Hi to all Kane & Kirsty fans! As we pretty much all know that Kane nearly
hits Kirsty, I've decided to write a fic about Kirsty actually finding out
she got pregnant to cover up the lie, but there is no way she can see Kane,
so she has to deal with herself, her baby, and her mother who is also
having her own little rough patch.
Also, because I love Robbie & Kim so much (total hotties!), I've decided to put them in the story as well, but you'll have to wait and see what happens with them. I also love other peoples ideas, so if you want anything put in this story e.g. favourite character, favourite storyline etc. Just put it in your review & I'll do my very best to put it in the story!
There will be violence in this fic, cutting, swearing (a lot of it by the way) alcohol use, and maybe drug use, but I really don't think this fic needs to contain drugs. So I'll make it a PG 13 rating, because it's just a little too bad for a general rating.
Last but not least, I better introduce myself; my name is Kate, so you're all welcome to call me that in your reviews, emails etc. Anyway, I'll stop blabbing on and get on with this story. Oh, one last, last thing, please R & R!
Ciao for now, Kate
CHAPTER 1 OF BURNING HEARTS: How to deal when you can't deal
A/N: CHANGE OF PLACE
*Thoughts*
~*~ Flashbacks ~*~
THE CITY, SHELLEY'S HOUSE
You never really believe what's happening is happening.
You always have trouble understanding what you've done wrong.
But the one thing I can't get is why I lied so many times.
Over & over again.
Why is it me that has all this tragedy?
Why did I have to fall in love?
Love, that bloody word. Love. It happens.
Shit, why did it have to happen to me?
Now I, Kirsty am paying the ultimate price.
The loss of everything I had to stand for.
Diary, you probably are the only thing I have to stand for.
A diary you say?
Isn't that more Jade's thing?
Well, circumstances, things & people change.
Now you're here to absorb my problems.
Take away the pain.
As I sit here wasting ink, and crying my face dry, I look down.
My stomach.
What lies in there is what Kane & I created.
The love, passion & intimacy we shared created it.
My lie.
My lie: now a reality?
Well, it's true; I'm a stupid, lying idiot.
I've never listened, I'm useless, and it's my own fault.
Who do I have to blame?
No-one but myself.
You can run, but you can never hide.
What am I doing?
Running.
Yours truly,
Kirsty.
Me writing a diary? Strange hey. Well, what have I got to stand for? My life is ruined in everyway possible, so it's not like I care, so here I am day after day stuck with my depressed mother, who has slumped into work and won't come home. What does she do? Well the answer is, no-one knows. That stupid boyfriend of hers dumped her for a blonde about 20 years younger than her, and married her almost instantly. But, out of mum & dads failed marriage I don't know who to blame. Dad did sleep with Angie, however, shouldn't of mum stuck with dad if she'd loved him enough? I mean, we all know mum got engaged to David so quickly because she wanted to make dad jealous. But what if mum knew Dad & Beth had got married?
Would my family's whole life come to an end?
As I hear my mums car come to a screeching halt in the driveway, I run into the kitchen to look like I'm about to start on dinner. I mean, mum doesn't cook anymore; she just cries & eats television dinners. Maybe it's a good thing I'm here, but how do I break the news to her that I'm pregnant?
"Stupid bloody traffic!"
"Mum?"
"Oh, hi. How was your day?"
"Maybe I should be asking you that."
"Look, please not now, my day hasn't finished. I'm doing a night shift as well."
"What? Mum how is that possible?"
"I've got nothing else to live for, so who gives? Got no life."
"Mum, don't be so stupid!"
"Stupid? I'm not being bloody stupid? I mean, I've got you, but you're only using me to stay here, it's not like you love me!"
"MUM THAT IS NOT TRUE!"
"Oh yea? Well if it's not, tell me why you're really here!"
"Mum, I'm here for the reason I told you."
"You need space? Whatever, I know about the AVO you put against Kane, I know you're pregnant, and last but not least I know you're married!"
"Who have you been talking to?" "Your bloody bastard father! I also know he married that bitch Beth. You could have as least had the heart to tell me, I mean I had to find out from your father!"
"Mum, how could I tell you? You're so messed up at the moment!"
"Messed up? Oh no, I don't think so! I'm holding it together just fine, and before I kick you out, get me a drink!"
"Fine. You want to drink you can. I won't be responsible for you when you become an alcoholic. I won't be there for you both when you're so full of toxins and you are on your death bed. You're bringing this all on yourself mum."
"You little bitch troll, go to your room!"
As I slid out of the kitchen, there was no way my mother could've noticed the knife I picked up. As I sat on the crimson chair of my room, I watched in fright as the knife tore my skin, but only felt like the slightest bit of pain, and as it made a withdrawal from my skin.
I removed my small denim dress, just leaving my underwear, crawled into bed, and cried myself to sleep. As I slept, I had dreams about Jade & Seb and how happy they were. As I woke to the bright morning sun, I realized my mother had left, and left a note saying sorry.
Just plain sorry?
Couldn't of she said just a little more?
As if she'd do that.
I got myself started on breakfast just as the phone started to ring.
Well guys, there you go, the first chapter, I know it dragged on a little, but I thought you should see the situation Kirsty was in, and the basis of the story, but the chapters will get better & better as they go along. Also, please, please, please post a review! It'll mean the world to me! Lots of Love, Kate
Also, because I love Robbie & Kim so much (total hotties!), I've decided to put them in the story as well, but you'll have to wait and see what happens with them. I also love other peoples ideas, so if you want anything put in this story e.g. favourite character, favourite storyline etc. Just put it in your review & I'll do my very best to put it in the story!
There will be violence in this fic, cutting, swearing (a lot of it by the way) alcohol use, and maybe drug use, but I really don't think this fic needs to contain drugs. So I'll make it a PG 13 rating, because it's just a little too bad for a general rating.
Last but not least, I better introduce myself; my name is Kate, so you're all welcome to call me that in your reviews, emails etc. Anyway, I'll stop blabbing on and get on with this story. Oh, one last, last thing, please R & R!
Ciao for now, Kate
CHAPTER 1 OF BURNING HEARTS: How to deal when you can't deal
A/N: CHANGE OF PLACE
*Thoughts*
~*~ Flashbacks ~*~
THE CITY, SHELLEY'S HOUSE
You never really believe what's happening is happening.
You always have trouble understanding what you've done wrong.
But the one thing I can't get is why I lied so many times.
Over & over again.
Why is it me that has all this tragedy?
Why did I have to fall in love?
Love, that bloody word. Love. It happens.
Shit, why did it have to happen to me?
Now I, Kirsty am paying the ultimate price.
The loss of everything I had to stand for.
Diary, you probably are the only thing I have to stand for.
A diary you say?
Isn't that more Jade's thing?
Well, circumstances, things & people change.
Now you're here to absorb my problems.
Take away the pain.
As I sit here wasting ink, and crying my face dry, I look down.
My stomach.
What lies in there is what Kane & I created.
The love, passion & intimacy we shared created it.
My lie.
My lie: now a reality?
Well, it's true; I'm a stupid, lying idiot.
I've never listened, I'm useless, and it's my own fault.
Who do I have to blame?
No-one but myself.
You can run, but you can never hide.
What am I doing?
Running.
Yours truly,
Kirsty.
Me writing a diary? Strange hey. Well, what have I got to stand for? My life is ruined in everyway possible, so it's not like I care, so here I am day after day stuck with my depressed mother, who has slumped into work and won't come home. What does she do? Well the answer is, no-one knows. That stupid boyfriend of hers dumped her for a blonde about 20 years younger than her, and married her almost instantly. But, out of mum & dads failed marriage I don't know who to blame. Dad did sleep with Angie, however, shouldn't of mum stuck with dad if she'd loved him enough? I mean, we all know mum got engaged to David so quickly because she wanted to make dad jealous. But what if mum knew Dad & Beth had got married?
Would my family's whole life come to an end?
As I hear my mums car come to a screeching halt in the driveway, I run into the kitchen to look like I'm about to start on dinner. I mean, mum doesn't cook anymore; she just cries & eats television dinners. Maybe it's a good thing I'm here, but how do I break the news to her that I'm pregnant?
"Stupid bloody traffic!"
"Mum?"
"Oh, hi. How was your day?"
"Maybe I should be asking you that."
"Look, please not now, my day hasn't finished. I'm doing a night shift as well."
"What? Mum how is that possible?"
"I've got nothing else to live for, so who gives? Got no life."
"Mum, don't be so stupid!"
"Stupid? I'm not being bloody stupid? I mean, I've got you, but you're only using me to stay here, it's not like you love me!"
"MUM THAT IS NOT TRUE!"
"Oh yea? Well if it's not, tell me why you're really here!"
"Mum, I'm here for the reason I told you."
"You need space? Whatever, I know about the AVO you put against Kane, I know you're pregnant, and last but not least I know you're married!"
"Who have you been talking to?" "Your bloody bastard father! I also know he married that bitch Beth. You could have as least had the heart to tell me, I mean I had to find out from your father!"
"Mum, how could I tell you? You're so messed up at the moment!"
"Messed up? Oh no, I don't think so! I'm holding it together just fine, and before I kick you out, get me a drink!"
"Fine. You want to drink you can. I won't be responsible for you when you become an alcoholic. I won't be there for you both when you're so full of toxins and you are on your death bed. You're bringing this all on yourself mum."
"You little bitch troll, go to your room!"
As I slid out of the kitchen, there was no way my mother could've noticed the knife I picked up. As I sat on the crimson chair of my room, I watched in fright as the knife tore my skin, but only felt like the slightest bit of pain, and as it made a withdrawal from my skin.
I removed my small denim dress, just leaving my underwear, crawled into bed, and cried myself to sleep. As I slept, I had dreams about Jade & Seb and how happy they were. As I woke to the bright morning sun, I realized my mother had left, and left a note saying sorry.
Just plain sorry?
Couldn't of she said just a little more?
As if she'd do that.
I got myself started on breakfast just as the phone started to ring.
Well guys, there you go, the first chapter, I know it dragged on a little, but I thought you should see the situation Kirsty was in, and the basis of the story, but the chapters will get better & better as they go along. Also, please, please, please post a review! It'll mean the world to me! Lots of Love, Kate