AN: Hey guys! This is my idea of what happened after page 603 in Monsters of Men by Patrick Ness. If you haven't read ALL of the series I strongly suggest you don't read this because there are some seriously huge spoilers in this. There will be more to this, so don't think it's a one-shot. Because it's not. I've got a heck of a plot line to wring you through XD. I'm not Patrick Ness but when I do a Todd chapter I will do my absolute best to get his speech down. So sorry that it's so short. I write chapters pretty short in expositions. As soon as I get some time I'll write longer ones! One more thing before you scroll down and read; is Noise capitalized or not? I don't own the book so I'm not sure...Oh well! :) Thank you all for reading this! Enjoy!

Viola

Fifteen times

Fifteen times I have read Todd's mother's journal. Fifteen times I have reread his mother's thoughts, feelings, and ideas. Fifteen times. Fifteen times, where Todd has not woken up.

I sit in my chair now, hands gripping the journal, feeling the familiarity of it.

But not feeling Todd.

After the tenth time reading the journal there had been a change in Todd's sleep. Random spouts of Noise. Sometimes my name, sometimes pictures. At first, the Spackle were sure that he would wake any day and my hopes soared. Ben celebrated…well celebrated as much as you could in New World. His idea of a celebration happened to be going out to talk to Angharrad. I celebrated simply by talking to Todd for a full hour, begging him to come back to me.

But he never did.

1017 is certain Todd is going to wake up but I don't believe him. I think he is simply trying to comfort himself and give him an excuse not to feel as guilty for killing my Todd. His knife. Ben doesn't blame 1017 any more. I however, still feel that rage when I think of the feeling, for those few minutes, when I thought Todd was dead. When I KNEW Todd was dead. His Noise had stopped. I couldn't hear his constant bubble of thoughts, spilling out, true and bright like the sun itself.

Not unlike now. I hear nothing.

Silence.

Ben walks in. He startles me because normally, he approaches with a way that you FEEL his Noise. You can feel his warmth and happiness as he gets closer to his son. His Todd.

His Noise is the same as always, happy, warm, and unusually clear.

"Hey Ben." I greet him, smiling.

He looks up, his Noise suddenly opening up, and for a second, I can hear his noise like a man's noise should be, piling on top of itself, words upon words upon words.

Todd and Spackle's war and the Sky and The Land connects and Todd and Viola and Todd and Todd and TODD!

I flinch back at the intensity of his sudden yell and in his noise I see…I see...

I whirl around to see just what Ben was seeing. Todd. My Todd. His eyes are wide open and his Noise just as innocent as it used to be and I know that no matter if he changes and speaks like Ben, I would always love him. He would still be just Todd. He sits up, his face troubled but when he sees me, confusion swept across his face.

Without even skipping a beat I hurl myself into him. The smell of him, the feel of him and…oh how I've missed him! I was about to say something, not caring what, just as long as it was to Todd…

When he says something that brings my world crashing down.

"Do I know you?"