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Chapter 1

Even though Ah am totally grateful for being allowed tah join the team and finally go out on a mission. Ah thought that it would never end. He was too fast for everyone tah catch, even Cyclops was having troubles, not wanting tah hurt really hurt him, nor anyone else, but just tah nick his feet. Storm and Ah came up with a plan. She brewed up a massive gust of wind, and he was tah be blown towards mah. But Ah was only able tah touch him, for a second - on the neck the only part exposed. He was too fast. But Ah got enough tah slow him down, while Ah gained speed. Ah caught up with him and Cyclops took over. This did go faster than I thought, plus he was only one that we had tah take care of.

For the next little while, Ah couldn't help but be running everywhere - fast, Ah might add. But it did help on the next mission, everything went so smoothly. Ah was glad tah be back up this time. The only thing Ah never counted on, that Quicksilver was trying tah get me tah go against mah team members, after all we were going after his. Thank goodness Ah didn't have tah touch anyone.

Quicksilver's speed finally caught up with me when Ah tripped over, ran over is more like it, Professor X. As Ah was getting back up tah mah feet, Ah wanted tah laugh and cry at the same time. Ah must have looked so confused, because Professor X put what he was going tah do aside and took me into his office.

"So Rogue, is there something you would like to talk about," he said as he poured a glass of water for me.

"Not too much, only that Ah seem tah be having problems dealing with some people," as Ah tapped mah temple.

"Like what?" he asked.

"Ah don't mind having their powers, in fact it quite fun sometimes. Other times Ah get scared, not knowing what they are truly capable of doing. Ah always could feel them inside, but now I'm starting tah hear them," Ah tried explaining the best Ah could tah him.

Professor Xavier told mah that he'd be leaving for a few weeks but when he returns he'd go into mah head and see if he could help me out. But in the meantime, he gave me some mental thought techniques exercises tah clam the voices down. It seemed tah have worked, Ah wasn't hearing the voices as much, they were easier tah control, even their powers.

Jean was in charge while Professor Xavier was gone. Apparently she thought Ah was strong enough tah go on the next mission. Even though Professor Xavier, advised her that Ah might need some more time. Ah, myself wasn't sure, but Ah wasn't going tah bow down either. Ah had something tah prove - tah myself. Ah want tah be an X-man - badly and Ah have tah make sure that everyone else knew that Ah could . So off we went. Ah was told tah stay in the Balckbird, which made me wonder why Jean wanted me tah come in the first place. Jean had her bone tah pick with Toad, considering that he slimed her the last time. Storm and Sabretooth were at it again. And that's when Ah couldn't just sit there in the jet as Sabretooth had Storm pinned - saying she still owed him a scream. She wasn't able tah break out of his grip. So Ah ran, using Quicksilver's power, grabbed Storm out of his grip and watched her fly away. That's when he pounced on me. Well that went just dandy, Ah sarcastically told mahself, as he had me pinned down now. Ah found my opportunity when he released one hand.

"So you brave?" he said tah me as he pushed back mah hair to see mah face.

"Compared tah some," Ah shot back as Ah ungloved mah hand and touched him.

Ah had never heard an animal cry in pain like that before. Ah got lost in his cries that Ah almost forgot tah let go. Ah didn't want tah kill him - just stop him. Ah pushed him off me, Ah can't believe how strong he was, or maybe it was Logan. Logan, boy did Ah miss him. Ah hated when the Professor sends us out on different missions. Ah wonder if he does it because he doesn't want us to distract one another, or if he's testing me to see if Ah can make it on mah own without Logan protecting me. Once Ah was back on my feet Ah watched as Jean took care of Toad. Then as she picked up the vile and was coming back to the Blackbird.

"Thank you Rogue," Storm said, as she was warming the jet.

"My pleasure," Ah said with a smirk

"Well, I'm glad you do always follow instructions," Jean said as she sat down and buckled her belt. Storm gave Jean a look, that if it had words would say what the hell.

"What? Storm said.

"She still has to learn to obey instructions," Jean shot back to Storm

"You've gotta be kidding?" Storm said, then looked away as she took off.

Ah wasn't sure what to make of it. Jean was right and wrong at the same time. What, would she do just sit in the jet and watch her friend get hurt? Nah, and neither would Ah.

"I'm just kidding." Jean said. Ah think she said that after she read mah thoughts. Ah know, Ah felt her in there. Ah wasn't to sure she was kidding though.

Ah wished that Professor Xavier would hurry back. Ah needed him, Ah needed his help. Ah wanted him tah go inside mah head tah help me control Sabretooth. Ah never wanted tah touch him, and Ah thought that he would know better. Ah'm sure Magneto must have told him about mah mutation, cause he did seem tah touch me more carefully during the whole Statue of Liberty situation.

As much as Ah hated mahself for doing so, Ah was avoiding Logan like a plague. Mah heart felt for him, he didn't understand, and Ah couldn't blame him. Sabretooth hated Logan, well Wolverine. His actions and voice, in mah head was all too clear. Ah don't want tah be too close tah Logan just incase Ah, in case Sabretooth hurts him. Ah was so glad that Professor Xavier called on Logan tah join him for the duration of his mission, or whatever he was doing.

"Marie," Logan called out tah mah as Ah left the study.

"Yes, sugar," Ah answered him

"I'm not sure what's going on, what's going through your head, but when I come back I'll talk....ki.......... darin'," he said.

He took a step closer tah me. Ah didn't mean tah make mah movement so pronounced, as Ah backed away from him. Ah could see the hurt and confusion in his eyes. Even when nah one else could. He was still in my head, and Ah liked it that way. Ah always felt safe, even when he wasn't physically around.

"Of course," Ah answered him back and quickly gave him a kiss on the cheek and jogged away. Ah had to touch him and not completely kill our bond.

"Take care Logan," Ah said just before Ah left the room. Ah could feel his stare on me. Ah hated being so distant from him, from the one person Ah love so much and beyond. Ah would do anything for him. That's why Ah needed the Professor Xavier back - badly.

Ah was so glad that Professor Xavier came the next day, but Logan didn't. Ah that sounded mean, but it wasn't meant tah be. Logan took over the mission and wasn't sure when he was returning. Ah missed him so even if it was for one day, but Ah had more important things tah take care of.

That evening Professor X and Ah were in his office. Ah laid down on the sofa while he entered mah head. Ah could feel him lost and confused. Ah felt sorry for him. There inside he finally found Magneto, Ah was happy that he didn't invade anything else, the rest was private. Magneto told him that he wasn't going to do anything. That there wasn't much he could do in mah head.

"Good than, you could keep Sabretooth and Quicksilver in line," Charles said to his old friend

"That's what old friends do for each other," Eric's answer indicated he wanted something in return.

"What is your price Eric?" Charles asked

"Simple, to survive........and all in good time, my old friend," Eric left and retreated to his own hideaway inside Rogue's head.

Ah felt drained, but at peace when Professor X came back.

"Ya did it, Ah can't feel them, thank ya so much, and thank ya for not touching Logan," Ah said and wrapped mah arms around him for a hug.

"Rogue, Magneto and the others will always have tricks up their sleeves, please tell me the second it starts up again," he said as Ah was leaving the room.

"Will do.........Oh is there anyway Ah could speak with Logan?" Ah asked

"He'll call to give me an update, I'll transfer his call to you, once we complete our conversation," he said and smiled at me, knowing that Ah was feeling better.

Ah jumped when the phone rang, it was about 3 a.m., who'd be calling now . Logan. Ah jumped right out of bed and made a speed run to the phone. Ah didn't go into details about what happened, but did explain that Professor X helped me out and that everything was better. Ah apologized for being so distant from him and that Ah'd tell him everything when he's back.

"It's alright Darin', I'm just glad your ok now," he said

"Thanks Logan, good night," Ah said and hung up the phone.

TBC