Chapter 1:

Dead inside

I was laying in my pup house, this has been all I've done for a couple of days only leaving for missions and the basic necessities. I can't help it, it devastated me when it happened. That's when I heard the familiar sound of knocking at the door, but this time it was soft like someone really wanted to talk to me. I shifted and open the door but I was in an unappealing position. The door slowly slid open and to my displeasure it was Marshall. Don't get me wrong I still love him absolutely and my heart still skips beats but I wasn't happy about what happened. I rolled over onto my stomach. I'm sure he saw but I don't care. "What do you want Marshall?" I said in an agitated voice. "I… Uh …. I just wanted to say that…" I cut him off saying. "

Unless it's important I don't care so spit it out." it hurt to talk to him like this but I couldn't help it I was mad at him. His facial expression changed to a sad look I guess he wished I was over him, ha fat chance I won't ever be over him. "I just wanted you to know that the trip is tomorrow and Ryder wants us all packed." He turned around to leave and I felt my heart split again and before he could start walking I felt a tear start to bubble up in my eye before getting to big and making a trail of wet fur down my snout. "Wait Marshall I'm sorry that I'm being so mean it's just that…" He cut me off by putting a paw on my snout and said. "Shh I know chase, I hurt you and I know it but I'm sorry, I just don't like you in that way."

He licked the tears that were starting to run from my eyes down my face and I immediately started to blush and I think he knew it because he let his tongue hang on my snout for just a second before moving his head away and walking over to his pup house to pack. I figured it was time to stop sulking, so I got up and walked toward the lookout. I got there and took the elevator up and went to my locker that had all my stuff in it and got my suitcase. I put both my uniforms into the suitcase and went to zip it when I saw some box in the back of my locker where no one would be able to see it. I took it and immediately recognised the weight.

It was a necklace I got in the mail with a note telling me that my mother and father were dead and that I would be next if I didn't figure out my heritage. Well nothing ever happened but it doesn't make me any less fearful of it. The thing about the necklace is that when I put it on something happens and I feel more powerful. I put the box in the suitcase and zipped it closed. I took it down the elevator and put it with the pile of luggage next to the door. That's when I smelled something coming from the back room. It smelt like Rocky and Zuma but something else that was super strong. I followed the smell to the back room where we keep the tools and spare parts for the pup packs and vehicles.

i went to the door and took a sniff. Yep they're definitely in there I thought to myself. Then I put my ear to the door and listened and immediately knew I shouldn't have. I backed away from the door slowly and then bolted for the front door. Once I got outside i slowed down to a walk and went toward my pup house. When i got to the front I caught Marshall's scent. I looked in and saw Marshall turning around. I immediately moved to the side of it and watched him walk out and walk towards his pup house. I walked in and looked around everything was where it should be except my pillow was gone. That didn't bother me what did was that where my pillow was supposed to be there was a piece of paper that said one thing. "Go To The Bay."

I got out of my pup house and changed it to my police car and got in driving to the bay. When I got there it was deserted and there was a fog rolling in. I was listening to see if anyone was around but everything was silent. There were no waves, no splashes, not even seagulls. That's when I caught Marshall's scent and started to look around but I couldn't see through the fog and I was starting to get worried. I turned on my flashing lights and I saw my worst nightmare. "MARSHALL!" I yelled out when I saw his body on the ground. This couldn't be right he was just at the lookout.

I jumped out of the car and ran out to his body. That's when it happened I was surrounded by people in the fog. They were all saying the same thing. "It's all your fault. You caused this." They kept saying it over and over getting closer every time they said it until I was trapped. "What do you want?" They kept saying it. "LEAVE ME ALONE!" I yelled at them. They were starting to scare me and I didn't know what to do. They were starting to get louder and it was hurting my ears. That's when I woke up completely covered in sweat. I looked around and I realized that it was midnight and I was at the bay. I couldn't stand the feeling of hurt that I had on my heart.

I got up accidentally waking up Zuma who watched me as I walked to the dock and walked to the edge thinking about all the good memories I had with the Paw Patrol and I started to feel it again. The hurt of good memories turned bad. I looked at my reflection and it didn't look like me at all. I knew that I would hurt more people than myself but I had to do it. I stepped off the dock and felt the cold water embrace me making all my limbs heavy as I replaced air with water flooding my lungs I kept sinking as I heard a splash and saw Zuma diving in after me. His water training helped him cut through the water after me.

He was about to grab me when I kicked him in the snout making him gasp and breathe in water he swam back up and coughed up the water replacing it with air. I felt the sand against my back as I hit the bottom and breathed in a deep breath of water. My whole body was aching and my vision was failing. The last thing I saw was Zuma dive through again and swim towards me then I blacked out. I woke up to Zuma giving me CPR and pushed him away coughing up water and breathing in air. My whole body was heavy and it hurt. I looked around and saw everyone with sad faces except Ryder he looked very angry. I turned away from Ryder's face and immediately saw Marshall.

He looked the worst, his eyes were blood red causing the blue to be covered up. I called out to him but my voice was really croaky. "M….Marshall I'm sorry." He replied in the softest voice ever. "Chase why would you do that you're my best friend and I love you!" He was blushing madly and his eyes cleared just enough to see those crystal blue eyes and I couldn't look away I was locked with them. "Guys can I have a minute with Marshall?" I asked and they all looked at each other then they walked away talking about something probably me. My whole body was still weak and my arms were heavy but I slowly put my arms around his neck and use it to pull myself closer to him. He was blushing madly I could tell but so was I.

I pulled myself to his face and connected our lips for what I wish was longer but he pulled away. I could see a twinkle of joy in his eyes but there was mostly fear. I closed my eyes and was about to look away when I heard him giggle and say "Chase I love you." My eyes shot open and looked into his eyes. They looked so clear and they were shining. I was at a loss for words I thought he liked Everest. I guess my eyes started to do the same thing because he broke the silence and said "Chase your eyes get brighter every time I'm near you." He broke my trance and had nothing to lose so I said

"M…. Marshall I….. I love you too." After I said that he didn't say anything else so I broke the silence this time and said "Marshall can you help me to my pup house?" He nodded and helped me up so that I could walk. As we were walking I kept hearing something but I pushed it off as my brain hallucinating until something hit my head hard. I felt the pain then all I remembered was darkness.