AN: Alright, Second time through. Let's see if I can't make it better.
This story is Kigo, as in Kim/Shego. The pairing. Which means Femmeslash. If it offends, leave now. If you read it anyway, it's your own freaking fault.
I own nothing but my computer.
The lyrics in this chapter belong to the band Three Doors Down. The song is When I'm Gone.
Font is Kim's thoughts
Font is Shego's
Font is Both
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Kim sighed as she switched off her Kimmunicator, turning to her closet for her mission clothes.
Drakken again. And with Drakken came Shego…
She bit her lip, trying not to think about the green skinned girl. It wasn't…she didn't want to let them go. She had to go through with the mission, try and stop them. Even though she knew it was dangerous.
It had always been dangerous, of course. But recently…it had become even more so.
Mainly because her feelings toward her 'nemesis'…
"And when Possible gets here, she will be trapped!"
Shego rolled her eyes, still sulking against the wall as Doctor Drakken rambled on.
Fighting Kimmie again, while not at all a bad thing, was getting more and more…uncomfortable.
In truth, she wanted to be close to the redhead, without the threat of imminent pain…god, if only things were different…
"Come on KP! Ride's here!"
Kim sighed again as she followed her enthusiastic friend outside, to the waiting helicopter.
"Hey, what's wrong? Life still got you down?"
Kim shrugged.
"Well, don't worry. Wiping out Doctor D's lame schemes is sure to cheer you up."
Kim just rolled her eyes. She knew well enough how these things went. Ron bumbled around, trying to help, and would eventually end up breaking whatever it was that was supposed to destroy her, or enslave the world, or whatever.
And she would be fighting Shego. The more dangerous side of the job...sometimes she wondered if she would ever see home again…
And again, she wished it wasn't like it was.
You don't know me as well as you think, Ron…
"Are you listening Shego!?"
She wasn't. She was lost in thought, thoughts that seemed to turn towards a particular topic more and more often as time went by. Her life. And Kim's…
The girl led a dangerous life. As dangerous as her own. It was another in a long list of reasons not to try and get closer to her. She wouldn't always be there. And Shego hated the idea.
Yet another one of those little secrets of mine…
…There's another world inside of me that you may never see…
…There's secrets in this life that I can't hide…
…Somewhere in this darkness there's a light that I can't find…
…Maybe it's too far away...
…Or maybe I'm just blind...
…Maybe I'm just blind...
Kim looked down at her house as they rose into the air, slipping on the headset.
"Glad I could give you a ride, Miss Possible. I'm hopin' it'll match up to that favor you did me."
Kim smiled slightly. "No big, Mr. Delorme. It was only a little midair repair work. I'm just glad I had a friend to walk me through it."
"Well, you can thank that genius buddy of yours for me, too."
Kim just looked out the window again. Yet another dangerous job she had done. Hadn't thought anything of it at the time.
But…it made her think…what would she leave behind? Her family would be torn, and her friends would be broken. There were bound to be hundreds of people who would feel bad about it, if only for a moment.
So why did she risk it?
What did she get from it?
Nothing. She helped people, but at what cost? Yes, she had friends and family, but…she wanted something more.
She shuddered slightly as that thought led her to the one she'd been trying to avoid…
"I'm going to get some fresh air, that's where I'm going! Now leave me the hell alone!" Shego slammed the door behind her, leaving a whiney Drakken to stare around an empty room.
She'd gotten fed up with his plotting. Needed some time to think, in quiet. And get ready for the fight that was bound to happen. Hell, it was supposed to happen. There was a countdown to when it was going to happen. Kimmie's chopper was bugged for a reason, after all.
The thief turned enforcer took a deep breath as she broke into the open, a rocky platform that served as a landing pad for the hovercraft. The air was cool on this side of the small mountain, the time of day putting the sun on the opposite side of the rock. The shaded area was the perfect place to think…
Different. Why did she even want things to be different? What would be the good?
So, she could have done something more…productive. But it wouldn't have been as fun. She could have continued along the lines her education had set, but it would have been nearly unchangeable.
No control. No real freedom. Not with society in the way. All those rules.
In fact, the only perk she could see was the infinitesimal possibility of getting to know Possible.
Why did that have to be so god damn appealing?
So hold me when I'm here…
…Right me when I'm wrong.
…Hold me when I'm scared…
…And love me when I'm gone…
…Everything I am, and everything in me…
…Wants to be the one you wanted me to be…
…I'll never let you down, even if I could…
…I'd give up everything, if only for your good…
…So hold me when I'm here…
…Right me when I'm wrong…
…You can hold me when I'm scared…
…You won't always be there…
…So love me when I'm gone…
She wanted someone, she realized. Someone that could keep up. Truly keep up, not just bumble around behind her, like Ron. Someone to share her adventures with…someone who knew her.
She guessed that's why she was attracted to Shego.
Kim frowned and mentally shouted at herself for even thinking she was attracted to Shego.
What would she do this time? After all, if this plan worked…
"It'll never work. It's Drakken." Shego scoffed at the very idea.
But…what if it did? Would she be able to watch, as the young crime fighter was sliced up with lasers?
The answer was a resounding No.
Would she really give up her career as a villain, something that took her years to build, for the sake of that red-head?
The answer was Yes.
And that's the part that bugged the hell out of her.
The far off sound of a helicopter, echoing among the rocks. Shego spun and sprinted back inside. Whether the girl could handle this scheme or not, she had to be ready…
When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin, I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends.
Roaming through this darkness, I'm alive but I'm alone. Part of me is fighting this, but part of me is gone.
So hold me when I'm here…
…Right me when I'm wrong…
…Hold me when I'm scared…
…And love me when I'm gone…
…Everything I am and everything in me…
…Wants to be the one you wanted me to be…
…I'll never let you down, even if I could…
…I'd give up everything, if only for your good…
…So hold me when I'm here…
…Right me when I'm wrong…
…You can hold me when I'm scared…
…You won't always be there…
…So love me when I'm gone…
…Love me when I'm gone...
"So Shego. Still trolling around with Drakken? Figured you'd be tired of his plans blowing up in your face."
"What can I say? The pay is good." Shego smirked. "What about that buffoon of yours? I think he's actually getting worse at this."
Kim growled and leaped forward.
So hold me when I'm here…
…Right me when I'm wrong…
…Hold me when I'm scared…
…And love me when I'm gone…
…Everything I am and everything in me…
…Wants to be the one you wanted me to be…
…I'll never let you down, even if I could…
…I'd give up everything, if only for your good…
…So hold me when I'm here…
…Right me when I'm wrong…
…You can hold me when I'm scared…
…You won't always be there…
…So love me when I'm gone…
…Love me when I'm gone...
…When I'm Gone…
…When I'm Gone…
…When I'm Gone...
"GAH!! KP! THE THING IS GLOWING!"
Both Kim and Shego stopped where they were and looked up. Drakken's newest death device was indeed glowing, a bright violet that was nearly painful to see.
"Time to go?" Shego muttered.
"Seems that way." Kim scowled.
"Next time, Princess. You won't get off so easy." Shego shoved the crime fighter to the side, turning to run. Doctor Drakken had already fled to the hovercraft, and they were gone in seconds.
Ron rushed over to help Kim up, and the pair rushed out, stopping to grabbed the jet-packs that they had stashed.
They shot away, just as the lair exploded.
Kim sat on her bed, just staring at the floor. Another mission, done, and for what?
A pat on the back, a 'congratulations' and the honor of coming back again.
What was the point? What had she changed? Drakken's device had destroyed itself. If he'd turned the thing on, it would have been the same.
I wish…
Shego stood on the balcony of her safe-house, staring up at the stars overhead. Drakken had gone to a backup lair to revisit his old friend, Mister Drawing Board, and after today's failure she knew to expect a few days of free time. Unless of course he had another one of those pre-prepared schemes, in which case she would need to steal whatever random things he deemed necessary…
"Jeez…" She turned around, leaning against the railing. Why was she even thinking about it? It didn't matter...she didn't need to wonder. She just needed to wait for her…
Orders…
God, she wasn't free anymore…not like she had been…
I wish…
Things could be different...
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AN: So. Better or worse than last time? I'd like to know.