Alone - Skytato

by JinxedJaguar

Tyler thought no one cared, no one loved him. Especially the person he was madly in love with - Adam or Skydoesminecraft. But it's already too late.

MunchingBrotato:

I couldn't live with myself knowing that I would never be able to tell him, knowing that he would never care for me as I cared for him. It broke my heart. Adam would never guess that I loved him, or how much I cared for him. He had 7,000,000 subscribers that he had to work for. I guess I never crossed his mind.

And I knew that it was selfish, but I wanted him to always be there beside me. For him to care for me, for him to feel the same way. But I knew my longings for Adam were only dreams. Hopeless imaginations and dreams that could never come true or be fulfilled. He would never think about the fact that any of his friends liked him.

To make it worse, there was no one there for me. My family was always too busy to notice and I pretty much had no friends. No one could ever take me seriously. I tried telling Kyle about it, but he thought I was telling some joke. No one knew many attempts to end my life, or the feeling like I was slowly dying.

But there was one time. One time that he might've cared. At the end of a survival/hunger games recording, he said, "Tyler, I'm visiting your providence of Canada for a week, can I visit?" I just sat in my chair in disbelief, but I managed to say 'yes' and gave him my address. He told me that he would visit in on Thursday 2 days a head of time. All the days in-between, I cleaned up to give a good impression on Adam. But he never came. Friday came, and I thought he had something else. Saturday came, and I thought he forget. But when Sunday came, I realized that he only forgot because he didn't care. For the first time in so long, I had hope. A hope that would be crushed 6 days later.

I felt broken once I realized it. You could easily forget my face, I'm seen as the sidekick, even if I had no one to work for. You wouldn't think that I would care if you insulted me, but it still hurts deep down. I was just a pebble to everyone. No one cares for it, no one would think about it, everyone would just ignore it and most likely step on it.

So I ended it. I stabbed myself. When I wanted and needed him most (which is a lot) he wasn't there. At the time, I thought I was alone. I thought I was doing everyone a favor. But at the last second, right before I blacked out, I saw him. The last thing I heard was, "No! I never got to tell you how much I love you..." I guess he did care.