I Don't Know Her World

DDR

Summary- Set in season 5 some point after episode 5x2. Olivia muses on Etta's words to her.

Author's Note- this is from Olivia's point of view.

One little side note, there is a quote in this that is listed as being said by Peter, but he actually only said half the quote. I am aware of this, but I was at a loss finding a way to make it work with out using the whole quote. Sorry for that small inaccuracy…

Anyways, respectful comments are always welcome :)

"You don't know my world…"

Her words reverberated in my mind.

She was right. I didn't know this world. This was not the world that her father and I had fought so hard to protect on a daily basis. This world was a nightmare come true. We had hoped for so much for our little girl. Not this life. Even though the circumstances are beyond our control, I can not help but feel guilty because I couldn't be in her life for the last 21 years. Maybe if we had been, despite the invasion, she would have had a loving sanctuary in us, in our home. But, she did have a family that took care of her and jealously consumed me over that. It wasn't our family, she was suppose to be our daughter, not theirs. Our life together was robbed from us on that last day in the park. The path of a normal life seems like it has never been ours to take. We have defied every bit of normalcy. We have literally jumped universes and timelines to be where we are now. And this is what it comes down to? A dark, hopelessly oppressed world, a daughter who seemingly grew up in days only to become an orphaned solider fighting the war that we could not win back then. I think Peter said it best when he said " We didn't save the world, not even by half…"

My heart grieves for this world and for the life that could have been. The woman who I know now is not the woman that I wanted my little girl to become. I wanted to protect my Etta from all things bad. I wanted her to stay the innocent baby that she had once been. I want us to go home now. Even though I am thankful that our daughter is alive… I want my baby girl back.

This is not the world we wanted for her.

Etta is right…

I don't know her world.

~END~