IDIL's Note: Oh ho ho, some KakaRin angst. There's no actual KakaRin in here, but you can kinda get the gist of it. Reviews, as always, are much appreciated. :D
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto.
Rin always thought she would do anything, go through anything, just to get Kakashi to love her back.
Some days, when he was feeling especially cold, she felt as though her heart were beating so erratically, thumping harshly with such pain, that it threatened to rip right out of her chest.
Others, when he seemed to be in a half-decent mood – because she knew he was never truly happy, no, neverhappy – she still felt the same erratic pulse, but this time it seemed as though her heart were vibrating with it, pulling itself up and out of her chest, soaring until she was sure that it would fly out her throat at any given moment.
And then there were those extremely rare times where he smiled at her. It was sometimes with the mask on, sometimes with it off – as he always removed it when she healed him – but nevertheless in those moments, she knew that she would give everything she had to see that smile, she would do anything to keep it locked only on her, she would go through anything to protect it.
No price, no sacrifice ever seemed too much for that smile. After all, it was his love she wanted, desired, coveted more than anything in her life. And his love was always given through that smile.
That was what she had thought, what she had felt, and it seemed so strange to her now, so foolish, for after Obito's sacrifice, she had comforted Kakashi and unknowingly, she continued to be on the receiving end of an increasing number of his smiles. It seemed that finally, there was a real, palpable chance that she could finally feel his love, finally be an important part of his world.
Funny. It didn't really seem to matter to her anymore. For some reason, she felt she'd rather have Obito back in her life than see Kakashi smile at her again.