Its official, I hate my life!

My problems are the usual teenage ones, you know where you get arrested for kicking the shit out of a slut and a cheat, get caught street racing with what your mother calls "Extremely dangerous men" and then your told you have to move back to hell because she "Can't handle you anymore".

Maybe I should explain, my name is Isabella Marie Swan but i prefer Bella, Izzy, Iz, Isa or even Bells. I am 17 years old and live (well I suppose lived) in Phoenix, Arizona with my mum Renee, step-dad Phil and step-sister Kate. As I sat on the plane to Forks I couldn't help but think about the events that led me here.

I had been in trouble with the police before with my street racing and fighting but I suppose this time was too much for mother dearest. I personally think that what I did was more of an accomplishment than something bad. The girls did too, after I was finished with Jacob and Tanya they'd get them. I had been with my boyfriend for around 7 months when he said it, the 3 words I wasn't sure if I could say back, we were at one of Aimee's wild parties and he took me outside to talk.

"Bells?" he said

"Yea jake?" I asked

"umm … well … I ugh…" he stuttered

I let him take his time because this seemed kind of important, I mean he usually only calls me bells when were having sex.

"I love you" he blurted out, a little unsure

"I…What?" this wasn't like him at all I mean Jacobs usually so confident I`d even say cocky (not without goon reason though I mean he`s gorgous and star quarterback of the phoenix wolves! And his body, oh god what a body! Forget about 6 pack he has an 8, and with his 6ft, russet skin and silk jet black hair he is B-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l).

"I love you" he said with a lot more confidence

"um wow Jay.. That's … wow" I hadn`t a clue what to say I mean did I love Jacob?

"You don't have to answer right now, I mean I'll give you time to think about it." he answered me, looking down.

Two days later after a big long chat with the girls and some thinking I realised that I did love Jake. I rang his mobile but there was no answer so I got in my 2010 Nissan Nismo 370Z, a birthday present from Renee and Phil, and decided to tell him in person. When I got to Jakes I noticed a car there that I hadn't seen before I hope none of the boys are here I thought to myself. I took the key from under the "welcome" mat and stepped inside everything was quiet. Then I heard it, moaning. I went upstairs to jakes bedroom and as I did the moans got louder, now I could make out words, "oh Tanya baby…Ughh…" , "Jacob…ohh". I opened the door and there on the very bed I had used with Jake was my boyfriend who "loves" me having sex with someone else, Tanya Denali the school slut. They were so into it they didn't even hear me come in. then I heard it the words that broke me "Baby I love you" said Jacob.

I was pissed no more than pissed all I saw was red. I cleared my throat and they both looked my way, at least Jacob had the decency to look regretful Tanya just had a smirk on her face. "Bella its not what it looks like I-" he didn't get to finish that sentence because I had picked up his baseball bat beside his door and hit him in the gut all I could think was thank you Phil, he came down straight into my on-coming knee and fell to the ground in pain. Tanya looked scared shitless, but Jake was 6ft I needed the bat for him, her I could hurt perfectly fine on my own, and that I did. I pulled her off the bed by the hair and punched her in the face then kicked her out of the room and threw the clothes after her, she ran away. By this time Jacob had gotten up and to came over to me he held my arms and I fought myself away then attacked, "let me explain" he shouted. I immediately stopped and looked him straight in the eye glaring,

"no need to explain Jacob" I sneered "I saw and heard perfectly well, I came over to tell you I loved you back and I find you with Tanya, do you know how many diseases you could have right now"

I was shouting by the end and he just looked shocked.

"You love me back, Bells baby I thought when you didn't answer it meant you were going to break up with me so I slept with Tanya".

The realisation took over and he noticed I used past tense and said loved. He opened his mouth but before he could say anything I picked up the bat ready to hit him again and police ran in and I was handcuffed. The bitch called the police. Renee was called in and after statements, tears (hers not mine) etc. I was allowed home. As soon as I was in the front door I was in Kate, Holly and Aimee's arms, guess they heard what happened. But why were they crying.

"we'll..miss..you" Kate said in between sobs.

I looked over her shoulder to my mother and she said those dreaded words, ones that chilled me to the bone.

"Your moving back to Charlie, to Forks…I just cant handle this anymore Bella, I can't handle you anymore".