A/N: A plot-bunny born from my thoughts on the Christianity/pagan tradition holiday mix and how maybe Primus wasn't as great as he seemed...maybe even enough to condone a plot to find a new energy-source for the 13 Primes to use for their people. None of the quotes belong to me. Enjoy!

I was a queen. A goddess. Mother of so many children. Now...I am nothing. Less than nothing. A mere blip, albeit one powerful enough to power the cube that has kept me captive. How I came to be within this cube is a story in itself.

I protected my children from harm. But even I could not stop the stars from falling.

They fell, bringing life with them. Hungry life, life that was much larger than my children. I waited and watched. It was not long before the strange beings revealed their purpose. They began hunting my children down. Began destroying the very earth itself. Searching for something that neither I nor my mate could fathom.

My children, of course, fought back. They battled the invaders. But it was all in vain; they failed. My mate made many visits, ferrying their souls to Life Beyond. So many of my children were killed, until only a few were left. My children came to me and I gave them what they asked for: a way to flee the now dying world. However, the process of doing so revealed me to the beings. The creatures came in my sanctuary, destroying everything they could.

Until I was alone...alone and powerless. My mate banished from me, I was lured into a deep slumber. A deep slumber that ended with my awaking inside the cube.

For a long time, I tried to escape. All to no avail. Every attempt ended in pain and a sense of utter failure. I had failed my children in falling to this new foe. I had sent them away to a place none would find them. Not even me. Who would protect them from the darkness now? Who would comfort them when they cried, would assure them that they deserved mercy?

"The dangerous falls were the ones that happened so fast you didn't have time to react"

I brooded for a time. Until something shocked out of the surrounding darkness. The cube I was in, its symbols (the ones that kept me trapped) lit up and I discovered that I was surrounded by my children's enemies. The ones that had scattered them to the winds.

I wanted to attack, but could not, not in my current form. I filled up with energy, energy I knew was not mine. I did not expect it to be from the beings below me. Curious, I accessed codes I never knew I could open, to receive a shock. They thought I was gift from their god. A gift meant to build their race to to greatness.

My new-found knowledge led me to sink into despair. I did not think, nor care about anything for generations. They wanted energy for...something, I did not know what, and I provided it, as long as I was left alone the rest of the time. All was a strange sense of peace and numbness.

And truly, I did not care.

"The sensation of falling was the worst part."

I awake; the stars seem closer now than they were before. The world has changed. I pay attention to the scurrying almost-insects around me for the first time, learning much from the experience.

"Prime, are you sure you want to do this? Send the Allspark into space." A firm voice replies. "Yes, Jazz. I am sure. The only way to find an end to this war is if the Allspark is out the Decepticons' reach." "If you say so..."

I feel for my children's connections, having neglected checking them. I am surprised to find that my bonds are far more numerous. These bonds lead to the almost-insects surrounding me, so much like the beings of the past. They are my children as well, I find. The past-beings did not foretell this, I know it. Did not foretell that their captured once-goddess would build up her forces as a result from their enslavement.

I will protect my children. No matter if they my old children or new. They are mine to protect. I glimpse new hope now. Perhaps I will find my mate again in my 'launch' to the heavens. Find my old children, who have been alone for so long.

I touch the stars now, sailing through space in my prison. I am a queen. A goddess. Mother of so many children. And...I am the Allspark.

"Sometimes it takes a good fall to really know...The only thing that counts is whether you get back up."