I don't own anything except the Idea of this story. The song I use is " By the Way" By Hinder. And it is only a One-shot.
The story is in Tommy's POV.
Ok, so I am sitting here at my kitchen table. Thinking about the last few hours. I did something I never wanted to do; I broke her heart, again. The words keep running through my head.
"Tommy, Please don't say it," She begged me.
"Jude, You Know this can't happen. You're only 17,"
" Tommy, if it can't happen then why does it keep happening. You start this, I don't. I am not the one who kisses you. You KISSED ME." She screamed at me.
" Damn it Jude, just say it never happened, so I can finish this song for Darius."
" Fine IT NEVER HAPPENED. But you know what it did and now I want you to dwell on this. On Monday at the Studio when I don't talk to you ever again because this was my last straw, I want you to see how it feels to be me. Oh yeah and stay out of my life other than recording." Then she walked out the door.
Yep there I was being an ass and I never did finish the song. I actually ran after Jude but of course she was already gone. So now I am sitting here, thinking of how much of an ass I am.
In the winding down hours
I let your heart down again
(What did I do to make a scene so gory?)
(I'm no better than the ones before me)
Old habits die hard
I always end up hating the end
(What did I do to make a scene so gory?)
(I'm no better than the ones before me)
I did it again. I hurt her again. It only took a few minutes but I did it. I never mean too but it just happens. I never mean to be like all the other guys who break her heart. But somehow I always end up like them because I can't seem to just let what I feel for her out. I keep letting the fear I have, hold me back. I always end up hating what I did to her because I know that I always break her heart a little more.
I'm in the middle of a breakdown
Watching you scream
In the middle of a breakdown
Screaming at me
And by the way
By the way
What made you think you'd have it your way?
And by the way
By the way
Don't say I didn't warn you
That I'll always stay the same
I know she seems to believe that I don't feel anything when I let her down but that is not true. I always seem to breakdown, never in front of anyone. As soon as I am alone, in my room at my apartment; I breakdown. I always replay her crying and screaming at me in my head. She trusted me again and then it went down the drain because of me. Because I had to kiss her and then tell her it was a mistake. AGAIN. I am really starting to hate that word. I seem to do things more than once and have to use that word again. But I don't know how I am supposed to change. I am trying without any notice but I never said I would change.
Speechless and frozen
Uncomfortable silence again
(What did I do to make a scene so gory?)
(I'm no better than the ones before me)
I'm in the middle of a breakdown
Watching you scream
In the middle of a breakdown
Screaming at me
And by the way
By the way
What made you think you'd have it your way?
And by the way
By the way
Don't say I didn't warn you
That I'll always stay the same
Coming into the studio was a bad idea. Jude is here and all that is going on is the silence treatment. I can't talk to her, because every time I start to say something, she walks out the door. It always seems to be the same old thing. I do something stupid and she screams at me. I know she wants me to change. I know she wants me to tell her how I feel. But I never know what to say. And when I let down what little control I have and kiss her it always backfires, because I open my mouth and say it didn't happen.
Battered and bruised
Broken confused
It's time we both knew
Can't stop what I started
This time we both lose, lose
And by the way
By the way
What made you think you'd have it your way
And by the way
By the way
Don't say I didn't warn you
That I'll always stay the same
The same, the same,
I'll always stay the same
(battered and bruised)
The same, (broken confused), the same
I didn't warn you that I'd always stay the same
I know her heart is battered and bruised. And she always seems so damn confused but not more so than me. I never mean to do the things I do. I can't stop it once I start it. It happens over and over again. I am hoping that one day I won't have to break her anymore than I have. So she is shattered right now and it is my fault but all I know is that we both are lost on this one. I lost her for good, and she lost yet another part of her heart.
My name is Tom Quincy and I am the heartbreaker of Jude Harrison.