A/N: For this story, Jack and Henry are the same age. This will be rated M just cause I feel more comfortable with it that way. And for this story let's pretend even though not all of them should still be working for the BAU, that they still can and are.

And sorry to those who love the fluff I usually write, but this is not one of those!

WARNINGS: Contains rape (Although not graphic) and Slash.

So, if you're uncomfortable with either, it's your choice to read or not.

Disclaimer: I own nothing except my OCs.

Jack Hotchner didn't hate things or people easily.

For most of his life he couldn't even think of anything or anyone he hated, sure he disliked things, but hate was a strong word. It wasn't until he was 15 did he find someone he truly hated.

No one knew of his hatred. Not his best friend Henry LaMontagne, not his dad Aaron Hotchner, his step mom Beth, and not his BAU aunt and uncles. Jack learned how to hide things growing up with profilers.

He was 16 now, and he could still remember the first time it happened just like it was yesterday.

Jack turned off the water and shivered a bit as the sudden cold air hit his bare skin.

Grabbing the white towel that was hanging on a hook near the curtain blocking out the now empty locker room, he dried himself then wrapped it around his waist. Reaching over, he pulled open the shower stall curtain but jumped back in shock as he noticed his soccer coach standing there.

"Coach Keller, what are you doing here?" Jack asked him uneasily, he shivered again but this time it wasn't from the cold air. It was from the way Keller was staring at him.

"I could ask you the same thing, Jack."

As Keller stepped closer, Jack stepped back. He was tempted to run out of the shower stall but he knew Keller wouldn't let him.

"You know I wait to shower." Jack tried to keep his voice steady but was finding it difficult, Keller's eyes scared him. He was completely different from the Coach Keller Jack had grown to know since he started on the soccer team.

By now, Jack's back was against the tiles of the back wall and Keller was too close for his comfort. Before he could blink, one of Keller's hands removed the towel around his waist, and he was pinned against the wall.

"W-What are you doing?" He stuttered out, his eyes wide and his breathing quickening as he tried to push Keller away from him.

"I couldn't wait anymore." Keller practically growled, his eyes filled with hunger.

Jack swallowed the lump in his throat and as Keller's hands traveled down his chest, Jack started using all the strength he could to push, punch or kick Keller. Anything to get him away enough for Jack to run. But Keller was stronger than him.

"D-Don't!"

"Shh you'll enjoy it, don't worry." Keller whispered in his ear as Jack squeezed his eyes shut.

What seemed like a lifetime later, Keller finally moved away from Jack.

"Tell anyone, and I'll make sure everyone finds out what you and Henry did last summer."

Jack's tear filled eyes widened, but when he finally lifted his head, Keller was gone.

Letting out a loud sob, Jack reached up and turned the water back on. He continued to sit under the water as his sobs filled the locker room, the blood and semen washing away. Grabbing a bar of soap, he starting washing himself. But found that no matter how much he scrubbed, he still felt dirty.

When Jack finally returned home after the first time, he was grateful his dad was away on a case. He knew his eyes easily showed he had been crying, not to mention he was limping. Beth thankfully wasn't home either, and was instead out with friends.

It didn't take him long to decide that it was another secret he would just have to keep, except this time he didn't have Henry sharing the same secret. He couldn't take the risk of Keller telling anyone the secret he and Henry had been hiding since the summer before they began high school. While it was possible that it wouldn't be so bad if Keller told anyone, Jack couldn't take the chance, and he especially wouldn't drag Henry down with him.

For the next two practices which were on Fridays, Jack stopped waiting till the soccer team left before showering. Until the next practice when Keller pulled him aside, and threatened Jack again.

He once again waited till the team left, and waved away Henry's questions who was also on the team. Jack didn't even bother to shower before Keller came in the locker room, but as soon as Keller was done and left, Jack went back to sitting under the water scrubbing his skin.

It was almost every Friday after practice that it happened, Jack had tried begging Keller not to, but Keller would only find it amusing. After a while, Jack learned how to block out the abuse as he created a happy place he could drift off to.

But he never stopped feeling dirty.

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Another Friday rolled around, and the abuse began. But instead of Keller leaving right after like he always did, he turned Jack to face him, and kissed him.

Giving a weak 'no', Jack turned his face away.

He didn't really notice when Keller growled and slapped him across the face before he roughly crashed his lips against Jack's, and left.

As Jack sat under the shower, he wondered why after everything Keller did, him kissing Jack bothered him so much. But there was a part of him that knew why. He had only ever kissed one person, and Jack hadn't wanted anyone else's lips touching his like that.

Throwing his head back in laughter, Jack watched as his two friends raced each other to see who was faster. It was childish, but Jack was easily entertained as he watched them slip and fall a couple of times on the wet grass they were running on. It had only stopped raining an hour before.

Finally, they both reached the tree they decided would be the finish line, the winner was the first one to touch the tree. But instead of running and touching the trunk of the tree like Henry did, Nathan had grabbed onto one of the lower branches.

"What!" Shouted Henry once he noticed what Nathan was doing, "That's cheating!"

Laughing, Nathan let go of the branch. "No it's not. You said whoever touches the tree first wins, this branch is part of the tree."

"Jack! Tell him he cheated and that I won!"

Jack rolled his eyes as his friends argued while they walked over to where he was leaning against the pole of the swing set.

"Technically, Nate is right." Jack held up his hand as Henry opened his mouth to shout, "You didn't say to touch the trunk of the tree, just touch the tree."

Henry pushed past them, grumbling about how they always had to be smartasses.

"Is he really mad that I beat him?" Nathan asked Jack laughing.

"Nah, he's just pouting that he didn't think of it first." Jack joined in on Nathan's laughter at their friend.

"Man, I wish this summer could never end. I rather not go back to California when school starts."

Jack felt his heart ache as he thought about Nathan leaving at the end of summer. Jack and Henry had met Nathan in the beginning of the summer, he was visiting his aunt who lives in Virginia. Although he spent more time with them then he did with his aunt.

"Too bad you're mom won't let you move in with your aunt and go to school here." Jack joked weakly.

"Yeah, too bad."

Giving Nathan a sad smile, Jack moved to go follow Henry but instead found himself held back by Nathan's hold on his arm.

"Wha-" Jack was cut off by Nathan's lips crashing into his. Jack let out a gasp and once over his shock, kissed Nathan back as his hand reached up to rest on the back of his neck and Nathan's hand slid down his arm to take hold of his hand.

As they pulled away, they rested their foreheads against each other. Jack was thankful they were pretty much the same height.

"So you're not going to punch me?" Nathan grinned when Jack chuckled softly.

"Hey guys what's taking you so lo-" Jumping apart they turned to see Henry standing there with his mouth open. "Oh well..what took you guys so long?!"

It was their turn to stand there with their mouths open as they stared at Henry who smirked at them, "What? I may be blonde but I'm not dumb!" He joked before walking away again.

"How many times was he dropped on his head as a baby?"

Snickering, Jack shook his head. "Probably every time my Uncle Spencer babysat him. Babies make him nervous, which is probably why he and my Aunt Ashley adopted kids who could already walk, and not babies."

As they walked after Henry, Nathan slipped his hand in Jack's.

Jack decided not to think about what would happen when summer ended, although he wished it never would.

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When Jack walked into the house, two smaller bodies collided with his.

"Jack!" Both of them shouted as they attached themselves to him.

"Hey you two!" Jack greeted the 10 year old Reid twins, ruffling their hair which caused them to let go.

"Why do you always do that?" Whined Kayla the oldest twin by only a few minutes.

"I'm telling mommy you messed up my pigtails!" Shouted Becky as she took off for the kitchen where Jack guessed everyone else was.

"I didn't mess up her pigtails, did I?" He asked Kayla who only shrugged her shoulders and followed after her sister.

Shaking his head, Jack dropped his backpack by the door and headed to the kitchen where he found the whole family waiting. Which meant not only his dad and Beth, but his extended BAU family.

"Hey Jack!" Echoed through the kitchen once he was noticed.

Walking around, Jack gave hugs to his aunts and uncles like he normally did, making sure to avoid his Aunt Ashley's slap to the head for apparently, messing up Becky's pigtails that she claimed to work so hard on that morning, while his Uncle Spencer just shook his head at his wife.

Jack had to work hard not to tense up as he hugged everyone, just like he had to do everytime. But he found it getting harder to hide it.

Once Jack finally hugged them all, he turned to see Henry giving him an odd look. Giving his friend a small smile, he only shrugged his shoulders. All Jack wanted to do was break down and tell Henry everything. He was also tempted to tell his dad that he now hated soccer and wanted to quit the team, but then he would have to explain why, and there was a part of Jack that was scared if he was to leave the team, Keller would do the same to someone else and Jack wouldn't wish it on any one of his teammates.

When everyone finally left, Jack announced he was heading to bed. Instead of sleeping, Jack pulled a picture out of his nightstand.

In the picture was Jack leaning against the hood of a car, holding hands with a spiky haired brunette whose hair looked almost blonde standing in front of him. He was the same height as Jack, and they both had wide smiles on their faces.

Jack ran his thumb over the picture as the tears fell. Curling into ball, Jack clutched the picture as tight in his hand as he could without ruining it.

Trying not to think of what happened the day after the picture was taken, he eventually fell into a restless sleep.

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