Dr Cox One-shot

Warnings: Slash, slight OOCness but there's a reason :D

Disclaimer: All I own is the empty bowl of ice cream :) Not scrubs

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Lying here in the on-call room, I wonder how life would be if I let people get close to me. More often than not the idea seems appealing, but I can never make it reality. Except now I have a reason to make it a reality...I'm in love. Ever since that idiot came to Sacred Heart I've had a heckuva lotta trouble trying to keep my 'image' up, I have to keep my emotions in check but with him around it's almost impossible.

The way he oh-so-endearingly looks up to me with his doe eye filled with hope, the way he follows me like a little lost puppy. But I can't let him know I care...that would be like signing my own death warrant to Jordan. She'd make my life hell, not that she doesn't already, but she would make things worst. Shewould tear my life apart, she would make Newbie hate me and she would lose me my job forsome reason or another. I just can't win.

But then I hear probably the nicest thing about me I'll ever hear, Newbie talking bout me outside the on-call room. He was defending me against Gandhi, praising me too. But best of all he admitted he loves me. Now I don't feel so alone, things feel different but in a good way. Funny how words said by an idiot could change my way of thinking.

And now he sees me lying here, his eyes wide wondering if I hear what he said about me, I did. I nod to him and he comes over, so I gesture him even closer indicating I want to say something. So I bare it all and tell him.

'Catriona, I'll be damned but I love you too.'

He smiles, and I smile genuinely for the first time in a long time. We kiss lovingly.

It was the life I imagined.

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Just a short, cute idea that popped into my head at two in the moning :P Hope you enjoyed :D please review on my skills and sorry for the seemingly ooc Cox but the idea is he puts up a mask and he's lonely and scared underneath so it wont be the same loud mouth :D