-Prologue-

-"I saw him today, you know?I just needed to see him one more time,and make sure everything was for a short time he was really back...back to me...I had to know for sure that my tumor wasn't playing with my brain..So..I sat there,I my car,in his parking lot..and I saw them..."
I have no idea why am I telling her cause I know and I feel my death near,and I just have to say all this things out loud.
-"He was with her,and..God,they are so beautiful and happy together!I can't remember the last time I saw him smiling and laughing like that!He is happy now,right Alice?"
-"Bella,what the hell are you talking about?You're in no condition to put yourself through this things,honey!Why did you?"
But I don't get to answer,because right in that moment the pain hits like never in my life before.I start caughing 's definetly from the pills I took,because I never experienced this until now.I can feel my body becoming weak,my knees giving up on me,until I hit the floor,still mouth feels full and when I look at my hands they are filled with only means that somewhere inside..I'm ...I dropped the phone somewhere in between falling,caughing and crying in pain.
-"Bella!Fuck Bella,answer!What have you done?"Alice screams in the phone,that now is in front of me,next to my shaking and bloody hand.
I try to take a deep breath,but I only manage to become even more ,I pick up the phone from the floor.I can hear Alice running around the house,surrely she is trying to get here.
-"I can't keep doing something that will only cause more pain and trouble for everyone.I did something I should've done years ago.." I whisper closing my eyes while I take another breath that this time feels like hot iron down my throat.
I my dizzinees and pain I can't even hear what is she screaming,but I know I have to stop 's pointless can get here in at least 20 minutes,and by then,the pills I took will have done their job.
-"Alice,please!Just stop and hear me out!Please" I whisper through my tears.
It's cynical,I know!I did this!I want to die,so why am I crying now?Even if the pain I feel is beyond anything I felt before,I know this tears are not caused by pain,or by my grand 's Alice..and her desperate need to save me,even if I can't be I don't want to be saved...
-"No!Fuck no,Bella!You just hold on!You hear me?I'm on my way,and Jasper is going to call Carlisle...and you...you'll be ok!"
-"It doesn't matter,Alice..it's too late anyway..."
And how right am I.I can feel my body giving heartbeats become more slow,I can barely keep my eyes open,and I am already lying on my apartment's floor,in blood and half numbness is already making me feel less pain and more cold.
But I have to say goodbye to the only person that has tried everything to keep me safe this weeks,but she never knew that I was my real enemy...She lost that fight before starting it.
-"Please,just say you forgive me,Alice!You know I never meant to hurt you or anyone..And.."I try to continue but my voice is sliping away..just like the life from my cold body..."In my nightstand..there's a letter for him..Give it to him..."
-"Bella!Bella?Damn it!Answer me!"She screams and I can hear her desperate cry.
But I am done.I had my share of pain,despaire and is my "Enough".
I am done crying,pretending to be strong enough to fight the obstacles that live puts in my way all the time.I'm a broken shell!I've been a broken shell from the moment he left me for the very first broken,a heart is forever is the best decision I ever 's a win-win wins freedom and peace,and I already see my peace when the numbness and darkness take me,when the most amazing green eyes smile to me,just like the first time I saw them...Yes,now,I will finally have my change to be happy!...