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Have you ever felt empty? Like you must be filled by something, but you don't know what? Like this I feel right now. It's 11 PM and I'm walking through a park, all alone. Don't get me wrong, I have a family. They adopted me, but still, I have a family that loves me. And I love them too.
My true parents died 2 years ago, in a car crush. I was 15 back then. Also Andre, my best friend's brother died 2 years ago. Lissa's parents decided to adopt me to fill that empty space Andre left behind. I'm happy in this family, but I need something else...
I don't know why I'm walking through this park at this hour. I just wanted to get away with my thoughts and I didn't noticed where I was walking. I sat down and lied on the ground. I love to watch the sky, mostly I love to see 'The Evening Star' rise. This star shine so lovely. It is the brightest star in the sky. I could watch this star forever. It's like, I feel connected with this star.
Back to my empty soul... I still need that something or someone. I still wait... I'm Rose Hataway, the most wanted girl in the high school. Every boy wants me, well, they want to get in my pants. I won't allow them. I'm an innocent girl, bithces call me "geek" just because I have only A at school and I'm not joking, I'm the best student our high school ever had. But I don't care, I accept the way I am.
I never had a boyfriend. There is Adrian that wants me so bad. He is nice, gentle and funny, but I don't feel like I belong to him. He is just a good friend. One of my best friends, actually. I'm waiting for someone else, but who... ?
"Lovely night, isn't it?" said a stranger that lied on the grass next to me. I didn't answerd but, I didn't felt in danger ... I actually felt safe that he was here. Who is this man?
"Yeah... it is." And silence. We didn't spoke for long. I don't know what time is it but I don't care. I feel like I could stay here forever, with him...
"Aren't you scared?" he asked
"Should I?" I answerd with another question.
"No." And I smiled. We said nothing till we saw the sun rising. God, how much did I sat here? It's morning? I bet Lissa freaked out.
"I have to go." He said and got up.
"But I don't know your name." But he was already gone. Like the wind. Will I ever see him again? I know I just met him and I don't know his name... but, I badly want to see him again. To get to know him. I want to feel him... God, Rose, stop thinking like this. You never wanted a boy before.
"But he is a man." I added to myself. I got up and made my way home. I know I'm in troube, but thanks God today is Saturday.
When I entred the house Rhea smiled and hugged me. Isn't she angry because I wasn't home last night?
"How was your night, Rose?"
"Good, just a little tired." I answerd her. Ok... I'm lost. What happened here and why isn't she angry at me? I wasn't home all night, for God's sake.
"I belive you." She said.
"Ok." Was all I managed to say.
"Come and eat breakfast and than you can go take some sleep."
"Sure."
"I'm proud of you, you know that Rose." Ok, I was no where last night, she had no ideea where and she is proud of ? How does is comes?
"Rhea, aren't you mad at me?"
"No, why should I?"
"Rose, your home. How was at Mia's? Did you guys studied for the test paper?" Lissa said as she came down staires. "I missed you. I had to study with Christian and you know how smart he is. I think I forgat the little I knew." We all started to laugh and in the end Rhea left us alone.
"Lissa, what happened?"
"What happened? I lied for you to mom. Where have you been all night? I was warried, I called you but your phone was home. Fuck Rose, you scared me."
"Sorry Lissa. I was in the park, watching the stars and I think I slept there. Sorry again." I told her about that man, she had to know, ske knows everything about me.
"Do you want to meet him again?" she asked.
"Of course I want to, Lissa. But I don't know how. I don't even know his name."
"You can go again tonight. Perhaps he will be there also." This sound like a good plan to me. " I'll lie again for you to mom." She added.
"Thank you, Lissa. You are the best friend in the while world, you know that?"
"You told me severel time. But I like to hear it often." And she smiled.
"Well, you will."
"Hope so."
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Here I am, again, wolking through the same park at the same hour as last night. Please be here, please be here. I mentaly added to myself. I went to the same place as last night and... he was there, right there, watching for the Evening Star to rise. I bet he loves that star as mush as I do. I sat next to him and said nothing. I waited for him to break the silence.
"Here again?" he asked.
"I love this place." I said and I looked at him. But he didn't. I don't think that he looked at me last night, at all. Not even once.
"Me too."
"Yeah, I come here every night." Well, this is a lie, last night was the first time. But he won't know.
"No, you don't." What?
"Escuse me?"
"I come here every night and I never saw you before but last night." God, I wanna die right now. Because I wanted to change the subject I asked:
"What's your name?"
"Dimitri, yours?" what a beautiful name. A perfect name for a perfect man.
"I'm Rose, nice to meet you, Dimitri."
"Me too."
We spoke that night a lot. I know that his full name is Dimitri Belikov, he is from Russia and has 24 years. I noticed that he has deep brown eyes and long hair. Dark, but not as dark as mine. He likes to read westarn books and listen old music. He is something unique. That someone I was waithing for, that someone that have to fill me up. But what if he dosen't feel the same? Yeah, I'm just a stupis kid, God Rose, think, he is a man. What do you think he can see in you?
"Why did you moved to America?" I asked out of no where.
"Some family problems. I don't really want to talk about it. Hope you don't mind." Seeing that this is something important to him I let got he subject. I don't want to scare him away.
Just before the sun rise he got up.
"I have to go. Sorry." He said and started to wolk away.
"Wait! Will I see you again?"
"If you want to, you will." He smiled and left. He has a beautiful smile that words can't describe. I got up and made my way home.
"I hope to see you again." I said to myself, because he was long gone. But I don't know when. Today is Sunday and tomorrow I have school. I want to be able to come and spend all night here, knowing that he will be here. Suddnely I got sad at the ideea that maybe I won't see him again. Till I got home his wards kept playing in my head 'if you want to, you will'. Well, I want to.
Monday, school day. I haven't seen Dimitri last night and I miss him so much. How is this possible to miss someone that you just met? We haven't touched at all, but hell, I want to feel his soft skin on mine. I dreamt about him every night since I met him. I dreamt about those eyes that conquerd my heart from the very first glance. I like him a lot and I'm scared to really fall for him. I'm awear that I'm just some stupid kid, he won't look at me with the same eyes I look at him.
"Hey Rose, why so sad?"
"I'm not sad, Adrian. I'm just tired." I said to him. He is one of my best friends and I love him, but I would never be able to love him as my boyfriend. There is only one man that I want and his name is not Adrian.
"But what did you do last night?"
"I tried to get some sleep but my mind was anywhere but in my head." Actually I thought about Dimitri, how would his skin feel on mine, his lips on mine. In the few minutes I slept I dreamt about him , I write his name everywhere. I can't help but feel stupid. I don't think that he feels the same. I bet he has a girlfriend.
"Why so?"
"Adrian, please, I don't want to talk about it." I yelled at him
"Ok, I'm sorry."
"No, No, I'm sorry for yelling at you. You don't deserve it." And I took one of his hand in both of mine.
"Rose, have you thought about what I told you last Friday?"
"Yes I did, and my answer is... no. I'm sorry." Now more than ever I won't go out with him. Dimitri is everywhere, my head, my heart... I want him to be the one for me.
"Why? He asked and took his hand from mine.
"Adrian, I'm not for you like you are not for me. we are ment to be just friends. Actually I feel sorry for him. Is not in my intentions to beark his heart. All over again.
"How can you be so sure if you never gave me a chance."
"I'm not Adrian, but..." and I couldn't find the perfect words. I care to much about him to make him suffer because of me.
"Look, give me this Friday to show you how I really feel and than you chose. Ok?" I know I should give him at least that... but I can't. Not when I think about the man from the park.
"I..." but he stoped me. He came near me and took my face in his hands looking right into my eyes. I could see that he is really hurt but what am I supposed to do? I need to be selfish, so be strong Rose.
"Just Friday night." He said. He wanted to fill that little space between us by kissing me. In the last second I tuned my head and he let go of me.
"Adrian I'm sorry."
"Yeah, you said that before. Keep it for who wants to hear it." And he left. God, I really hurt him right now.
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It was my turn to take the garbage out. well, actually it was Lissa's turn, but because she lied for me to Rhea, I promissed to do some of her work. I even chat for her in history class. I never do that. In my entire life.
This day was a good one. Even if Dimitri was in my head every second, I had a good day. I managed to break Adrian's heart, I and Mason took an A at math and Lissa and Christian took them first B at biology.
I smiled when I saw a shadow behind me. I know this is Dimitri, so I turned to face him.
"Missed me?" I asked trying to make conversation.
"A lot." He answerd.
"Well... hello." So lame, Rose, so lame. You could do better.
"What about you, did you missed me?" hell yeah.
"Yeah... I did. I missed you too." And I smiled at him, or I think I tried to flirt, I don't know. I've never done something like this. But I gave him my innocent smile.
"Your turn to throw the garbage?"
"Yeah, kind of." I realised that there is nothing we can talk about. We said all we had to say Saturday night. Should I tell him what I feel for him? This way I would know if he fels the same. If he don't, I will just wolk away.
"So Rose, I wanted to tell you something, but..."
"No, me first." He nodded so I continued. "I kind of feel something... when you are here, I feel... I want you always here , I just can't get you out of my mind. Call me crazy but I think I have feeling for you." And I said it. Now I just have to wait for him to ran away.
"I feel the same way, but this is not right." I don't know why but I look at his hand. He had no ring that could keep him away from me. Why is this not right? I want him , he wants me... Why can't we be togheter? We know each other just for 3 days, but I feel like he is the one I was waiting for. For some reason he smiled, an innocent smile, a smile that conquerd me for good.
"Why?" I managed to ask.
"Because you will ran away when you will descover the real me."
"I won't." I filled the space between us, wrapped my hand around his neck and kissed him.
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So, this is the first chapter, please tell me if I should stop it or go on. If this could be a good story.
I know that things go fast but I want it to be a short story, like 10 chapters. Just a short story about Rose and Dimitri, because I noticed that you don't like when Dimitri is not in the story.
You all love Dimitri and I love him too.
Please review and tell me what you think.
Im waiting.
Lot of love
Paula.