Hi everybody ! This is my first fanfiction ! This is a rewriting from a french novel 'La fille de papier' by Guillaume Musso with OUAT version and specially with Captain Swan couple. I take some liberties from the show but don't worry ;) I hope you'll love it. By the way, English is not my native language ! (I'm French) Don't hesitate to notify me the mistakes I did throughout the story. I'll be so glad ! :)

Chapter 1 : You need help !

'Emma, open the door !' there's a knock at the door of my appartment in Boston. 'I know you're here !'

There is no response. Only the sound of the silence.

'Please Emma ! Open the door ! You can't run away from me forever !' the feminine voice says furiously.

'Open the door or I'll smash it ! You know I can do this !'

For all that, I don't awser to the knocks from my best friend. I don't want to. It's been a while since I don't answer to the telephone calls or get out from my appartment. I prefer to stay in my prison instead of confronting a new life without him.

'That's too bad for you !' she finally threatens me behind my door. To my mind, she uses the wire for opening the door as I taught her once in another life.

Two minutes later, the door opens violently showing my best friend Tina with an angry and disgusted face. I'm not really surprised by her expression. In fact, my home is full of scraps from medicine, foods, clothes mixed with the smell of musty and mold. Tina looks around the mess I did for finding me, uneasy.

After checking some rooms, she finally finds me in my bedroom. I'm sleeping in an ocean of medicines and used Kleenex.

'Oh my god !' Tina whispers panickly. 'Emma ! Wake up ! Emma !'

She shakes me slowly and I escape a weak grumble from my dry lips.

'Walsh, Is that you ?'

'Emma !' Tina insists. 'Emma, it's Tina ! Wake up ! Please !'

I open my eyes and try to sit on the edge of my bed with many difficulties. When I see Tina's face, my hopes are gone. Sadness reigns in my broken heart because this person facing me is not the man I love. I breath a sigh of desperation.

'It's you, Tina. What are you doing here ? Walsh is not here ?'

Tina shakes her head sadly touching my wet face. She answer with a sweet voice.

'It's been six month Emma. I'm terribly worried about you. You don't answer to my calls. And I need to see you and especially to help you. You need help, Emma !'

Her voice increases when she is talking and at the same time, she's crying. I can understand her. It's been six month I didn't see her or actually since Walsh had broke up with me for another woman. And for six months, I was wandering in my appartment without seeing friends, facing to the media and finishing my third book of my best-seller Once Upon A Time. And instead of starting a new life without Walsh, I've decided to stay at home with the obsession of planning my own death.

Yes ! I want to die ! But no one knows what I prepare soon and I really want to succeed on my own.

'I don't need your help Tina !' I declare dryly. 'Let me alone, please ! '

But Tina refuses to let me drown in my creepy thoughs.

'No Emma, I don't give up on you ! You need my help and Ruby's. Please get out of the bed, take a shower and get dress ! You need a push !'

'I don't feel well.'

'I don't care Emma ! You're stayed in bed for six months and it's time to come with me ! We are going at Ruby's for lunch.'

Her voice insistes. I know her by heart, she won't giving up. She is a determined woman. Tina helps me to get out of my bed, leads me to the bathroom forcing me to wash my hair and my body and at last, dress me for the lunch.

One hour later, Tina is looking for me in the bathroom and checking my apparence. I don't take aware of my apparence since a long moment. When I look at the mirror, I stare at a twenty-eight years woman with wavy blond hair tied in a pony-tail with beautiful green eyes. She was dressed with a simple jean and a shirt. That's all. The Emma Swan I knew was gone with Walsh. I don't recognise the Emma Swan in front of me. She is totally a stranger according to me. No a popular writer, no a famous woman with the beauty and the grace of a swan. I face to an ordinary woman.

'So' Tina says with a kind smile 'Are you ready ?'

I shrug without enthusiasm. She squeezes my shoulder trying to comfort me.

'Come with me ! It will be a lovely day !' Tina declares to my reflection.

She starts to leave the appartment, her hand holding mine and I reluctantly follow her.

After crossing Boston in Tina's car with the music of the last Disney movie in the background, we arrive to Ruby's house.

It's been a while since I don't coming back to pay a visit to my dearest friend. I should be glad for seeing her. But I can't. I have a black hole in my heart as if I'll never be happy until the last day of my life.

Tina holds my right arm and she leads me to the entrance. She rings the bell and a few seconds later, I see Ruby's face welcoming us and asking me how I am.

For sum up, I know Ruby for ten years. I met her when I was looking for a job in her grandmother's bed and breakfast. We immediately became friends. I worked as a waitress with her until she get a job at the police of Boston. And then she was the number one fan of my books series Once Upon A Time, she was the first person I told the whole story.

As for Tina, she is my agent for the publishing book of my series. We met at Granny's too, she worked with Ruby before I get the job. The first time I told my book series she was fascinated and she advices me to show scratch paper of my first book of Once Upon A Time to an editor without hesitation.

Ruby get us inside her home and she show us the sofa face to a table with some aperitif.

'I glad you're coming Emma' Ruby says with joy.

She enlaces me. I let her do it, she was terribly worried about my spirits. After that, I give her a shy smile. I'm not ready yet to talk.

'I have trouble doing get her from her bed. But I did it.' Tina says proudly. 'Now we can enjoy our lunch !'

'Thank you Tina for bringing her.' Ruby smiles gratefully. 'Now we should have a drink, do you want some water Emma?'

After having a drink before lunch, we start to eating the pizzas prepared by Ruby. Usually, I really enjoyed eating pizza but today I just eat a piece of pizza.

'Emma, take another piece of pizza !' Tina offers me but I decline.

'Thank you but I not really hungry.' I say quietly.

'But you love my pizzas, Emma' Ruby remind me with an uneasy voice.

'I know Ruby but I not really hungry. I just want to go home.'

'And starting again crying again for a jerk like Walsh' Ruby declares bitterly. 'Emma, you need to move on ! For instance, finish your third book !'

'I don't want to finish my book !' I scream at her. 'I tried many times but I'm on lack of inspiration ! I can't do this anymore'.

'Try again Emma !' Tina relies at me. 'You have to finish this book.'

'Tina, I can't !' I repeat, frowning. 'I – '

'Emma. I got a call from Bookland. They explained me about an impression problem from your last book. '

'What kind of problem?'

'They lauched the printing in haste to deal with demands. But something went wrong. They'll destroy them but the trouble is some books are already been delivered to the bookshops. They'll write a mail for take them back.'

She takes something from her bag and gives it to me. I open and flip through the book and saw the problem, only two hundred and sixty six pages are impressed and the other half, blank. The story finishes abruptly with this :

Whereas the cave became darker, Regina and Hook reach the place where Maleficent – in her dragon form – was imprisoned.

'Where are we ?' Hook asked with mistrust.

'You will see.' Regina smiles devilishily.

And suddenly the Evil Queen push the one-handed pirate to the empty and dark space.

Hook falls

And that's all. Not even a period. The book finishes with Hook falls.

'So' Tina says. 'When are you finished your book ?'

'I –' I try to answer. 'I don't know. I think I can't finish it'.

'Don't say that !' Ruby tells me.

'But I can't finish it. Writing is over for me ! I have enough of writing all this bullshit !'

'Emma' Tina tries to talk to me, gape at my words.

'NO TINA ! I'm tired of writing these dreams which are not true ! The prince charming, true love, a family who love you, magic, fairytales and happy endings don't exists ! I have to face to the reality.'

'Emma' Ruby starts to cry.

'NO RUBY ! It's over ! I'll never writing the end ! I'm sorry but I need to go'.

I start to leaving but Tina tries to catch me.

'Just because you have been abandoned by your parents, lost Neal, sent to jail, give up your baby boy for a better chance or been rejected by Walsh doesn't change anything for your perception.'

'Stop it, Tina !'

'You know I'm right. You can't deny it'.

I don't listen her anymore. I smash the door, the unfinished book in my hand and I walk, crying.

As I walk to the street, the weather becomes darker. I feel some drops of water on my tired face. It's started to rain. Then a loud scream appears suddenly from the dark sky. The storm is coming and I have to come back to my appartment and then succumb to oblivion.

I'm finally back to my appartment, relieved. I feel better. It was a bad idea to get me out. I can't go on and live my life as if my relationship with Walsh has never existed. Suddenly I cry. Thinking of Walsh hurts me particurlarly when he is happy and in love with somebody else. I terribly miss his voice, his face, his eyes, his touching and above all his entire love for me.

After drying my tears, I stare at my unfinished book I'm holding in my left hand. I flip through it until I find the page where the story breaks off unexpectedly at this paragraph, page 266 :

Whereas the cave became darker, Regina and Hook reach the place where Maleficent – in her dragon form – was imprisoned.

'Where are we ?' Hook asked with mistrust.

'You will see.' Regina smiles devilishily.

And suddenly the Evil Queen push the one-handed pirate to the empty and dark space.

Hook falls

The next two-hundred pages are blanked. The adventure is over. For the Savior, for Snow-White and Prince Charming, for Henry, even for the Evil Queen and for the fearsome pirate Hook. It's all over, even for me the writer.

'There is no happy endings at least' I adress sadly to the book. 'Happy endings don't exists.'

Then, as if I'm holding a parasite I throw furiously the book away from me. I had enough for believing of all this nonsenses. Writing is over for me. No more writing. No anymore.

I get up and I go up to my bathroom for taking some medicines and sleeping pills. I sit to the edge of my bed after finding what I need and with a glass of water I take from the bathroom, I swallow the pills and drink the water. Then, I collapse into my bed.

While I succumbed to sleep, my pain disappear as if it was a bad memory. As if the next day, Walsh will be back to me in my bed except he will never come back, I know it. Then, I drift in my thoughts. My body and my conscience start to desintegrate, my life left me and everything was gone.

Suddenly, an explosion. Then, a man's scream. Someone is crying for help.

I jumped off my bed. After opening my eyes, the first thing I do is watching for the hour : 3.15 a.m.

I think for a second I did a horrible nightmare but the sound of the rain in my living room proves me the contrary.

'Dammit !' I swear.

I walk hastily to the living room and when I arrive I have a big shock. In fact, a shadow faces to me. Frightened, I take the first thing in my hand – a vase with fading flowers – and throw it to the shadow hurting in his head. Yet, it's still moving. I am about to do knock him unconscious when a shout escape from it.

'Stop ! I won't hurting you'

It was a masculine voice, a sultry and bewitched voice with an english accent. At present he's standing face to me, his two hands up. Well, his right hand up. I specialy gape at his left hand or the thing which represent his other limb – thanks to the flash of lightening – a glimmering hook.

'What the … ' I start to say panickly but he interrups me with an anxious face.

'Where I am ? And who the bloody hell are you ?'

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