A/N
I'm grounded. And, well I was bored (obviously). And pissed, Yes, VERY pissed. Because this fandom is overrun by so much freaking yaoi it's sad! And, there aren't that many Cloud x Aerith fics. Which, I am determined to change. ::grins::
Drabble-like (no surprise there). I like Tifa, really, I do; I just don't think she's right for Cloud, that's all. The Cloti pairing never made any sense to me. Honestly, I think that no matter what Clerith will always be my OTP. Aerith is so pretty, I swear I loved her in FFAC! And, Cloud, omgz do not get me started...Cloud hottie! Hah! No one can disagree with that logic!
Enjoy.
Warning: I apologize for any OOC' ness!
Disclaimer: There's no way I own Kingdom Hearts. I do not make any profit from this. I'm simply using them for my own sick and twisted purposes.
'thought'
flashback or dream sequence
Always
By: Youkai Hime90
Sometimes it's too much. Sometimes it's all Cloud can do just to take another breath and breathe. Sometimes it's all he can do just to live. Sometimes he doesn't want to believe in darkness and light and destiny and ever lasting friendship. Sometimes he just wants to give up and let his legs give out underneath him and wait for the darkness in his heart to consume him wholly and eternally. Sometimes Cloud wonders why he should bother trying anymore, why he should even bother getting up in the morning. Sometimes he wonders how someone like Tifa can love him so blindly, so unconditionally after all the things he's done, the people he's hurt.
But, sometimes Aerith spares him that soft, beguiling smile and Cloud feels a weight being lifted off his shoulders, and suddenly he feels like he's ready to take on the world. Sometimes when she embraces him he feels like he should always stay by her side, and never let anyone hurt her ever ever again. Sometimes Cloud watches over her as she sleeps and he wants to touch her, cherish her, but he doesn't. Sometimes he wants to make her smile when she's sad that he's leaving, and he wants to make her understand. Sometimes when she touches his arm he wants Aerith to love someone else (anyone else) so that way she can be safe because Cloud loves her and he hates himself.
That's why, when Aerith cries (and, oh god, she never cries) Cloud quietly, reverently brushes away each escaping tear gently, his head hurting because someone like sweet, gentle, forgiving Aerith shouldn't ever have to cry.
Never.
Cloud catches Aerith's chin between his forefinger and thumb, and kisses her, pouring all his doubt, all his fear, all his love for her into this one single kiss, heart fleeting in between breaths. Her emerald eyes shine like a thousand stars and he takes another breath (inhale, exhale) because Aerith makes him want to live.
She makes him want to defeat the darkness in his heart, for her and her alone.
Always.