A/N: Hello lovely fellas and welcome to my first multichapter Destiel/Supernatural fanfiction!

First of all I want to let you know that English is not my first language and this story is not beta'd! I wanted to find one, but I could not so please bear with my mistakes. (Still searching for a Beta Reader :3 Just FYI)

I'm working on this story for almost a year now. I already have written 8 chapters and I dunno how much more will follow. All I can tell is that I'm not near the end, but I have a big plan ;) Also planning on updating this story every week. Right now I have to learn A LOT for my upcoming finals, hence I'm not able to write more, but I think a chapter per week should work out perfectly.
This story is inspired by the awesome book 'Tuesdays with Morrie' from Mitch Albom. If you don't know the book or the author...shame on u! Nah, kidding, but srsly, google him. He is awesome. His works are awesome.

I really tried my best to research the illness and I apologize in advance if I did something wrong. Also, I do take this illness very serious and if I'm going to insult someone in some way I'm really sorry, that was not my intention, but it is necessary for the plot of this story.
This story contains a Major Character Death. So if you're not comfortable with this you should stop here and never read this story. I cannot promise this story not to be heartbreaking. lol that sounded pretty dark, but believe me there'll be a lot of fluff and love and great lessons :) So it's not going to be thaaaaaaat heartbreaking. As already said.. it's necessary for the plot.

Another research I did was about Sammy's education. I'm really bad with the educational system of the US so if I did a mistake please let me know and I'm gonna try to correct it.

Sarah Blake only looks like we know her from Supernatural, but I changed her character for the story. So she'll be more an OOC. Got big plans for her :)
I'm not sure about Sam and Charlie's relationships. I kinda have a plan for Sam, but maybe it'll change. Depends on how you guys react to some stuff :)

What else can I say? Maybe I should stop talking right now and let you guys read the story.
Soo.. well.. if you have any questions just ask me and I'm trying to answer them as best as I can...
I hope you will like it cause it means pretty much to me.
All what is left to say is..
Enjoy the story!

JenLee 3

Prologue

Love is not an emotion you can control.
It happens at the weirdest places, at the weirdest times and also with a person you think you'd never fell in love with.
Love is not interested in time.
It happens when it wants to happen and even then you cannot control it.
You cannot control the moment it starts or, even worse, when it shall end.
Love does not care about the fact that you do not want to fall in love with somebody. Even though you are trying your best to ignore your feelings it laughs at you.
'As if you can get rid of me. As if you can win.'
In simple words:
Love is a selfish bitch and Dean Winchester will find himself in a situation he thought he would never be in.

But let's start at the beginning. Every story has a beginning and Dean's own story starts in High School.

Dean always have had a problem with finding friends. It's not because of his personalty, on the contrary. Everyone loved him. Let it be his look or his 'I-don't-give-a-fuck-attitude', Dean was pretty popular in High School. He just had a problem with getting too attached to someone. To be utterly honest, he was scared. Too scared to care for someone deeply. The younger boy knew it would not last long. A strong friendship would break. Hell, even his family broke.

It wasn't always like this, though. Dean was a happy and cheerful child. He loved his Daddy and Mommy, Uncle Bobby and Aunt Ellen, but most of all he loved his new little brother Sam (or Sammy how he started to call him). His family was everything he needed in his life. His family was his life.

On November 2nd 1983 Dean's peaceful life ended with the death of his beloved mother. Nobody knew how it happened, but there was fire everywhere. Dean was 4.

After that day Dean not only lost his mother, but also his father. John Winchester was convinced that Mary has been murdered. In his eyes the fire was not just an accident.

He watched his father losing himself day after day. John began to drink. He has never been able to get over his wife's death.

After a year, when Dean was 5 and Sammy 1 ½ , John left to find the murderer.

Since then Dean and Sam lived with their Aunt Ellen and Uncle Booby. Dean never understood why his dad left them. He never understood why John was not the dad he used to be. A lovely and carrying man, who loved his family. He just left.

Of course Dean loved his aunt and uncle, too. He had a halfway happy childhood and it was the best for Sam, but Dean wanted his old family back. He wanted his mother and father back, his old house, his old life. But it never happened.

So why would a friendship last longer than his own family?

That is the reason why Dean only had a few friends in High School. Well, as a matter of fact two. His cousin Jo and his best friend Charlie. Dean did not mind a bit. He was okay with that. The less the better.

The life of the young Dean Winchester changed again during his junior year, when he met a calm and dorky boy named after an angel. They became best friends.

Dean and his new friend Castiel or Cas ('Dude, Castiel is a mouthful. I'll call you Cas.') were inseparable since they became friends. There was not a day where they did not do something together. For the first time after his mother's death he was happy again.

But life is cruel and his happiness ended with their graduation. Their ways parted and they lost contact.
It was the third time that someone important left his life. Dean was marked for his life now. He would never ever get too attached to someone again. He would never talk about his feelings anymore. And, most important : he would never fall in love with someone. That was his life now and it was okay.

Funny thing that love does not care what Dean Winchester wants.

This is a story about death and life, family and friendship, happiness and loss, angels, but most important love.