FEELINGS
Disclaimer: I don't own SPC or any of the characters in this story. Saban International (1991) owns them. This is just a fanfic I wrote.
WARNING: This contains mild yaoi (m/m relationship). If you are homophobic, I advise you to leave. It is rated R/NC-17 for sexual content in later chapters.
Notes: This is written from Speedy's POV, after the Great Comet Caper.
FEELINGS
I couldn't help smiling as I stared at the ocean. It always looked so beautiful at sunset, especially in summer, and it always cheered me up when I was depressed.
Most people wouldn't have even guessed how miserable I was, or how much I hated my life, and myself.
A naive, bubbly persona always disguised my unhappiness, and virtually nobody could see through it. Except for Guido, my best friend. He always understood, because his life wasn't that good either. Through thick and thin, he was always there for me. When my girlfriends dumped me, when I ran away from home, he was even there for me when I lost my Kaa-san. In return, I did my best to be there for him, especially when that useless alcoholic he called his Tou-san beat him up for no good reason. Up until a few months ago, when he moved out of home, it wasn't unusual for him to come to work with bruises all over his face and body. I was the only person he ever told about the beatings.
Now, unfortunately, I was faced with an even bigger problem. I'd realised that the feelings I had for him were more than just those of a mutual friend. I'd fallen madly in love with him throughout our years as best friends. Whenever I was around him, it took all of my willpower not to jump him then and there. I didn't want to lose Guido. He was the only person I could be myself around.
I flopped onto my stomach, still staring at the ocean. Guido wasn't my only problem. My girlfriend, Polly, had decided to make my life a living hell because I had dumped her a few weeks ago when I realised that I no longer had any feelings for her. Escaping her wasn't easy, because we both worked in the same shop. Our boss, Francine, was her best friend, and also seemed to enjoy hurting me. Guido defended me all the time, but ended up receiving the same treatment.
I snapped back to reality when I heard someone calling me.
"Speedy! What are you doing here?"
I glanced over my shoulder and to my pleasure and frustration, I saw the unaware object of my affection, Guido, running towards me, a bemused expression on his face. He was wearing those khaki pants that hugged his slim body in all the right places, and an unbuttoned red shirt over a black singlet. His short, spiky black hair was perfect as always.
"Hi Chibi." I said, trying to sound casual, despite the many mixed emotions I was feeling. He grinned as he sat down next to me. I was the only person he ever allowed to call him Chibi. It was my pet name for him.
"What are you doing here, Speedy? I've been looking everywhere for you. I was starting to get worried!"
I shrugged. Even though I could usually tell him anything, I didn't exactly feel comfortable with explaining what was on my mind right now.
" Gomen. I've got a lot going on in my head." I replied. "I just needed to get away from everything to clear my head."
He nodded then flopped onto his stomach. A few moments of silence passed as we stared up at the sky. It was now night, but it wasn't that dark. The stars lit up the sky, giving the ocean below us a dark blue colour.
"Speedy?"
"Yes, Guido?"
"Do you realise that this is the place where we first met each other?" He said, smiling at me. I noticed he'd taken off his shirt. The singlet he was still wearing revealed a slim, muscular physique.
"Mmm. I remember Guido. I just can't believe how long ago it was. We were only 6 years old. Now we're both 23." I smiled, remembering the 1st time we met. He was tiny for his age back then. I had gone to my place near the ocean. A small cliff that only I knew about, and I was surprised to see a small, dark cat sitting there, crying. He had been badly beaten by his Tou-san, and had wanted to get away from home for awhile. I had been wary of him at first, but it hadn't taken long for us to become close friends. Hell, when we were 11, we came to exactly the same spot to vow that we would be best friends for life. This place really held so many memories for us...
"Speedy, why did you really come here?" He asked coolly, interrupting my thoughts.
"I told you Guido. I wanted to clear my head."
He stared at me, dark eyes burning into mine.
"You're not telling me everything, Speedy."
Silence again. I noticed Guido was watching me closely. I couldn't stop thinking about how beautiful he was. His eyes were large, slanted and dark brown and set above a cute snub nose. Tan-coloured fur covered every inch of his lean, muscular body.
"Speedy, I'm your best friend, right?"
"Hai! Forever and ever, Guido." I smiled gently.
"Then why can't you tell me what's bothering you? I thought we told each other everything." There was a hint of sadness in his voice.
There was something in his voice that made me snap. I started to cry, my body shaking with sobs as I felt Guido pick me up and hug me tightly to his chest. My tears were soaking the front of his shirt, but he didn't seem to care as he gently rocked back and forth, hugging me, while he stroked my hair.
"Why are you crying, Speedy? Did I say something wrong?" He asked urgently, still hugging me.
I stared into his eyes, my tears subsiding. They were full of mixed emotions. Concern, confusion, unhappiness, and…love? I felt faint. Did he see me as more than a friend? There was only one way to find out.
"Speedy, why were you cry…mph!"
I closed my mouth over his, and to my delight he didn't pull away, but responded to the kiss, and pulled me closer. After a few seconds I opened my mouth and gently rubbed my tongue against his lips, pleading. He opened his mouth, and our tongues met in a slow, sensual battle. I slipped my hands up his singlet, feeling silky fur over rock-hard abs. Then he broke the kiss, panting softly.
"Chibi?" I asked, not moving my hands.
"Why did you kiss me?" He asked softly, his dark eyes burning into mine.
"You kissed me back." I pointed out, removing my hands.
"I know I did, but I want to know why you kissed me." I blushed, staring at the ground.
"Well, I…um… did it because I love you, Chibi." I blurted out. He stared at me, face drained of colour.
"You… love me?" He whispered, shocked.
Still staring at the ground, I nodded, waiting for him to attack me or walk away. Then I felt his hands on my shoulders, and I slowly looked up at him. He was smiling.
"I love you too, Speedy." He replied. "But I was too scared to tell you. I didn't want to lose you."
I smiled back as I leaned into his face, and started kissing him again, this time with more passion…
Later on, we lay together under the stars, holding each other close, his head resting on my chest. I'd never felt so peaceful.
"So, what are we going to tell everyone, Speedy?" He asked sleepily.
I snaked my tail up his leg, making him giggle.
"I think for now that our relationship should be our little secret." I answered, pulling him closer.
"Why?"
"Well, Guido, I think some of our friends might not be cool with us being gay."
"But Im not gay, Speedy."
I stared at him, confused. "What are you talking about?" I demanded.
"I don't like guys."
"But…"
"Just you, Speedy." He grinned before kissing me.
I couldn't help grinning as I kissed him back. My heart was soaring