A feeling that no one could forget
Chapter 1 : Locked up emotions
Authors note: This story is dedicated to Cardcaptor Sakura! As you know from the
title it is obviously a romance. This chapter is written by Li ( Sayoran ) himself.
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Come to think of it, I always told myself that she was an idiot. I always made myself
help her because I thought she was helpless. I was proved wrong after awhile. Now,
even though things have kinda worked out, I still miss the petty fights we used to
have. Sakura was different. She didn't praise me or treated me like I was different.
I never asked to have magical powers or be extraordinary. In someways I always wanted
to be normal. She made me feel human and I thank her for that. I tried to act superior
but inside I knew that she had an affect on me and she could say anything and I would do
it for her. I couldn't let her know that. Coming back to wanting to be normal. I never
asked to have Meilin all over me. I guess no one can really choose who they want to
be or really on how they feel. It starte off as a little crush. Nothing serious. Now
I can't get her out of my head. It may sound cheesy and corny, but she really is the
first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing at night. I don't know
what comes over me. I'm so mean. I guess I don't know how to act around her. After
awhile I got the hang of being myself around her but still, not completely. I wish
I could say how I felt. Bottled up emotions aren't very good for your health. I
want to tell her so badly that it almost hurts. That's ho I feel. When I was a
little younger and someone bullied me into watching a romance I would be the one
at the back making vomit noises. I thought it was so silly what they said, what
they did and now I knida know how it feels. As soon as I say that I wished that
I never met her I take it back. Why can't I just stop it?!! My brain hurts when
I think about it, but I can't really seem to focus on anything else. I can't
really describe how it feels but when I see her, I am filed with such a great
happiness, a calm peacefull joy. Like she understands with just one glance.
At the same time I feel an awful dread, that she won't feel the same way. That
even if she does, what if we can't be together? What if she's gone as soon as
I get her? It's like two formulas in my body that won't mix. How can she bring
me so many mixed emotions?
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So settle on that then! see ya and r&r the other fics!
Kip
Chapter 1 : Locked up emotions
Authors note: This story is dedicated to Cardcaptor Sakura! As you know from the
title it is obviously a romance. This chapter is written by Li ( Sayoran ) himself.
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Come to think of it, I always told myself that she was an idiot. I always made myself
help her because I thought she was helpless. I was proved wrong after awhile. Now,
even though things have kinda worked out, I still miss the petty fights we used to
have. Sakura was different. She didn't praise me or treated me like I was different.
I never asked to have magical powers or be extraordinary. In someways I always wanted
to be normal. She made me feel human and I thank her for that. I tried to act superior
but inside I knew that she had an affect on me and she could say anything and I would do
it for her. I couldn't let her know that. Coming back to wanting to be normal. I never
asked to have Meilin all over me. I guess no one can really choose who they want to
be or really on how they feel. It starte off as a little crush. Nothing serious. Now
I can't get her out of my head. It may sound cheesy and corny, but she really is the
first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing at night. I don't know
what comes over me. I'm so mean. I guess I don't know how to act around her. After
awhile I got the hang of being myself around her but still, not completely. I wish
I could say how I felt. Bottled up emotions aren't very good for your health. I
want to tell her so badly that it almost hurts. That's ho I feel. When I was a
little younger and someone bullied me into watching a romance I would be the one
at the back making vomit noises. I thought it was so silly what they said, what
they did and now I knida know how it feels. As soon as I say that I wished that
I never met her I take it back. Why can't I just stop it?!! My brain hurts when
I think about it, but I can't really seem to focus on anything else. I can't
really describe how it feels but when I see her, I am filed with such a great
happiness, a calm peacefull joy. Like she understands with just one glance.
At the same time I feel an awful dread, that she won't feel the same way. That
even if she does, what if we can't be together? What if she's gone as soon as
I get her? It's like two formulas in my body that won't mix. How can she bring
me so many mixed emotions?
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So settle on that then! see ya and r&r the other fics!
Kip