Okay this is just a random song fic.
It's based on Umbrella, I think it suit's how Eli feels. Or might feel.
I do NOT own Degrassi or the song. You should listen to the song as you read it's a good song
Low- Marianas Trench
LOW
Tear those pictures off the wall
I don't think I will need them all again
I think the problem here is there's nothing wrong
I guess that I can coast along for now
Little bit, little more, There's something missing
I'm missing the point I did before
I watched Clare walk down the street pushing her bike, I know she's mad at me, but I couldn't do it, I couldn't allow her to do it. What was I supposed to do? She was doubting everything she believed and I couldn't be sure she wasn't going to think about this tomorrow and regret it...if it had happened. I walked back to my house and into it. Listening to my parents talk about something or another.
I'm sorry that I'm always the one to let you down again
And I feel so ashamed
It should have been easy
(I feel so low)
And I want you to know
That I won't let go again
(I feel so low)
You were the first to knock me down
In a way I guess we're even now
And I know I only used that first to justify
But maybe that's not just a lie
who knows
I walked up the stairs and into my room, hitting the power button on my stereo as I walked to my bed, I flopped onto the black and red sheets and stared at my ceiling, I had messed up with Clare again. I didn't stop myself from thinking about everything from Julia to today with Clare. I needed to fix this, I care too much not too and I meant it when I told her I wasn't going anywhere.
Little bit, little more, There's something missing
I'm missing the point I did before
I'm sorry that I'm always the one to make you feel that burn
And I feel so ashamed
This used to be easy
(I feel so low)
But I want you to know
That I won't let go again
(I feel so low)
I'm even ashamed to admit that when she had told me the last time that she wanted to be with me I almost caved, I jerked my hands out of her grasp so I didn't pull her to me and crush her lips against mine and bring her up to my room. I was human and she was my girlfriend and I really did want to be with her, just not now. Not like this.
Sex was an outlet when I was with Julia, she would come over after a fight with her step mother and stay here with me, and one thing would lead to another. It complicated a relationship that really hadn't needed to be any more complicated than it already was. I can't change the way things were and I can't take it back...I wouldn't I loved her.
I feel so tired, tired
You get so tired, tired
You get so tired, tired
tired, tired
And I feel so ashamed
It should have been easy
(I feel so low)
And I want you to know
That I won't let go again
(I feel so low)
Loved, past tense. Julia was gone and Clare is where I see my future, I just have to fix this. Closing my eyes I push myself up and look around my room seeing a picture of Julia and me together I get up and walk to it. Picking it up and walking to my closet, I drop it into a box. Goodbye to my past and hello to my future.
Walking the short distance I logged into my laptop and then to twitter.
RealEli-Eli Goldsworthy : TrueClare Please call me we need to talk, I need to explain.
I would wait for an hour than I was going to call her, if she ignored that, I was getting in Morty and driving over. This wasn't done. I let go once, and I'm not about to do it again. Not this time, not with Clare.
And I feel so ashamed
This used to be easy
(I feel so low)
But I want you to know
That I won't let go again
(I feel so low)
Okay so there it is, just a little fanfic that came to my mind while listening to the song.
Read and review please. I love reading what you guys think.
Signing off.