A/N: I do not own Twilight. And this is my first fanfic. :)

First couple chapters will be written in Bella's POV.

Enjoy!


CHAPTER ONE

Bella POV

"Bella, this relationship isn't going anywhere. It's just better if we are back to just being friends" Jake said almost apologetically.

"Jake, honestly? You can't be serious?" I said. I began to breathe a little faster from the shock. I knew things were growing to be a bit of a routine with Jake, and me but I still loved him regardless.

"I'm sorry. I love you but we both know this is not the best thing for us now"

I watched him lean forward kiss the top of my forehead and brushed his large hands through my brown hair. I closed my eyes keeping the tears from falling in front of Jake. I greedily took his scent in me trying to imprint it in my brain. He leaned in and whispered in my ear,

"I'm so sorry Bella."

Just like that he untwined himself from me. I watched him pull away from me; I saw his beautifully tanned skin leave before my own pale white skin. He turned around and I watched him leave my apartment, I tried my best to store this memory in my head, his smell, his touch, and his kiss against my head, down to his black and charcoal color plaid shirt, his black Nike shoes, and his dark blue jeans. Taking the contour of body and how perfect his curves were. And with a click from my door, he was gone. I felt lost and a bit of me died just then.

Jake and me had a long history together, we were more than just lovers and each other companion. We were best friends; we knew each other when we were young children and I became quick friends with him, maybe because Charlie and Billy Black, Jacob's father were best friends so that rubbed off onto us. I felt so broken and lost, and did the only thing I knew how to do. I picked up my phone and dialed the two numbers that I could always rely on to come and rescue me in a time of crisis.

Rosalie and Alice came together and knocked on my door furiously. I opened it and they rushed to my side both hugging me hard and it was then that I finally was able to openly cry over Jake. Tears came freely streaking my face. Alice hugged me tighter.

"Shhh, it's okay Bella" Alice soothed brushing my face lovingly. I don't know how long I was crying for nor did I have a clue how I got to my bed, but I knew that when I woke up my eyes were hurting and puffy from crying so much. The back of my throat felt dry. I looked and saw that I was in bed and I heard loud noise coming from the kitchen. I walked in and saw my two best friends in the world Alice and Rosalie.

"Hey," I called. I knew I looked like a mess, but was glad that my friends didn't say anything about it.

"Bella, we never thought you get out of that bed of yours. How are you doing?" Alice asked across the island in the kitchen.

"Better now, because of you guys" I smiled at them which was the truth and not because I said that because it was appropriate. It was because I really was glad they were there.

"Of course, c'mon who cares about Jacob Black!" Rosalie laughed.

"He was a dirt bag that smelled like a dog's ass anyhow. Plus, there are plenty more fishes in the sea. You know what Bella, I can totally hook you up with this awesome guy name Mike Newton or---" Rosalie continued.

I saw Alice roll her eyes and interrupted Rose "C'mon Rosie, play nice and at least be considerate it have been less than 24 hours since Jake and Bella broke up and your trying to 'hook her up' give her a break let her grieve."

I winced at the word "grieve." Alice made that word and my sadness into this horrible accident or some sort. I just wouldn't call it 'grieve' but just sadness, nostalgia, or just depression. Then in one quick swoop, Rosalie slapped Alice in the arm so fast I woke up from my reverie and laughed.

"I fucking hate it when you call me Rosie" Rosalie spat.

"Unbelievable." Alice simply said and mumbled something under her breath so fast and so soft we couldn't hear.

I knew Rosalie thought Jacob was great for me and was secretly sad that our relationship ended this way. Although Rose's gesture in "hooking me up" was a way to be nice and get over Jake, but I knew I couldn't get over him this quickly. We had too much history. I thought back when we were friends and how we were so comfortable with one another.

"Hey Bells" Jake said slipping his arms around my shoulders and gave me a slight hug with one arm. We walked like that for a while down the hallway past the lockers.

"Hey" I casually said like his friendly gesture didn't bother me at all. Nope not at all, why should it? It's not like I was thinking Jake in another way or anything. Nope. I wasn't secretly drooling over his lovely pecs or his strong arms tight with muscle around me, or his defined torso with an eight-pack waiting for my fingers to… Whoa, I need to really get my mind out of the gutter I was heading south with my mind and plus he is my best friend. My BEST friend. What the hell was wrong with me? My childhood best friend, I can't think of him that way. Can I? There can't be a rule where I can't do that. What am I talking about? I'm trying to make an excuse for thinking about Jake in a sexual way? No way.

"Hello! Hello! Earth to Bella! What's going on in that mind of yours?" Jake said lightly tapping his index finger to my head.

"Huh? What?" I said, totally clueless.

Jake rolled his eyes "Did you hear what I asked you?"

"Umm, no? Sorry?" I gave him a weak smile and uncapped my water bottle to take a drink.

Jake rolled his eye for the second time, "I asked you if you wanted to go to the Sadie Hawkins dance with me?"

I choked on the water I was drinking and I think I might have spat a lot of water out. Making every student body in the hallway look in our direction. I of course looked like a doofus and an idiot for choking on my own water on the worst possible time. I felt my face turn boiling red from my faux pas.

"Bella! You okay?" Jake asked tapping my back. How embarrassing.

"Yeah, I'm okay. Wait, aren't the girls suppose to ask the boys to the dance?"

"Yeah, but I thought we could just go as friends, unless you already had plans with someone else?"

"No, I love to" I answered too quickly.

He smiled his shiny white teeth smile. But I knew I had to ask, like an itch on my back I had to scratch, I just had to ask this one question.

"Did any other… umm girls asked you?" hoping he didn't hear my hesitation.

"Yeah, but I rather go with you though." He said opening his locker.

My heart lit up, because Jake and I were totally different in what you call social cliques. I was a bit geeky and was a book worm, I loved books. I read a different book every week. However, Jake was different. He was popular, without even trying. All the girls swoon for him; he had a great body that every girl would love to get to know. He never showed any interest to them though. Jake was younger than I was by a year. Which is my final year with him, then I will head over to Arizona to go to Arizona State University and living with my mom Renee while I am at school. My heart ache a little with that small thought in my head.

"Hello Bella!" Alice said again but this time waving her hands in front of my face.

"I'm sorry, guys I'm just kind of a scatter brain today"

"We didn't notice" Rosalie said, rolling her eyes at me.

Alice pinched Rose in the arm mouthing the words 'be nice' to her. Rose stuck her tongue out.

"What would you like to eat Bella?" Alice asked.

"I'm not feeling too hungry today, if you don't mind, I want to be alone right now"

"And let you be all mopey and sad" Alice chided.

"Alice, you're the sweetest. I know you mean well just kind of hanging out here, but I will be okay. Rose, you bitch, thanks for making me smile. I will be fine. I promise. If I need anything I will call you both" I said hugging them both trying to comfort them proving them that I was fine.

Rose smiled, "you know it Bella."

I lead them to the door and gave both of them hugs and promising them I will call if I didn't feel well.

I went to go back to the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of mineral water. As I was walking past my kitchen and into my bedroom I saw a glimpse of a picture hanging of Jake and me during my high school graduation. I stopped and looked at his young handsome features and smiled at how good we were back then. I didn't realized how long I have stood there but I felt a tear trickle down my cheek. I touched it and walked to my bedroom. I felt really nostalgic now, and grabbed the four scrapbooks of us and threw them on my bed. I plucked the pink book with purple and yellow vertical lines running around the book. I opened the book and gently touched the picture of Jake and me at the Sadie Hawkins dance.