Walking down to the venue my heart just stops. Across the street is the cutest little flower shop. The roses in its window make my heart rush. Purple roses! I've never seen purple roses before!

"Purple is perfect. He'll love them!" I think and rush across the street. A car barely misses me, but nothing can hurt me at this point. I'm finally going to meet my biggest crush and he is going to love getting a purple rose!

The clerk looks at me like I'm crazy but I don't care. I storm out the door with the most beautiful rose I have ever seen in my life digging its thorns in my hand. I barely notice the pain as now I am running full speed to the venue.

"I'm so late! I am so late! God! Please let me get there in time!" I pray with every fastened beat of my heart. I barely make it on time. I get my VIP pass with my heart thundering under my ribs. I'm last in line.

"They'll be so tired when it will finally be my turn." I think with sadness looking down. My eyes fall on the rose and a smile creeps up on my face. "He'll love it. I just know he will."

The wait is long. My feet are killing me. "It's all worth it. Just for his smile." Finally the squeaky couple of girls in front of me go in together. A little rush of jealousy takes over my heart. I wish I would have had my best friend with me now. But she doesn't like Big Time Rush so I didn't dare ask her to come with me. I know she would have come, just to see me happy, but I didn't ask. Actually I told no one I was here right now. This moment is all mine. My heart swells with joy.

Ranel comes out and smiles at me. My heart stops. Yes, finally it is my turn to have a moment of their time. I start to freak out but Ranel calls me.

- Come on, your turn. His smile is wide and sincere and makes my nervousness just go away.

I nod and whisper "Thank you" as I pas him by entering the room where Big Time Rush are waiting for me. He looks at me confused but my attention is drawn to three the most incredible smiles I have ever seen in my life.

James is sparkling and taking up all of my view of the others, but I force myself to look past him. Logan's smiling as well. Oh! How I just love his dimples! And Kendall's just sitting there looking like a million bucks, smiling from one ear to the other. My legs just turned to led. I can't move!

Then my eyes look behind Kendall and see Carlos trying to smile but his smile has not reached his eyes and my heart crumbles. "I have the cure for that!" I think a bit proud of myself and walk confidently forward, right into James' warm embrace. I hug him back saying my hellos and introducing myself to them. James' arms around me feel wrong so I step back quickly. Logan hugs me too and I hug him back with delight, but it's still not right. Kendall steps forward and gives me a quick hug immediately stepping back, like I had coodies.

Then it hits me - the rose! They already know who I want to hug. They're just being nice and giving me a bit of time to get accustomed to them. My heart melts as I am still waiting for Carlos to step closer. He doesn't so I do. I have to make him smile. A proper smile. That smile that I know will make me faint. I want to see that smile.

- Hi. I say quietly.

- Hi. He smiles and it kills me that it's just something he has to do for a fan.

- This is for you. I give him the rose and his eyes widen.

- Are you serious? He's got it. He's finally got it. He knows I'm his!

- Yes.

He looks up at me with a surprised face. A million questions in his eyes.

- I needed to see you smile. I tell him without a care of what is happening around me. And suddenly there it is - his lips part in the most gorgeous smile I have ever seen in my life. His eyes light up as he gently lifts his hand and takes the rose from my hand. His fingers gently brush against the back of my hand and my whole skin turns to goose bumps. I can't hear right. My heart is pounding so hard. I know someone is talking behind me but all I see and all I care to see is Carlos happy.

- Thank you so much! He finally says looking me in the eyes as I fall head over heals in love with him.

- You are welcome. I got my reward in full. I tell him on a flirty tone. He looks stunned for a fraction of a second then his eyes change and I see the volcano inside him.

- You did? His voice is a bit lower than normal and I get a good shiver down my back.

- Yes. I reply confidently. "When the hell did I become so self confident?" Your smile is the best reward anyone can ask for. I tell him.

He looks down at the rose. "Dear Lord, is he blushing?" His eyes glide on my hands. His facial expression changes and takes my hand. I feel like fainting.

- You poked yourself..He tells me and lifts my hand to show me the little wound a rose thorn had left in my right palm. I hadn't even felt it.

- Yeah, I guess I did..I say not knowing what to reply.

He kisses my little wound. My eyes pop out for half a second then I smile with all of my being.

- There. That should make it better. He tells me with a serious tone of voice.

I throw my head back and laugh with all of my heart. No body has kissed my booboos away since I was a child. And now, here he is, the most wonderful man on the planet, kissing my pain away.

- Yes. That makes everything better. I giggle as the photographer calls my attention.

- Do you still want this picture or should I just call ahead for a hotel room? He says with a tone that I don't know for sure if I should be upset or laugh it off.

- Both! Carlos answers looking me in the eye with a playful spark shining in his.

I can't help but smile as the other boys come near me and start making funny faces. Just Carlos stays serious and keeps smiling the way that I love.

The picture is done. My time is up. My heart is breaking to leave him. Saying goodbye to them is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. "At least you're smiling" I think looking Carlos in the eyes over Logan's shoulder.

- Listen. He says when I go to hug him goodbye. You'll come to the show?

- Yes.

- Where's your seat?

- Third row, stage left. Why?

He smiles deviously.

- I have plans for you. He says matter-of-fact-ly and hugs me tight. Thank you for the rose. I promise I'll treasure it.

- I much rather you treasure your smile and never allow it to go away. I whisper and quickly kiss his cheek.

- You are out of this world. He says.

I try to step back but he holds me in his embrace just a few seconds longer.

- Give me your number? He whispers in my ear.

- Yes. I reply before even realizing what has just happened.

Then he lets me go. He pulls out his phone and I give him my number. He calls and my phone starts playing Show Me - my favorite song. He grins at me and I blush. I look left to escape his gaze only to meet Kendall's steel sight. His eyebrows are up. My heart sinks. "He doesn't approve."

- I'll call you after the show. Carlos tells me. I nod.

- Ok. See you in a few. I say and smile as bravely as I can. Kendall's eyes just killed me on the inside. I don't really know what's happening to me, but I sure do want him to approve of me.

I turn around to walk away. James' smile is also gone. So's Logan's. "Holy crap!" my feet turn to led again, but I push past myself and leave. Just at the door I turn to look back. The image I get is unbelievable.

Carlos smiling bright, holding his rose and the other three throwing lightning bolts from their eyes. It hurts but I'm also happy. Carlos got his smile back. I did what I set out to do!

Time passes slowly but we're soon allowed to enter the venue. I take my seat and keep to myself. The show starts and my heart races as I sing to every single note. I notice Carlos making a point to come on the left side of the stage. A lot. He keeps smiling at me the way I told him I liked. I'm melting. The best 2 hours of my life - well after the 10, maybe 15 minutes I had them all to myself at the VIP meet and greet.

"Thank You, Lord! Thank You for today! It's been beyond words!" I think as I exit the venue surrounded by thousands of screaming, squeaking fans.

I barely make it outside that Show Me starts playing out of nowhere. "My phone!" I take it out of my pocket and surely enough there it is. Carlos calling me. I freak!

I pick up feeling tense and nervous and having clammy hands.

- Hi. I manage.

- Hi. Did you like the show? He asks not even bothering to introduce himself.

- Yeah! You guys brought the house down. But then again you always do that so, that's no news.

Carlos giggles at the compliment and I just sit down on the sidewalk as I know my knees will surely give.

- So..emm..would you..want to go-grab-a-cuf-of-coffee? He says barely separating the words.

"Wow! Carlos is asking me out!" My brain freezes. Then, suddenly, I realize "He's nervous"

- Yeah..I'd like that..But only on one condition! "Fuck! Where did THAT come from?"

- Oh?

- That you bring your smile with you. I say with a bubbly voice. "Hell, when did I become so sure of myself? What's he doing to me?"

- I think I can manage that. His voice all flirty again.

- Cool - so..

- Where are you right now?

- Oh..on the side walk..outside the venue..

- Stay there! He commands and my eyebrow goes up instantly. Please. I'll send Ranel for you.

- Ok…

- Thank you..You know..I..I..He draws in a deep breath..I can't wait to get to know you a bit.

- Good. Because neither can I.

- See you in a few. He says as he ends our conversation. My heart races but I dare not move a muscle.

Ranel comes out and calls my name. I get up and follow him.

"This night is not over. Oh, dear Lord! What have I done to deserve this? Tell me! I'll do it again!" I think following Ranel to what may very well be the best night of my entire existance.