Hi! This is my first fic. I already know it sucks but comments otherwise would be astonishing. I just lovee Edvy especially angst, mmmm. Anyway i just thought of a plot an went with it. ALSO my writing style is a bit weird because I lived in America as a kid but I live in England now so please forgive any typos. Umm I really don't know what to say, so yeah.

Disclaimer: Don't depress me further by making me admit I don't own FMA or even Envy...

Warnings: YAOI, guy on guy sex! Swearing, drugs all the usual bad shizz

Main Pairing: EDVY Minor Pairing: Wrath X Al

Kill Me Slowly

Have you ever known that someone who was slowly killing you and even when you shouldn't you still love them? It rips you apart doesn't it? You see, I'm trapped on a path; no shortcuts, no exits just a good old straight road to destruction, and although i try to hide it, I still fucking love it.

Having had such a heavy night last night it takes me a while to realise that I'm minutes away from being late to school. Already knowing I'll be in detention prevents me from rushing as I slowly shower, get dressed and crawl to the bus stop with a slice of toast. 15 minutes after his designated arrival the bus driver finally decides to show his ass. My piercing golden eyes glare at him as I show him my pass. Sitting on a bus really gives you time to reflect, not on the good things though. As you sit there things like 'why am I alive?' and 'everyone should just fuck off' really seems to dwell on you... I didn't use to be like this, I wasn't always a gloomy, depressing, short-tempered bastard. Well, maybe short-tempered.

I was Edward Elric top of the class, role model student and a tad bratty. Just because I was smart didn't mean I was uncool. No, I had a nice group of friends and a fair bit of respect. Jeez, I remember the day of my downfall, holy fuck I was stupid. We juniors were invited to our first senior high school party. Basically that meant dancing, drugs, alcohol and sex. Oh how it thrilled our fresh virgin eyes. Jean had come bounding up to me giving me the details of where the party was and who was going. Now I'd like to say that I was indifferent to the news but alas that wouldn't be true. I threw my fist in the air when he said that junior and senior girls were going (because this was the time I was very much into girls). Russell had told me he would pick me up if I was ready by 9 pm.

I was dressed in tight leather pants and a long black tank top; on top of that I was wearing a cropped leather jacket. Checking myself out in the mirror, I slipped my signature pocket watch in and proceeded to grab my keys and say bye to Al. He was holed up in his room with his new friend Wrath. Bloody hell I disliked the kid. He came with his long black hair, purple eyes and short tight clothing, cuts and bruises decorating his body like a boxer. He stenches of trouble but Al seemed to thrive whenever he was around even cooking the boy dinner sometimes. I peeked my head round Al's door and whispered goodbye. Al was shaken out of his trance of watching Wrath's face while the boy struggled on some work. " B-bye nii-san!" Al stammered in an oddly high-pitch voice. Wrath looked up and nodded and smiled politely. I smiled back grimly at him. Al was furiously blushing and I decided to take my leave... Al wasn't gay was he? He would definitely tell me right? Pushing those thoughts out of my head, I ran out of the door to the sound of Russell impatiently pressing the horn. "Shut it up, we have neighbours you know!" I hissed as I entered the car. "Well you shouldn't have made me wait then." Russell said as we sped off, tyres screeching. I rolled my eyes "Haven't you heard of being fashionably late?" "It's 9:45 party starts at 9:00, we're way past being fashionably late you dick!" I chuckled and settled in, buzzing about going to such an exclusive party.

20 minutes later we arrived and checked out the venue. A large house with only a hot pink Cadillac outside, her parents weren't in. The hours passed in seconds as we shyly mingled with other juniors but then began to get bolder and brasher, drinking a ton of alcohol and dancing with some juniors and seniors. What we didn't know was that the drink had been spiked with drugs. This is the point when we really started to go wild grinding and kissing not only girls but boys too. I didn't even know the name of the girl that I was snogging. Then he came. His pupils had been so dilated I couldn't see his irises. It should be obvious that at that moment my common sense had flown out the window and the drugs were kicking in. We came together like magnets, grinding furiously, in sync to the music. My hair-tie had been flung of into some far off corner. My bangs clinging to my sweaty forehead. Before I knew it our lips smashed together just as roughly as our dancing. I don't remember how everyone had disappeared. I just remembered being in some room, my legs locked around HIS waist, taking off HIS clothes while being pressed against a door, the handle digging into my back. I remember being naked then I remember waking up to him smoking, lying on his chest. Then running to the toilet ignoring the pain in my back. Then I lay crumpled on the floor crying while he watched, because I had slept with a guy. And not just any guy. It was Envy.

I was shaken out of my daydream by the jolt of the bus stopping at my school. Several boring lessons later the bell for lunch goes. Me and Winry chatted and laughed as we sat at our usual table with our friends. "Ed! You were late, what happened? Jamie said he saw you hanging round the city." Lin yelled. Several heads turned. I scowled "Nothing happened, I just slept in." I replied irritated. The guy was just too damn nosy not to mention cheap! He still owed me for paying for his club tickets. Roy turned and smirked "Who knows, Ed might have been able to get a girl. Oh wait, not likely." What a douche. "At least I don't crawl on my belly trying to look up girls skirts." Heh. That wiped the smirk off his face. He opened his mouth to retort but a glare from Riza and a dark look from Hughes stopped him. Well, well, well seems like I won this one. I batted my eyelashes at Roy and turned to Jean who was once again talking about some club. " Ed you've got to come everyone's going!" I swear this guy lives for parties. I don't even think he does schoolwork. His hand waved in my face " Earth to Edward, are you going?" As much as I don't want to go HE will want me to go. Though, much to my disgust, I already wanted to see him. "Probably." I replied to Jean who was awaiting my answer. "Great! Roy's picking us all up be ready at 10:30 pm. Excellent, exactly what I wanted to do with my evening I sighed. Dark green tinged hair caught my eye then Envy's eyes flashed at the window. "Excuse me." I muttered to my friends and walked out the door to the closed off bushes near the school car park. Then I was suddenly yanked down roughly and onto Envy's lap. I stared onto the grass while his lips brushed the back of my neck. "Are you going to the club tonight?" he murmured. I nodded stiffly. He smirked into my jaw, "That's good." He flicked my latest piercing on my eyebrow and I winced "It really does look sexy on you babe." When I didn't respond he yanked my head back roughly. My pale golden eyes stared into his large purple ones. He was high again. "Someone's in a mood, hmm, let's fix that." He crushed his lips against mine. When I didn't move he pinched my nipple with the hand that had snaked under my shirt. I opened my mouth and began to move my tongue against his and moaned as he latched onto my throat. His hands began fiddling with my trousers and belt. I began to struggle weakly "No, please not here, please." Envy began to yank on my belt more roughly. "I'm begging you, please not here." His hands stopped. He nipped on my tongue harshly and stood up. But before he left he whispered in my ear "Don't forget I own you Ed." I lay there lips bruised and trousers undone thinking about what he had said.

End of chapter 1

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