Hello everyone,
I started this story to base it off of hurt/comfort. What would it have been like if Naruto really did die? But he planned everything to the point where Sasuke would be okay and not alone. Another part of it is family. How important family is and how you connect with your own. There will be past NaruSasuNaru. Once again Naruto is dead. I know it's sad but this story came to me randomly.
Enjoy the chapter.
Sasuke had been gone for three years from Konoha. He traveled all five nations thinking what did he really need and never could find it. But when he thought about Konoha his heart ached like that was where he was meant to be so he decided to go back but what was waiting for him back at home was unexpected.
When he got to Konoha he expected the blonde to sense him, hell he expected him to meet him at the gate but when he got to the gate he was welcomed back home to his old teammate, Sakura.
"Hey Sasuke," Sakura said looking sad.
Sasuke could tell something was wrong with her he just couldn't quite tell what. Naruto could tell and read people's emotions he couldn't, well accept for Naruto's that is. He knew she didn't have that crazy crush on him like she used to. He also knew that she accepted his and Naruto's relationship.
Naruto and Sasuke were together for at least three months before he decided to leave because the tension in the village was really bad. He loved the blonde and wished that he would come too and even asked if he would come but of course the blonde declined saying he had things he needed to do here before he could go anywhere.
"Hey Sakura, where's Naruto?" Sasuke asked
"We need you to come with me to the Hokage's office." Sakura said pointing to the Anbu.
"Ok..." Sasuke said not sure what was going on because everything seemed off.
At first he thought Naruto would be Hokage by now, seeing as that was his goal. But from the looks of everything the blonde wasn't Hokage, someone else was.
When they got to the Hokage tower only Sakura and Sasuke went inside the office. Sasuke came face to face with his old sensei, Kakashi.
"Kakashi, is the Hokage? What has the world come to if he is Hokage?" Sasuke said sarcastically.
"You should sit down, Sasuke. This is going to be a long day." Kakashi said.
Sasuke did as he was told but wasn't sure what was happening. The seriousness in the room told him something was wrong but he just rejected it because he didn't fancy the idea of something being wrong with Naruto. He knew it was about Naruto seeing as he was the only one not here and because they seemed tense about telling him what needed to be said.
Kakashi took a deep breath, Sasuke noticed that it seemed like he was scared to tell him something, which brought his mind back to where was his blonde?
"Where's Naruto? Sakura didn't tell me at the gate. Why wouldn't he be here? Is he on a mission?" Sasuke questioned because he knew if Naruto was on a mission that would make sense why he wasn't here.
"Sasuke... you're not going to like what I am about to say that is why I am sealing this room." Kakashi said putting a seal on every corner of the room making it impossible for anyone to hear what they were saying and impossible from anyone getting in or out.
"What is going on?" Sasuke asked getting irritated.
"Naruto is dead, has been for two years." Kakashi said in a sad voice that Sasuke didn't recognize.
"He can't be..." Sasuke said then thinking back to when he always got letters to when none ever came at all.
Sasuke glanced Sakura's way to get the type of response but only got sad eyes with tears and her looking away.
"NO WAY!" Sasuke screamed standing up knocking the chair over.
"He can't be dead, that's impossible." Sasuke grumbled but tears were coming down his face.
He knew it all made sense, the letters stopped coming, and one night when he wasn't even close to Konoha he felt Naruto's chakra go down then spike back up. This was too much for him; he just couldn't handle the thought of Naruto being gone. This wasn't home without Naruto.
"NO! Let me out Kakashi, let me out." Sasuke screamed banging on the seal.
Sasuke didn't see the tears coming down their eyes too as he banged mercilessly on the seal begging to be freed.
"Sasuke, we have other things to tell you." Sakura tried saying.
"I DON'T CARE ABOUT ANY OF IT!" Sasuke screamed crying.
"You should, it was Naruto's last wishes to you." Kakashi said.
That got Sasuke to look at them but nowhere near got him to calm down.
"He left you three things. A letter, the Kyuubi, and something you both wanted but knew you could never have without help... a baby." Sakura said turning her head nervously while blushing.
"HOW the hell can I have a baby?" Sasuke asked.
"That I can explain, he had both of your sperm mixed in a jar and asked a dear friend to implant it into one of her eggs and give birth to the baby." Kakashi explained.
"It was you, wasn't it Sakura?" Sasuke asked and she just nodded her head.
He knew it had to be Sakura. She would be the only one to do it for them. She cared about both of them; no one else really cared about Sasuke aside from the people in this room and maybe Iruka sensei.
"Where's my letter?" Sasuke asked slowly calming down his breathing.
Kakashi gave him the letter, though the letter was as big as one of the forbidden scroll.
"We're going to let you go and collect Naruto's things from his previous apartment. Everyone felt the need to let you do it because you know what you're going to do with it." Kakashi said.
"I cleaned up in his place a little bit but I didn't want to move anything." Sakura mumbled.
Sasuke just stood up taking the letter scroll and walked to the door to wait for Kakashi to put the seal down. When Kakashi put the seal down he opened the door immediately then turned back to them. They had their heads down; Sakura had tears running down her face. She lost her friend, Sasuke understood that.
"Where is the Kyuubi?" Sasuke asked.
"It says in the letter. Kyuubi put his chakra signature in it so you could find him when you get the scroll." Kakashi said.
Sasuke nodded his head and ran out the building, going straight to Naruto's apartment. He spent many nights there before and after he went to Orochimaru's lair of hell. What no one knew was that he and Naruto always talked even when he was away with the snake. Naruto informed him where his brother was from time to time. Sasuke even had the key to his apartment and Naruto had a key to his, they have since they got close when they were kids.
Sasuke slowly opened the door to Naruto's apartment almost expecting Naruto to pop out and say welcome home. Why didn't Naruto call him back?
'He really isn't here.' Sasuke thought as he walked in the apartment slowly.
It barely smelled of the blonde anymore in Sasuke's eyes. The chakra presence was still there but barely. Sasuke walked in the kitchen where they had food fights, arguments, kisses, and so many laughs. Sasuke could hear the loud laugh that he grew to love so much. The laughter loud with all his teeth out and his head going back. Naruto was Sasuke's light, he never kept him in the dark and believing he was gone was like putting ice on top of his already lonely heart. Sasuke went to the couch area where he and Naruto shared their first real kiss, not like the one from the academy or on that mission as they kissed going off the cliff. Then he walked to the bedroom area that connected with the bathroom and couldn't hide the smile from the first time they struggled to have sex or when they wrestled or when Sasuke first said I love you to the blonde while it was Christmas time on the windowsill.
The tears started going down again as he walked into the closet space where he saw Naruto's jumpsuit. The god awful orange one that stuck out to much for a ninja to wear. He laughed remembering the conversation him and Naruto had about it.
(Flashback)
"Naruto, why do you wear orange when that can easily be spotted by the enemy?" Sasuke asked as they walked to the training grounds.
"Well... at first it was because the villagers wouldn't sell me anything else but bright colors. You should see yellow on me, its god awful." Naruto said laughing."But then I just grew to really like orange. I like red too though." Naruto said honestly shrugging his shoulders.
Sasuke knew about the villagers and even some ninja how they treated his blonde and hated it. Whenever he saw mistreatment he stopped it right away. Sasuke even threatened some ninja extreme torture if they kept messing with his blonde. Sasuke even started to walk with Naruto to the training grounds.
"That's terrible," Sasuke grumbled.
"Don't worry about it bastard, I will be fine. I won't die from any ninja; if I die it's going to be because I chose to die." Naruto said not knowing how he actually would in the future.
"Dobe, don't talk like that." Sasuke said smacking him in the back of the head.
(End Flashback)
Sasuke sat on the bed so he could open the scroll.
"He knew," was all Sasuke managed to say while he opened the scroll that seemed to only open with his chakra.
That means whatever was written in the scroll would only be for his eyes. He opened it.
Sasuke,
First, I want to start by saying I am really sorry that I didn't tell you what was going on. I was dying since I was a kid. As I got stronger as a shinobi the more I learned to accept my death. I didn't even think I would honestly grow attached to someone then you came along and opened my eyes, but I still had no guts to tell you. I just wanted to be happy with you while I could be. You can't blame me for that. When you asked me to leave I wanted to so badly but I knew I couldn't because I wanted to leave one thing behind for the both of us. As you must know from Sakura that I asked her to implant our sperm that was together in an egg so we could have a baby. She cried when I asked her because she told me that she was going to keep trying to cure me. But nothing could cure a sickness that I had. No one knew what it was called even I don't. When I agreed to let you go on the journey I knew I would be dead by the time you got back. I bet your asking why didn't I just tell you to stay to be with me. I couldn't Sasuke; I knew you needed to be away from the villagers and the ninjas who thought of you as a traitor. I knew you stayed here because of me. I wanted you to find yourself again. And I know you did... despite me being gone now. I don't know what we had because we never put a label on it but I want you to take care of our baby. Be a good papa. I am honestly crying while writing this because I know this is our goodbye. I loved being with you more than anyone in the world.
Now I want you to do me a favor... Kurama the Kyuubi doesn't want to be without me but he has too. I don't want him to die with me so I was wondering if when I'm gone you can let him be in you. I hope you do it because none villager and ninja alike cares for the Kyuubi like I do. He is my friend. As of right now he is telling me not to write this letter asking this but I can't listen when he is a lonely soul too. I thought he was perfect for us.
I remember our first kiss, the first time you held my hand, the first time you said I love you, the first time you went away, the first time you let go of all the pain and laughed and relaxed around me. I remember all our arguments, the time we almost burned down that old woman's house, the time me, you, and Sakura tried to see what was under Kakashi's mask. Oh by the way I saw it... he asked me if there was one thing I wanted from him and I asked to see what was under his mask. Not bad. Not better than you though. I never thought I was gay I only ever had one person that I ever wanted to be with and that was always you. You have to love our child since I won't be there. You have to love her or him for the both of us. Tell her or him about me. Tell her or him about us and how we met. Tell her or him how close we got. Tell her or him the time you spent away from me. Tell her or him about your family and I would say tell her or him about my family but that information is limited.
I have a journal about my family. How much my father and mother loved me and what they did before I was born. I have notebooks of what my father and mother learned before passing away. The notebooks are in seals on the bottom it says exactly how to take them out. Then there is a seal and instructions on how to put Kurama inside you if you decide to put him in you. Which I'm sure you will. You're probably thinking of not doing it because I said you would do it. Such a stubborn bastard.
If we have a girl name her Naruta. If we have a boy name him Itachi. I know how much you cared about Itachi even while you went after him. I told Sakura these names too just in case you didn't come around in time.
I love you, I love you so very much
Your dobe,
Love Naruto, the best shinobi in the world.
My chakra will be set into you to find me so find me when you're ready. -Kurama.
Sasuke saw all the smeared marks that could tell where the tears were. He was sad that Naruto was crying while writing this letter to him. Hell Sasuke was basically choking while reading it. He couldn't see anything because tears were coming down so hard. His breathing became labored, and he could feel himself gasping for air. He ran to the sink dry heaving then puking all over the place. It was terrible and he could feel Sakura staring at him from outside. He could feel her presence all over and could tell she didn't want to come to him. Sasuke calmed himself again then walked to the window.
"Sakura just come inside." Sasuke said panting.
"I..." Sakura started but didn't know what he wanted to say.
"It's okay; you don't have to say anything." Sasuke said going to the kitchen to get some water.
Sasuke didn't know she followed him until he turned around and was standing in the doorway to the kitchen with her head down, clenched fist, and sobs could be heard.
"I was there... he wanted me to help him..." Sakura said with broken sobs. "He made me promise... that I would always be there... for you... he always thought about you. Not thinking about himself... like he knew when the end was for himself... the Kyuubi didn't want... to leave him... Kyuubi and I were the last ones with him. The last ones to see him with his smile. The sadness in his eyes about dying the pain of letting go. Telling me to be happy without him around... but how can I? He's gone... my other best friend." Sakura said sobbing uncontrollably.
Before Sasuke even realized it Sasuke felt a push to go and comfort her. He gave her a hug and cried along with her. They just stood there crying for minutes before they pulled away from each other.
"This must be so much harder for you though." Sakura said.
"I would say yeah, but you knew the whole time and tried healing him and you were with him in the end so I think I had it easy. I might not have been able to say goodbye but he left me a letter at least." Sasuke said wiping his tears away.
Sasuke really did believe it hurt him more but he thinks it affected Sakura to the core because it was left on her for years. Sasuke just lost him that was all. But Sakura tried to heal him, unsealed the Kyuubi, watched him die, gave birth to his child, had to bury him, and had to tell Sasuke. The last one being the scariest.
"I have your baby if you want her." Sakura said with a sad smile.
"I had a little girl. Naruta," Sasuke said with a sad smile.
"Yeah, she is a bundle of hyperness. Laughs a lot and makes people smile. She displays chakra, I don't know which one yet, but it is lively. I had my own baby last year after she was a year old." Sakura said.
"You had a baby? With who?" Sasuke asked looking menacing.
Just because he doesn't like Sakura like that doesn't mean he wants her to be hurt by some guy.
"Lee, and don't get all protective, Naruto already threatened to haunt Lee till Lee died if he hurt me." Sakura said laughing.
"Even on his deathbed he could make a joke." Sasuke said shaking his head with a chuckle.
"Yeah," Sakura said smiling. "So would you like to see her?" Sakura asked.
"Can I see her tomorrow?" Sasuke asked.
"You can see her when you're ready." Sakura said understanding he might not be ready and walked toward the window to head out.
"Sakura," Sasuke called to her.
She was already on the windowsill just waiting for what he wanted to say to her.
"Thank you," Sasuke said.
"No problem," Sakura said jumping out the window.
Sasuke looked around spotting the scroll on the bed like it was waiting for him. He went back to look at it and rubbed on the part where it said Kurama's signature and chakra flowed in his chakra system quickly.
'Come by the fourth Hokage's house, follow my chakra.' Kurama said in Sasuke's head.
Sasuke listened to the words and followed them thoroughly. When he finally got to fourth Hokage's house. It wasn't run down, it was in good condition like it used to be. It seemed Naruto was around here too because his chakra signature was all over the place.
"Naruto," Sasuke said feeling warmth surround him.
"Uchiha," Kurama said walking up to the little person compared to him.
"Hey, so Naruto was around here a lot?" Sasuke asked looking around.
"Yeah, that's why his chakra was barely around the apartment. We spent the last few months here." Kurama said.
"You're free? What are you going to do with it?" Sasuke asked.
"I have been free kid, I don't want to be captured again and put into someone who has no damn sense. Naruto had no sense but he was my only friend. I want to follow his wishes and be in you or the baby so I can stay close." Kurama said.
"You won't be in my baby." Sasuke said leveling a glare at him.
"Then you?" Kurama said not even shaken by the glare.
"Maybe, let me think about it. I haven't even been here a full day before I found all this out. Give me until the end of this week. If I say no, what are you going to do?" Sasuke asked.
"Wander, the Konoha people don't want me here without being inside someone. They feel like I will destroy the place. I wouldn't do that though that would be disgracing Naruto." Kurama said.
"Yeah that would," Sasuke pondered.
"I think he wanted me to stay with you so you wouldn't feel as alone as I do since he died." Kurama grumbled laying his head down looking at the Uchiha like it was a puppy.
"I think I might take you up on that offer of letting you be inside me. I want to stay here." Sasuke said.
"There was one more letter he told me to give you." Kurama said running away then coming back with the Sage stuff and all the stuff Naruto had to learn all his jutsus.
"More," Sasuke said.
"Naruto wants the little Kit to learn everything he did and everything his parents and your parents and you. He wants the little baby to know all of it. He wanted the baby to have more than one option then he had or that you had. Here," Kurama said throwing a little letter to him.
Sasuke didn't hesitate to open it in front of the Kyuubi because he figured that the Kyuubi already knew what was inside.
Sasuke,
I forgot to write this in the other letter but make my dream come true.
BECOME HOKAGE FOR ME!
I didn't make it and I know you would if you tried. Please make it a reality.
I love you
Naruto
"He did not just ask me to become Hokage." Sasuke said looking at Kurama with Kurama nodding his head.
"Yes he did," Kurama said with a smirk. "Good luck kid," Kurama said handing him the key to the house also.
When Sasuke got inside the house he noticed how Naruto it was but in Sasuke's opinion that might have been a good thing. Sasuke was darker than Naruto and he didn't want his kid to be dark he wanted her to be like Naruto, bright. The living room was a bright white. How white can be bright? Sasuke will never know. There was an old television set and pictures everywhere. The first picture to catch Sasuke's eye was of him and Naruto when he first got back from killing Itachi. Or the time when he was back from the weekend, he got away from Orochimaru and visited Naruto for his birthday. The ultrasound picture of the baby. Naruto was smiling. He smiled in every picture despite the sickness. Kurama was in small fox form walking around the house. The couch was a light grey. Pictures were everywhere in the house. Naruto with everyone and with him. Naruto with Jiraiya, Tsunade, Gaara, Sarutobi, even Sasuke's family pictures were there, and pictures of Naruto's family before he was born. Then Sasuke walked into the dining room kitchen area where there was a table for four, a stove, and a refrigerator. Then he walked into a hallway to find a bathroom and two bedrooms. Sasuke walked into the bathroom to it being bright orange. He couldn't hold back the thought of his bathroom looked like he was in an orange. Then walked to the room that was red with the Uchiha and Uzumaki symbol on it above the bed. Sasuke walked into the room and realized this was meant to be his room. The bed had the symbols all over the place, the Uchiha and Uzumaki symbol.
"Naruto did it himself." Kurama said as Sasuke looked at the blanket.
"He did this?" Sasuke asked lifting the blanket.
"Yeah, he said he remembered you telling him your mom used to sew your symbol in all your clothes and then you started doing it." Kurama said.
"Yeah I did," Sasuke said with a smile.
The room was his favorite color, red. Naruto's was in the bathroom. He walked out his room and walked to the other room.
"This one is for the baby." Kurama said.
"I figured that." Sasuke said with a smirk.
"Shut it and go in the damn room." Kurama growled.
Sasuke smiled and then the smile fell when he saw the colors of the room. He had to laugh at it though because Naruto really did think of everything. The room had a baby blue ceiling with white clouds in it; grass circled the sides as a fox jumped around the walls. It was actually quite nice. Naruto did a wonderful job.
"Why did he decide this?" Sasuke asked trying to hide the smile.
"I have no idea. I think it was because that day we were fixing this room he said he didn't want a plain room. When we couldn't think of anything we just went outside in the grasslands and stared at the sky. He let me out for a while and I jumped around in my small fox form and he must of came up with this idea." Kurama said.
There were messages on the walls too.
'Believe in yourself.'
'Never give up.'
'The only one, who can stop you, is you.'
'Love unconditionally.'
'Forgive, life is too short to hate.'
'Do everything everyone says you can't do to prove them wrong.'
'Always smile.'
'Be good.'
'Have fun.'
'Make friends.'
'Love yourself.'
There were so many more that Sasuke couldn't believe were wrote on the wall by Naruto alone. He smiled, he didn't know what to say because everything he did was for him and the baby in the end and that made it harder to stay happy. That was until he looked at another wall and saw something Naruto wrote.
'Never let revenge take over.'
'Be yourself.'
'If it's hard then try harder.'
'Love your fathers, even if I'm gone.'
Naruto knew everything everyday he spent with him and all he ever did was plan to have a family that he wouldn't even be there for. Why would he just give up?
"I love you," Sasuke read from the wall.
He didn't know who that was directed to at the moment him or the baby. At that moment he was just going to believe it was to him.
Review...
You know when I found myself writing this story and the chapters after this one I found myself tearing up. Sasuke has comfort from more than just one person. The thought of him having a little daughter keeps him from doing anything hasty. Sasuke will have his back and forths but a lot of different people will keep him up.