Just another one of my kames drabbles. Enjoy!
I woke up with James' arms still wrapped around me. I couldn't help but smile as he lay in bed sound asleep.
I never really imagined that we would get together or let alone marry each other. Now that I think about it, through the start of this whole relationship, I never really felt anything for James but mere brotherly love and if I think harder, I never really answered the question that often haunted my late nights alone...
Did I really love James Diamond?
Or...
Was I forced to do so because he would leave Big Time Rush if I didn't?
Did I really enjoy our nights together?
Or...
Was it all just mere frustration?
So many conflicting emotions... How troublesome.
...
Was I really happy that James stole Carlos' helmet that day?
Was I really glad he wanted me and no one else?
Was I really head over heels in love with him?
...
I often asked myself these three questions and would always come up with one answer.
I brushed away the bangs covering his face which made him stir and slowly open his eyes.
"Kendall?" he asked huskily as his eyes squinted in the light of the morning.
I smiled and bent down to give him a soft kiss which he complied to almost instantly,
"Hmm.. What was that for?" he asked sitting upright staring straight at me.
" Nothing... Just... YES," I smiled looking at his confused expression.
"huh?" he stared at me still perplexed.
I nudge my head as I leaned over to give him another kiss as I rubbed my thumb on his cheek.
"Nothing, I just love you.. So dang much," I smiled and saw his cheeks flush a bright red as he pulled me close wrapping his arms around my waist before I heard him say...
"I love you too."
At that, I couldn't help but smile because this love was true and definitely worth it.