Title: And Time Won't Stop

Title: And Time Won't Stop.

Author: Sarah

E-mail: sajo_morningstar@angelfire.com

Rating: PG-13

Disclaimer: I don't own the stars or characters, of Gilmore Girls or the lyrics of "Mary". I don't know who does but it's not me. I don't even own my car!

Summary: What happens when the one that was always there is gone? Very sad and angsty. There will be three different versions of this story, one from each person's P.O.V

Category: Lorelai P.O.V, Tristan P.O.V and Dean P.O.V

Spoilers: none, well maybe a few unintentional ones from the finally… but you all should have see it already.

Author's note: This is my first Gilmore Girls fic so let me know what you think, good and bad. I love CONSTRUCTIVE criticism The song is "Mary" by Fisher. The original name in the song is Mary, but I changed it in two parts of this story.

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*RING RING!*

The alarm clock is ringing. God why won't it just shut the hell up! I reach up and throw it against the wall. It's still ringing so I get up and throw it again. It feels good to throw something so I throw it again and again and again. It's laying in pieces now. I'm crying again. I didn't think I had tears left, guess I was wrong. Before I can stop myself I'm in a heap on the floor. It's cold, so cold. Is it the floor or my heart that's so cold?

I woke up and Rory was still gone
Thought if I stopped hurting she would come back
To me
Walk right through the door and say, "Ahhh huhhhh!
I was only joking - didn't you look silly crying!"
But I wake up and Rory is still gone

This must be a joke… that's it. It's all a sick joke she's playing to get a goo laugh in. She'll walk in laughing soon… she has to. Last night I kept waking up hearing her. But when I ran down stairs all I found were the clothes they gave me, cut to shreds and covered in blood. Her blood. They had to cut all her clothes off and they still couldn't save her. She was my baby damn it! I was supposed to go first! I was ready to go first! She was too young.

I looked at the clock and it was
Still
Lying on the floor exactly where I threw it
Both hands smashed against its silver face
My feeble attempt to stop
Time but time goes on
And I wake up and Rory is still gone

What time is it? Oh yea the clock is dead now. Just like… NO… I have to get dressed. I need coffee. Rory would have the coffee already made. I slowly get up and stumble down the hall. I wish time would stop I wish I didn't have to get dressed and go talk to the funeral home I wish…Who's that? I hear someone crying. It's not Sookie. I walk faster. From the top of the stairs I see him there. Curled up in a ball on the couch. He's crying. He's holding the clothes. GOD! He's 16 he shouldn't have to feel thin much sorrow! He loved he so much. She was so happy when they got back together… but now.

"Dean?" I manage to croak out. My throat is dry from crying. I have to be strong now… for Dean. He needs me.

"Lorelai… I… I'm sorry I'll go." He jumped up.

"Wait Dean. Stay… Please." I need someone to talk to about this; I'm driving myself mad.

"Are so sure?"

"Of course, lets go in the kitchen. Are you hungry? When was the last time you ate?" That's right, keep talking… don't think about her. Hand him the Kleenex.

"Yea, food sounds good. I think I ate yesterday… wait no, it was the day before that… At the party, before…" He can't say it either. God! He's so young! Why?

Rory was it necessary
To leave before the party
I know it's selfish to say
You always brought the cake now
What will I eat with all these tears?

"Sorry it's not much, I've never been much of a cook. Here." I handed him the pop-tarts. They were her favorite. "They were her favorite, I convinced here to buy the jumbo pack because I knew she loved them. She said I was crazy, that they'd never get eaten… she was right." Oh God I'm going to cry again. NO! I have to be strong for Dean.

"Thanks Lorelai. Sorry about just showing up… I just had to go some where, I couldn't stay at home. This was the first place that came to mind." He eats pop-tarts just like Rory did, piece by piece, tearing off chunks.

"Oh no it's ok. You're always welcome here. Please don't stop coming around." FINALLY! The coffee's done. I reach up for a cup, the one I grab is the one Rory made when she was 7. No, Lorelai don't think about that sit back down talk more. "So how are you holding up?"

"Not good. I keep thinking if I had just been on time I could have gone with her and this would never have happened."

"Dean don't blame yourself. I was the one who insisted on having the cake. If I hadn't made suck a big deal about it she would never have gone to the Inn and she would never have been hit. She was just trying to make me happy." I feel the tears coming again so I shuffle some papers around.

I looked at the list and saw her name
Kick myself, she never got an invitation
Kid myself, I'm sure somehow she knew
My stupid attempt to find
Some way to move on
But I wake up and Rory is still gone
Rory is still gone

The list falls out. Her name was the first. How am I going to plan thin wedding without her! Without her Luke and I would never have gotten together and we wouldn't bee engaged. I can't do this without her. I'm crying! "I'm so sorry Dean!" I manage between sobs. He just got up and hugs me. He's such a good kid.

"It's ok. It'll be ok." We're both crying. What are we going to do without Rory!

END.

Dean P.O.V coming soon.