So many mixed feelings. How do I know which ones I can trust? Oh, how I wish I could go back and change the course of History! Don't get me wrong, I have a wonderful life here in District 2. I have a fancy new job working as a mason in a high class community, friends in high places, and a wonderful house. Something is missing, though.
It has been four years since the accident that killed Prim, which I had nothing to do with. My life had not gone the way I had wanted it to since then. I have so many questions! Why did they deploy the bomb there, knowing that there were people inside? Where Prim, Katniss' little sister was helping sick people? Why did Katniss believe I had planned it? I never wanted to kill Prim. I loved her like my own sister! One question, however, has trumped all the others. It has been burned into my heart and will not leave, no matter how much I try to figure it out. There seems to be no answer that my heart can be satisfied with. Why did Katniss choose Peeta? Why, after all we had been through in our lives, did she choose a guy who she had no prior history with? It doesn't make any sense! I know she draws towards people who are needy. I understand this. But in the long run, I was the one who helped keep her alive, and she helped me! We hunted together, fed our families, grew up and faced life together. How can you not choose that? I know her more intimately than Peeta ever could. I know Katniss Everdeen.