New story, better yet first story lol! Try it out, it can get very emotional and painful to read at times, but no story in life is for the faint of heart! Unless those are the ones we magically create in our own little head.
Disclaimer: I do not own anything but this twisted plot, all else belongs to the wonderful Stephenie Meyer. I am borrowing her characters and will hopefully bring them back to her in a proper state. ;)
I have fears like everyone else I have secrets that I can never share sometimes when I am alone I overthink and my mind feels like its exploding. I don't know how to clear my mind of these things and I wish I could but unfortunately I can't and for that it bothers me so much and hurts like hell. I wish there were moments when I could be just happy and never have to worry about being hurt but it's just not that way and I am always being hurt. I don't think I can take another hurt from someone else because I don't know how I would deal with that. It frustrates me that I am taken so easily for granted when my heart is so pure and I give so much of myself to others. I wonder at times if I will ever find happiness or is it just a dream that is nonexistent. Life can be so miserable and so annoying at times right now as I sit here I am being knock over with many emotions.
I am afraid of loving I have been hurt far too many times, those perfect fairytales fantasy that I had are just that fantasy. I will never find the perfect guy. They all turn out to be trash and garbage anyway filled with lies and deceit. I actually want to find someone whom I can love, but it seems so hard these days. Everyone is so caught up in using and taking advantage of people that no one wants anything real. Men have only lied to me and betray me time and time again. Not that I have helped, sometimes I am weak and fall victim to their trap all out of desperation. It makes me so angry at times. I feel as though I never get anything right.
No one ever tell themselves that they are going to have heartbreaks instead they envision having one soulmate who will become their husband/wife. But life just does not work that way. I know this because I have dealt with more heartbreaks than I can count. I have gotten my hopes up far too many times and in return all I have gotten was pain and grief. Each time I tell myself it will be the last time and that I would not let it happen again. What I've learned is that I cannot make that decision, because life is filled with so many unforeseen events. There is no way to know for sure. Your future is hidden, you can make assumption and have picture perfect ideas about how you want it to be, but that is all there's to it. There are guarantee that it will similar to how you've envisioned it.
How do you find love and keep it? How do you forgive others in order to find love again? Is there any true benefit of having love? What is wrong with me? Who will love me? After being hurt time after time is it worth it? Can anyone out there actually love me for me? Why do so many players exist?
Questions existing I presume.
A/N: This is just a sample of what's to come. Let me know what you guys think and I will decide based on that if I will continue. I have a great plan for this story, but I am also a busy person and if no one is reading it. Then it makes no sense using my time here, when I could be allocating somewhere else. I love the plot I have planned out. Hope everyone enjoys the beginning and yes I know it's short. Its meant to be :)