Chapter 1

fell for you

But you didn't have to cut me off...

Amy was just about to finish lunch when Shane came to the table. He sat down next to Amy. She stopped the music playing from her iPod. The last couple months were tough from that hellish wedding night where she stupidly confessed her love to Karma. Now almost five months from that night, Amy would sell her soul for a time machine to convince herself not to do that mistake. Every day all she could think about was Karma. She even made a sad playlist and she was listening to it almost every day. Shane knew all this because they have been really close after that incident you could say brother and sister kind of close.

"Hey, beautiful!" Shane was looking exceptionally well today. Amy noticed that.

"Hey Shane, you are looking good."

"I know, I look good every day if you didn't notice Amy."

"Shut up, but I mean you look really good today what is happening?"

"Nothing is happening Amy, I swear." Amy gave Shane the I know you are lying face and Shane gave up.

"All right I have a date."

"Do you mean right now?" Amy was surprised, she knew Shane, well almost a year now, she taught she knew everything about him, but did she really.

"No not right now you big dork" Shane gave her a friendly smile, and then he continued "later after school I have a date with a barista from that new coffee shop."

"You are unbelievable Shane, we were there yesterday and you have a date with him already? What happened with the sad Shane? I remember your telling me that after Pablo you are not dating for another year."

"I got over him."

"I wish it was that easy for me that it is for you Shane."

"Amy it is easy, go out meet people I know what I will tell you now will probably hurt you and your feelings, but I can't hold it any longer."

"Shane what are you talking about?" Amy was confused and had this strange feeling in her stomach; she didn't like the words that were coming out from Shane's mouth.

"Amy you know I like you and I would never hurt you, right?"

"I know that Shane, but why are you telling me this?"

"You need to move on, just like I moved on you need too. Go out, you still got that account from the dating site you tried months ago."

"Yeah, that is not happening Shane, you remember how embarrassing it was, the date with Jasmine I think she has a restraining order against me." Shane bursts into laughter, then his face came down to his chest.

"What is wrong, Shane?"

"Karma doesn't love you, and I know how hard is it to hear it from anybody especially from me because we are so close, but I want the best for you. In my opinion, Karma doesn't deserve you Amy, you two haven't spoken almost five months now and I can´t look at you like this, you are like a ghost all your happiness is gone, you no longer smile and I know about those nights where you cry yourself to sleep. Lauren told me, and I am glad she did, you can´t treat yourself like this Amy, please not for me, not for Karma, but for yourself get over her please." As he was speaking tears rolled down his face. Amy just listened and no matter how much did this hurt her he was right and she knew it. The truth hurts too much they even haven't spoken since the wedding night as she was recapping what happened the only thing she could think of was that one sentence; I love you too, Amy, more than anyone else on Earth. Just not like that. Amy's tears rolled down to her cheeks and when she realized that she almost started crying busted out of dining room and she hid herself in the women´s bathroom and started crying again.

"Shane?" Amy approached him slowly; she didn't want to scare him or anything like that not after she stormed from the canteen two hours ago.

"Uhm… Hi, Amy." Shane was glad that he was seeing her he got really concerned after that scene at the canteen. "Tom could you excuse me for a moment."

"Of course."

"Is he British? I love his accent is so sexy."

"Amy, you are gay do you remember?"

"Yeah, about that I am sorry if I am interrupting something. I just wanted to apologize for what happened back there I broke down I started to cry and then I realized that you were right. I am so sorry Shane, you we right all this time, but I wouldn't listen to you and…" Shane put his finger on her lips. "Shhh… It is okay, it was all my fault."

"No don't say that…"

"Amy if somebody should apologize it would be me, so I am sorry, but I want you to know somebody new. So go on the dating site, I promise it won´t be like the last time with Jasmine."

"All right Shane, what would I do without you." She gave him a big hug. She say goodbye, put her headphones on and walked home to the beautiful singing of Billie Joe Armstrong, she didn't know how this song got into her sad playlist, but she liked the meaning of it.

You're out of sight but not out of mind

I had a dream that I kissed your lips and it felt so true
Then I woke up as a nervous wreck and I fell for you….