Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

This wasn't planned; well the sex part was planned except she hadn't expected it to be this person. It was meant to be Pete, the Oceanside wellness manwhore who couldn't commit. Okay, well the guy that was coming close to sending her over the edge was a slight man whore but she was more likely to get hurt by Pete. Her body was going into over drive, the last person she had slept with was Alex and she couldn't stand that he was the last person to touch her. The showerhead didn't give her the pleasure that she wanted, not the contact that she wanted so badly. Her red silk gown was lying on the floor by her bed and his clothes were littered around the house. The French panties, matching corset and stockings were on the bed somewhere she just had no idea where.

Her chest was heaving from the sensation that she was running through her body and she was trying her hardest not to moan out her dream guy's name. The man who's somewhere else and her guess is screwing some blond instead of her. She just wished that he had rang her and told her that he wasn't going to turn up. Yet, she didn't want to know if he was at someone else's house. She shouldn't be thinking like this because her body was arching up into the one that was above hers, his fingers hitting the right spot in side her and his thumb just rubbing her cilt the right way.

She was trying her best to stay quiet in case Pete was outside or downstairs, she knew that he wasn't and it was just her mind that wanted him to be their. She couldn't say a name because she knew that it would be Pete's and this guy had already been hurt tonight away by the person he loved. This was wrong, past wrong. As her moans grew louder, she heard her cell phone go off beside her. Reaching her hand out to the bedside table, she looked at the caller ID, when she found that it was Violet she ended the call. She didn't want to get psycho analysed by her when she should be with him, she should be the one that he was pleasuring.

Letting out a small scream when she felt her climax hit her. At the same time she was trying to forget that she had already came twice since they had ended up in her bedroom. It was like; it was everything they wanted to let out was being let out. Or maybe they had no idea how to end this since they had to see each other at work tomorrow; this was really screwed up right now. Her life didn't need to be any more screwed up than it was and she thought that she had left all the drama behind in settle.

Looking over at him next to her, as she slowly starting to pull herself together and relax. She forgot how comforting her bed sheets were, and she didn't want to know what he was doing. She wasn't good with one night stands or one anything stands. It wasn't her thing really. Curling up under the bed sheets as she felt the weight leaving the bed and she knew that he was leaving. She didn't want to think about what she had just done. No one had the right to trust her anymore.

When the front door closed, she let out a small sob, just wishing that she had someone to hold her tight. Grabbing her cell phone, she listened to the answer phone message that Violet had left her.

'Hey, it's Violet, which I guess you know. Pete's here and he seems like he's really sorry and he's told me what he done. He didn't ask me to ring you but I thought you should know where he was in case you were worried about him. He needed to talk about something's and I told him to tell you tomorrow so I don't know if he will. Do you know if Cooper is at Sam's since you can see into his house?'

Addison couldn't bring herself to stop it half way through, deleting the message as soon as the options came up. She ended up crying herself to sleep, wishing that she had bothered to call and ask what was going on. She was stupid to jump to conclusions but Naomi and Sam had made him out to be like that. She didn't mean to be the whore again; she didn't mean to let some unneeded sex happen with someone that she didn't want.