in my life anymore, maybe even in this world.
"Hey, Four."
Her sweet smiles...
"Oi, Four."
Her great courage...
"Number boy, are you even listening to me?!"
Her inborn selflessness...
I suddenly feel a sharp sting on my face.
"Ow! Zeke, what the hell!" I shout as I bring my hand to my cheek where my best friend just slapped me. Zeke shakes his head. The younger Pedrad however, laughs his ass off. "Aw man Zeke, you are so screwed when he gets you back!" Zeke's response to that remark is to jab his brother in the ribs. Uriah jabs him back. I ignore them and go on my way.
Once I reach the Fear Landscape, I pick up a syringe. I already have a few of them littered on the ground from earlier on. I see a sudden flash of movement in my periphery. It would usually be hard to tell who it was, but there is no mistaking that grey streak.
"Come out, Tori, I know you're there," I call out. Tori's movement is slow, as if she's afraid of me, but her facial expression begs to differ. It is stern, as if she is a parent about to scold a child for taking a cookie out of the jar again. That might be quite relatable to the situation right now, actually. She stares at me and says with an edge in her voice, "Four, you are not going in there again."
"And who says you can stop me?" I reply as I focus on fixing up the syringe. She glares at me. "It's the fifth time you're going in there."
"Yeah. And?"
"And," she sighs, "who knows what might happen if you go into your Fear Landscape that much? No one has ever used it as much as you have recently." A list of endless possibilities on what could happen appears in my mind. I shake my head. "I don't think that will happen, Tori. I think you're just paranoid."
"It's better to be safe than sorry."
She puts a hand on my shoulder. "But who am I to stop you?" Her voice holds defeat. "I can't make you do something that is against your will."
She's giving me a choice. Either I turn away from this place and go about my life like any other Dauntless, or I still stay here and face my fears. I think we both know which one I'll choose.
"I can't stop you from going in there," she mutters. "But promise me."
I look at her. What does she want me to promise her?
"Promise me that this will be the last time that you go into your Fear Landscape, at least for this week." She pleads. To be honest, I don't know if I can do that, but I promise her anyway. She smiles weakly.
"I guess I am kind of paranoid." She says with a sad chuckle. I take the syringe and insert it into my neck. I push the plunger.
"Oh, and Four, one more thing." I turn around.
"Be brave."
And then she disappears.
Yay! Chapter one! :D Now don't worry that this is kinda short(I think) but it's just a 'preview'. I want to hear your feedback. Thanks so much for reading, I appreciate it. And don't worry, there will be fluff(LOTS OF IT), specifically FourTris fluff.(DEFINITELY GONNA BE LOADS OF IT) I will surely update soon, so look forward for more! BYEEEE!
Nyaning in the Fear Landscape
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