NOTE: I THE DIOLOG WITHOUT ACTION/DISCRIPTION IS DONE FOR DRAMATIC
PURPOSES! Really, I swear! It was also in italics but I don't know how to
do that on ff.net. if anyone wants to tell me, please do!!! I need toknow
WARNING: Um, don't kill me. (note: I did not say "don't flame me" I meant don't kill me because of....well, you'll see in about the fifth or sixth paragraph with one three letter word. That means you are welcome to flame me should you desire)
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"I'm sorry Dee, but I have to."
"Why?"
"Because........I have to......"
Ryo shot up in bed, causing the covers to pool in his lap. A warm sweat coated his entire body and his hands clenched the covers tightly, trying to strangle the life from them. He took in three deep breaths, trying to remind himself that it had only been a nightmare. His vision began to clear and he looked around the room to see that it was in order.
The photographs hung on the wall, just like always, the red numbers on his alarm clock still reminded him of the time, and there was a lump not far from him in the bed. From outside, a random dog barked in the distance, the only sign of civilization at this hour.
The lump of quilt next to him moved a little, attempting to sit up and comfort him. Strong, but not too strong, arms encircled him and a familiar head landed on his shoulder, black hair, a tangle in the morning, reached over to Ryo's face.
It had been a year since Ryo had first woken up next to this beautiful creature, since they had moved in together anyway. They had fallen into a comfortable pattern, each fitting and complimenting the other perfectly.
"Is something wrong, Randy" The figure asked, sleepily holding Ryo close, which turned out to be more like leaning heavily on him.
"Everything is fine, Amy, I just had a nightmare. Try to get some more sleep." Ryo sighed as she pulled her arms away. He laid back down and pulled the thick quilt around him again, swiping a last glance at the alarm clock, only two hours before time to getup.
"Ryo, you cant move! What will I do?"
"I'm sorry Dee, but the doctor said......."
"....That Biky needs a more relaxed environment, I know. But, why cant I move with you?"
A blaring alarm clock snapped Ryo out of his dream. He smacked the oversized snooze button with all of his might, attempting to send it out the bottom of the clock if he could. Once the buzzing had been silenced, he proceeded to actually turn it off to keep it from going off again.
"Could you have found a more annoying clock?" Amy muttered, rolling over to protect her eyes from the harsh light of the morning. Ryo shrugged and went to take his shower.
There, with the hot water running over his body, he began to contemplate his dreams. He had dreamed about Dee before, about his old life, but never twice in the same night. He had to remind himself of why he had left it. Bikky had caused too much trouble to be overlooked and it was recommended that he was moved to somewhere "quieter where he might learn some manors as well," as the doctors had described. He had done it for Bikky and he had found the perfect place.
After the move he had met Amy at a welcoming party for him. They became fast friends and more. One year later, she had already moved in with him. They were soul mates, she could sense it though Ryo remained unsure. He still thought of Dee at night, including having dreams about him that were much less tame than those of that night. As much as he wanted to deny it, he still loved that man. He didn't even know why he had pushed him away after the move.
He continued to contemplate the night's dream until he reached the office and pushed all thoughts, save for those on work, out of his head as he plopped down at his desk. He brought up his email account and scanned through the various messages. Three were thank you notes, one was a change in policy, and five were notices about the unfortunate accident which befell their beloved coffee maker the day before. Nothing happened in that boring town!
Ryo let out a sigh and closed his account without reading any of them. He pulled up some paper work and began filling in columns mindlessly. The drone of the office fan served as a bit of a distraction but not enough to use it as an excuse for not having his work done.
A familiar voice from the front of the station caused him to discard the paperwork and find out who it was. It was a voice he had not heard in years, someone he wanted to see very much.
"Ryo! What are you doing here?" The person asked as soon as they spotted him, stepping closer to give him a hug. "I knew I would find someone helpful, but I didn't know that they would be friendly!"
"Diana!" Ryo laughed and hugged her back, momentarily looking around the station to see what the other officer's reactions were. Some of them, mostly the girls, glared at him as though he was cheating on Amy by hugging a girl that they didn't know. Half of the men were gawking at the shortness of her skirt as the other half scurried around trying to figure out what papers they would need to arrest someone for prostitution, this being the first time it came up in their neighborhood.
"How are you?" She asked him, releasing him from her hold.
"Just fine. I'm living with someone now." Ryo paused for a moment before adding more information. "Her name is Amy,"
"Dee would be crushed if he found out." Diana laughed and Ryo grimaced. That was one aspect of his life he did not want to bring up in front of the entire office. "He was rather disappointed when you stopped talking to him after the move."
"Um, lets go back to my office and I'll do what I can for you." Ryo led her down the hallway and into his personal office, which was not hard to get because the number of cops was so small. After letting her in and motioning for her to sit down, he closed the door tightly, making sure that no one could hear them. He looked down at the interesting tile beneath his feet, there was no way he could say it to her face. "I never told them about Dee......and I would prefer that they don't know."
"I understand." She remained quiet, allowing the drama of the moment to pass. "Do you still, you know, miss him?"
"Yes, I think about him every day still. Sometimes, I just want to call him up again, just to listen to him talk. I...." Ryo could not continue, he just sat down in his chair and bit his lip.
"He still cares about you, you know. He really was disappointed when Drake and Ted both got a letter from you but he didn't. He said that the post probably just lost yours and smiled, but later I saw him crying. He still loves you." Diana looked at Ryo, watching for a reaction of any sort. "He would like that phone call that you were talking about."
"I know he would. Now, what was it that you came here for?" Ryo tried desperately to change the subject any way he could.
"I need directions to a town not far away from here. Rose's sister lives there and I am planning on meeting him there." Diana watched Ryo reach into one of his desk drawers and search for a map. "You know, Drake and JJ are living together now. JJ's apartment was too small so he is living in Drake's The chief had a fit because of the rule about not having relationships at work."
"Ok" Ryo surfaced again with a thick map in his hand. "You are about here. The town that you mentioned is over here. Once you get on the main road, follow it out for ten minutes and then take exit 23. From there, just look for signs." Ryo handed her the map, signaling that he did not want to hear anything else about his old life.
"Thank you, I'll get going now. I don't want to be late." Diana stood up and left the room without looking back, leaving Ryo alone with his thoughts. He already regretted some of the things he had said to her though his pride refused to let him call her back. What was done was done and nothing could change that.
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Ryo quit early that day, trying to beat the rumors. He know that people would be talking about his strange visitor for some time. He was already the biggest scandal in the neighborhood for having an adopted child and living with someone without being married to them. If they believed that they could dig up more dirt on him they would start arriving with pick axes and shovels as early as three am to get started.
"Hi Amy, I'm home." Ryo flung his coat over the hook and dropped his briefcase to the floor. He looked around the house, not moving from just inside the door. A soft sigh escaped his lips. Was he happy? He couldn't see why not. Sure, Bikky was away for a little bit but that could hardly make the difference. What could be missing? All of the photographs of his family and friends, minus Dee, hung on the walls. The only thing with Dee in it was the group photograph of everyone in the 27th. Ryo had made sure that Dee did nothing more than hold his hand behind JJ's back. JJ had refused to be parted from Dee.
"This is so stupid." Ryo muttered to himself, walking into the living room. "I'm happy here. I have everything I need and almost everything that I want." He lowed himself to the couch and laid down for a little bit, allowing himself to relax for the first time that day. "I'm probably just a little down because of lack of sleep."
The rest of that day was a blur to Ryo, identical to so many others. He spent time with Amy, watched TV, ate dinner, talked with Amy more, and finally, he fell asleep in his bed. He remembered to check that the alarm clock was off before turning off the light. There was no reason for him to get up early on his days off.
He knew that he would have to face the facts some time, but this was not the time. He could delay it a little longer without torturing his heart.
A smile crossed his face as he curled up with Amy in his arms but Dee in his heart.
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Ok people, what do you think? I am yet to become attached to this plot yet but I do have big plans for it. If you like it, tell me so that I know to continue. If you don't, tell me so that I know that I don't have to write it any more and can focus entirely on my original writing (which can be found at fanstory.com under the pen name of Sky Fire. You can find a member listing under the "community" section of the menu of the main page. My story that I focus on involves vamps. So check it out if you feel like it. This shameless promotion is over and done with!) Ok, I do have some emotional attachment to it so I don't need too many people saying "keep it up!" But the more I get, the more likely I am to write it faster!
WARNING: Um, don't kill me. (note: I did not say "don't flame me" I meant don't kill me because of....well, you'll see in about the fifth or sixth paragraph with one three letter word. That means you are welcome to flame me should you desire)
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"I'm sorry Dee, but I have to."
"Why?"
"Because........I have to......"
Ryo shot up in bed, causing the covers to pool in his lap. A warm sweat coated his entire body and his hands clenched the covers tightly, trying to strangle the life from them. He took in three deep breaths, trying to remind himself that it had only been a nightmare. His vision began to clear and he looked around the room to see that it was in order.
The photographs hung on the wall, just like always, the red numbers on his alarm clock still reminded him of the time, and there was a lump not far from him in the bed. From outside, a random dog barked in the distance, the only sign of civilization at this hour.
The lump of quilt next to him moved a little, attempting to sit up and comfort him. Strong, but not too strong, arms encircled him and a familiar head landed on his shoulder, black hair, a tangle in the morning, reached over to Ryo's face.
It had been a year since Ryo had first woken up next to this beautiful creature, since they had moved in together anyway. They had fallen into a comfortable pattern, each fitting and complimenting the other perfectly.
"Is something wrong, Randy" The figure asked, sleepily holding Ryo close, which turned out to be more like leaning heavily on him.
"Everything is fine, Amy, I just had a nightmare. Try to get some more sleep." Ryo sighed as she pulled her arms away. He laid back down and pulled the thick quilt around him again, swiping a last glance at the alarm clock, only two hours before time to getup.
"Ryo, you cant move! What will I do?"
"I'm sorry Dee, but the doctor said......."
"....That Biky needs a more relaxed environment, I know. But, why cant I move with you?"
A blaring alarm clock snapped Ryo out of his dream. He smacked the oversized snooze button with all of his might, attempting to send it out the bottom of the clock if he could. Once the buzzing had been silenced, he proceeded to actually turn it off to keep it from going off again.
"Could you have found a more annoying clock?" Amy muttered, rolling over to protect her eyes from the harsh light of the morning. Ryo shrugged and went to take his shower.
There, with the hot water running over his body, he began to contemplate his dreams. He had dreamed about Dee before, about his old life, but never twice in the same night. He had to remind himself of why he had left it. Bikky had caused too much trouble to be overlooked and it was recommended that he was moved to somewhere "quieter where he might learn some manors as well," as the doctors had described. He had done it for Bikky and he had found the perfect place.
After the move he had met Amy at a welcoming party for him. They became fast friends and more. One year later, she had already moved in with him. They were soul mates, she could sense it though Ryo remained unsure. He still thought of Dee at night, including having dreams about him that were much less tame than those of that night. As much as he wanted to deny it, he still loved that man. He didn't even know why he had pushed him away after the move.
He continued to contemplate the night's dream until he reached the office and pushed all thoughts, save for those on work, out of his head as he plopped down at his desk. He brought up his email account and scanned through the various messages. Three were thank you notes, one was a change in policy, and five were notices about the unfortunate accident which befell their beloved coffee maker the day before. Nothing happened in that boring town!
Ryo let out a sigh and closed his account without reading any of them. He pulled up some paper work and began filling in columns mindlessly. The drone of the office fan served as a bit of a distraction but not enough to use it as an excuse for not having his work done.
A familiar voice from the front of the station caused him to discard the paperwork and find out who it was. It was a voice he had not heard in years, someone he wanted to see very much.
"Ryo! What are you doing here?" The person asked as soon as they spotted him, stepping closer to give him a hug. "I knew I would find someone helpful, but I didn't know that they would be friendly!"
"Diana!" Ryo laughed and hugged her back, momentarily looking around the station to see what the other officer's reactions were. Some of them, mostly the girls, glared at him as though he was cheating on Amy by hugging a girl that they didn't know. Half of the men were gawking at the shortness of her skirt as the other half scurried around trying to figure out what papers they would need to arrest someone for prostitution, this being the first time it came up in their neighborhood.
"How are you?" She asked him, releasing him from her hold.
"Just fine. I'm living with someone now." Ryo paused for a moment before adding more information. "Her name is Amy,"
"Dee would be crushed if he found out." Diana laughed and Ryo grimaced. That was one aspect of his life he did not want to bring up in front of the entire office. "He was rather disappointed when you stopped talking to him after the move."
"Um, lets go back to my office and I'll do what I can for you." Ryo led her down the hallway and into his personal office, which was not hard to get because the number of cops was so small. After letting her in and motioning for her to sit down, he closed the door tightly, making sure that no one could hear them. He looked down at the interesting tile beneath his feet, there was no way he could say it to her face. "I never told them about Dee......and I would prefer that they don't know."
"I understand." She remained quiet, allowing the drama of the moment to pass. "Do you still, you know, miss him?"
"Yes, I think about him every day still. Sometimes, I just want to call him up again, just to listen to him talk. I...." Ryo could not continue, he just sat down in his chair and bit his lip.
"He still cares about you, you know. He really was disappointed when Drake and Ted both got a letter from you but he didn't. He said that the post probably just lost yours and smiled, but later I saw him crying. He still loves you." Diana looked at Ryo, watching for a reaction of any sort. "He would like that phone call that you were talking about."
"I know he would. Now, what was it that you came here for?" Ryo tried desperately to change the subject any way he could.
"I need directions to a town not far away from here. Rose's sister lives there and I am planning on meeting him there." Diana watched Ryo reach into one of his desk drawers and search for a map. "You know, Drake and JJ are living together now. JJ's apartment was too small so he is living in Drake's The chief had a fit because of the rule about not having relationships at work."
"Ok" Ryo surfaced again with a thick map in his hand. "You are about here. The town that you mentioned is over here. Once you get on the main road, follow it out for ten minutes and then take exit 23. From there, just look for signs." Ryo handed her the map, signaling that he did not want to hear anything else about his old life.
"Thank you, I'll get going now. I don't want to be late." Diana stood up and left the room without looking back, leaving Ryo alone with his thoughts. He already regretted some of the things he had said to her though his pride refused to let him call her back. What was done was done and nothing could change that.
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Ryo quit early that day, trying to beat the rumors. He know that people would be talking about his strange visitor for some time. He was already the biggest scandal in the neighborhood for having an adopted child and living with someone without being married to them. If they believed that they could dig up more dirt on him they would start arriving with pick axes and shovels as early as three am to get started.
"Hi Amy, I'm home." Ryo flung his coat over the hook and dropped his briefcase to the floor. He looked around the house, not moving from just inside the door. A soft sigh escaped his lips. Was he happy? He couldn't see why not. Sure, Bikky was away for a little bit but that could hardly make the difference. What could be missing? All of the photographs of his family and friends, minus Dee, hung on the walls. The only thing with Dee in it was the group photograph of everyone in the 27th. Ryo had made sure that Dee did nothing more than hold his hand behind JJ's back. JJ had refused to be parted from Dee.
"This is so stupid." Ryo muttered to himself, walking into the living room. "I'm happy here. I have everything I need and almost everything that I want." He lowed himself to the couch and laid down for a little bit, allowing himself to relax for the first time that day. "I'm probably just a little down because of lack of sleep."
The rest of that day was a blur to Ryo, identical to so many others. He spent time with Amy, watched TV, ate dinner, talked with Amy more, and finally, he fell asleep in his bed. He remembered to check that the alarm clock was off before turning off the light. There was no reason for him to get up early on his days off.
He knew that he would have to face the facts some time, but this was not the time. He could delay it a little longer without torturing his heart.
A smile crossed his face as he curled up with Amy in his arms but Dee in his heart.
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Ok people, what do you think? I am yet to become attached to this plot yet but I do have big plans for it. If you like it, tell me so that I know to continue. If you don't, tell me so that I know that I don't have to write it any more and can focus entirely on my original writing (which can be found at fanstory.com under the pen name of Sky Fire. You can find a member listing under the "community" section of the menu of the main page. My story that I focus on involves vamps. So check it out if you feel like it. This shameless promotion is over and done with!) Ok, I do have some emotional attachment to it so I don't need too many people saying "keep it up!" But the more I get, the more likely I am to write it faster!