Disclaimer: I don't own Code Geass
A/N: I got the idea while I watched a sad Code Geass AMV regarding Euphemia's death, a reminder of a terrible tragedy that happened in this series.
Anyways, this is my first one shot. This is Lelouch's POV regarding how he felt during the tragedy of Special Administration Zone that caused the lives on not only Princess Euphemia but also the many Japanese people who were there.
The Loss of a Sister
Euphemia, the sister that I treasured second only to Nunnally. The day of the Special Administration Zone, you were prepared to sacrifice everything to make sure people succeeded in coexisting. I originally planned to have you shoot me to make myself a martyr to have the Japanese rebel against Britannia. But you defeated with me with words of declarations of your plan. It's funny, that you would say those things. I was impressed with your resolve and decided to join in your plan in condition that I didn't become your subordinate.
But your dream and those of in support of your plan was shattered and the culprit was none other than myself. How could I've not noticed that my geass was activated and that terrible command to kill all the Japanese people. I tried to reverse the command but I knew that it could not be done. The massacre began and there was nothing I could've done to save everyone from being killed. I had only one option and it was to end your life. Euphie, the first girl that I ever loved who died by my hand all because of my foolish mistake. Tears fell from my eyes when all this happened and to put a bullet in your heart.
As I saw Suzaku take you away, I did wondered, should he learn the truth, what he would do…heh, what a foolish question, revenge. It would be the same revenge I had for father for betraying my mother, myself, and Nunnally. I made the decision to use the terrible tragedy to make the attempt to take free Japan from Britannia and call you…a murdering Britannian princess…I'm a cruel man to do this to you and I want to apologize to you so much for it.
Euphie, do you hate me? Do you despise me? Heh, of course you do and why not, I destroyed your life with my geass, I was careless and I used your death and the deaths of innocent people in the SAZ to cover my tracks. If I could bring you back to life by apologizing, I apologize as much as it took. But I know that it's impossible and illogical for that.
Euphemia li Britannia, my beloved half-sister, I know what I say will not repair the damage I've done to you nor will it repair the heartaches I've caused to those that loves you as well but what I can do know is that your dream of a better world will come true, I swear it. It's the only thing I can do for you. What happens to me after that is not something I have a right to say about it.