Preface: the break up.
I stared at his face, his beautiful face. He was my boyfriend, and I loved him.
This morning, I had flinched when he touched me. I had said his name in my sleep, accidentally I told myself.
He knew the truth, Jacob Black, my boyfriend of 6 months, knew the truth. I still loved the thing that left me wounded. I still loved Edward Anthony Mason Cullen, with my half my heart.
Me and Jake never got real touchy, let alone even made out, not even once. He just touched my shoulder, I told him he scared me, but he knew, I knew he was there.
He stood up, blood rushing to his face, he was so mad. "Bella! I don't touch you, I barely kiss you. Bells, you say you love me but I don't know if I should believe that!" then he said the words that crushed me. "Bella im not and never will be him! I've waited, but it's not working bella! He left you, I wont yet you flinch when I touch your shoulder. I cant do it anymore bella! I just can't!"
he ripped the rest of my heart out and took it with him. " I love you Bella, but were over! I cant do this!" he turned to walk out. "Jake! Please don't do this to me!" I was sobbing, I couldn't help it. He didn't even turn to me, he kept walking and huffed under his breath,
"you did this to yourself, you let him have to much impact. Don't worry, ill be easier to get over." I heard him rush down my stairs, slam my door, and he was gone. And I was finally alone. I threw myself into the pillow and screamed, and kicked, and cried.
Charlie ran in, "bella what's wrong?!" I looked up and screamed. "Im broken, im stupid and Jake can't love me anymore! It's all my fault! I wish I wasn't so damn clumsy! I wish I never fell in love with Edward Cullen! I..I wish he never left me so broken! I wish Jake could be enough!" I looked down and whispered, "I wish he could fix me."