Title: Scared
Author: Classic She
Paring: Josh/Amy
Rating: G
Spoilers: None
Legalities: Not mine, they just tell me things and I scribble it down.
Summary: Musings on what isn't meant to be.
Loneliness and aching desire are devouring my soul.
But I won't do anything. I've examined his words, over and over, does he want commitment?
I'm scared he would say no. I'm scared he would say yes.
I'm scared that in a month I would be downing shots of vodka and shaking.
I'm scared that I would lose myself in him.
I'm scared that I will be lonely forever.
I'm scared that I will just keep falling and falling and never hit bottom.
I'm scared that I will hit bottom.
I'm scared of him, of being with him, of loving him.