The truth of this equity, the way we deign to forget, forget could not overcome, the fear of regret.
In a secluded nighthood, Dan had developed his secret to perfection. Everyweek he would go to the store and purchase 2 packs of Malteasers. One, he ate openly in front of Phillip and the others. The other, he hid before anyone could see it. The reason he ate one openly, was so that if any remaints of the second box was found, people would attribute it to the first.
This second box, Dan had a greater purpose for, one of cynical importance. Dan had always been a weird kid growing up, a little chubby in comparison to his other kids. It was strange of course, Dan didnt live in a family of fat people, almost everyone in his family was naturally sexy and beautiful. But he was chubby, at least in comppparison to his family, because he had a love for food. Not just anyfood, but most foods surely. He woulld always beg his mother and father when he was young for food.
At first, Dan simply thought he was an American, but upon reaching the age of 12, and when he started to go through physical changes, Dan realized that it was something, far, far worse. No, he simply wasnt a fat American born to a British family, he had a deeper secret. He was attracted to food.
Not directly, as Dan still liked people. He was still bisexual, at least in his mind, but he always wanted something involving food to be involved.
When Dan got into the internet, he found that he wasnt alone with his fetish, there were others with fetishes involving food. But Dan never met one of these people, and was too scared to ever do anything with any of his girlfriends, or the one secret boyfriend he had at 15. So instead he simply kept his food fetish secret, and as his puberty enroached, he had greater desire to get skinny.
But Dan loved food to much to start dieting, so he developed Bulimia. He would eat food, then maake himself upchuck it, often in the toilets. He lost weight, and to hide this, he pretended to eat less and less. He would pick at his plates, and hhe started eating as much as Adrian, his aneoreexic brother. But in secret, he would gorge on everything in the house, often eating things his parents wouldnt notice. He took his allowance down to the Tesco stop, and would eat candy after candy box, before forcing himself to upchuck it onn his way home. With this Dan got skinnier, though not quite as kinny as his brother.
But thats all irrelevant, a past part of his life. For now, Dan is in love with his malteasers. He jokes about it, just to see peoples reactions, because he;s always gauging if anyone else is like him.
Dan pursues a relationship with his Malteasers, having sex with a box, at least once a week. he called it sex, though most anyone else would call it masturbation, but he loved his malteasers. He would have the box "go down" on him, before going down on the box himself. It was his secret, one he would never not reveal.