A Thousand Tears

By: A.Z.

"I gave my trust, but I was forsaken

I gave my vow but that was indeed been broken

I held up laughter against these painful years

But I was left to cry a thousand tears."

Why? ... A question I've been longing to ask

For I wish to see beyond your cold dark mask

I tried to find truth through those obsidian eyes

But truth there was none, only resentment and lies

Even though we're together, it feels like we're apart

I searched for a meaning but found an empty heart

Even though I'm hopeless I never loose faith

That someday love will spring, from that fountain of hate

I wanted to feel the warmth of your embrace

I wanted to see a single smile on your face

I wanted to sense the light that was you

I wanted to feel love, a love that was true

Never have I felt an ounce of your affection

But instead your disgust and all out rejection

Though I offered my heart for you to claim

I was left to cry, until tears no longer came

You've cast to me the shadow of your horrible past

Never leaving one sweet memory to even linger or last

I'm fed up to endure your eternal demise

I'm fed up to feel tears on my emerald eyes

But I loiter to stupidity and continue with my dreams

That soon you could hear my inaudible screams

That soon you could care for this pitiful being

And so tears will fall back, and I can stop crying

I've thrown my pride and crept so low

Concealed my suffering, never letting it show

So that I could hear your voice speak my name

With words proving that you could feel the same

I love you ... why can't you understand

Why won't you reach out and just hold my hand

I need not mercy like the heavens above

I need not your pity, only your love

But all of these to you are oblivion

You don't know love only hatred and possession

You have left me with nothing to treasure

You have left me with suffering to endure

My pride, my heart, my life and my soul

All I am you corrupted and stole

Why could you be so heartless and cruel?

Have I been blind to love a person so evil?

I look into the shadows as I regained sight

Once my sun now but a fading light

Once filled by the spirit of a beloved

Now emptied by the heart of hatred

So a thousand tears I continue to shed

A thousand wounds, I continue to bled

I am nothing, I am empty

For you have taken what was left of me

End