"What I didn't ask you for was time, enough

What I didn't know was that you were hurting, love

What ends the rarest love? How did it work for us?..."

(5 years ago)

I smoke my last cigarette

Drink a cup of coffee with you in a nearby diner.

You look like you've been crying but I don't say anything `It was you who always cried, not me, never me`

We do that a lot you know

We're near each other but don't say anything.

The only time we speak is when we love each other,

The sounds we make

Your voice, so beautiful

The taste of your skin, the taste of you.

My body always burns for your touch,

Any other time we're in the car

Or laying in each other's arms, impossibly still

It's what we know

What we're comfortable with, yet somehow we hurt each other

(3 years ago)

At night I wonder, do you miss me?

Do you still cry? You were so beautiful when you cried

My body is starting to forget your touch

I'm starting to forget your scent

I have to pretend I'm in your arms just to go to sleep now.

I dream about you, nearly every night

Then I wake up and call out to you, but you're not there.

Everything we did is a just a memory now

You, are just a memory

and I'll remember that night forever, our last night

(flashback)

you held me so close, made love to me

probably the third or fourth time that night

we laid there impossibly still, again

you looked at me with so much love and longing in your eyes and whispered…

"I love you, and I'll love you in every way possible. You're mine and I'm yours, even if the sun burns out and the world freezes over, I'll always be yours. We belong to each other, we're like the stars, we're forever. I want you to know that baby…"

"I do, I promise." I assured you.

And with that you smiled and said," and I promise to never leave you alone, wherever I go I'll always come back to you, I promise."

Then you kissed me, a kiss that made me feel all the love you had for me but….somehow, it felt like goodbye.

(present day)

As I place flowers on your grave

I cry for the first time and scream, "YOU LIED! YOU PROMISED YOU'D NEVER LEAVE ME! YOU PROMISED WE'D BE FOREVER!"

I left after that, all that's left of you is your name on a cold gray block of stone

I left crying and never looked back

(that night)

I had a dream about her…

I was laying in her arms, on our bed

Impossibly still, again

She tipped my chin up with her finger, her body felt so good and warm against mine. She kissed me and her lips tasted just as I remember 'cinnamon and honey', then she whispered against my lips," I didn't lie to you, love. No matter where I am, I will always come back to you."

I wake up and notice I've been crying in my sleep. My hand reaches out across the sheets as I call out your name, but you're not there, and I'm left alone…again