Yeah, I know—another "new" story. I'm sorry, I just can't help it…ideas keep popping in my head. I really hope I can continue this one…

From Loving You

Synopsis: An estranged couple meets again. The girl was still trying to move on, while the guy wants to give it another shot. Will they still find it in their hearts to reconnect and from the bond that they used to have? Or will it end up into another heart break for the both of them?

Love

(Luv)

N.

A deep and tender feeling of affection for or attachment or devotion to a person

It's been a little over a year when they last saw each other. Kelly, a twenty-four-year-old, selfless writer was in the coffee shop; a place where she felt safe. To her it was a haven. Much like in the children's book she'd written, her life was coming by on the right track. Although she considered loving someone again, she'd never felt the desire to do so. Why you ask? It's because she still wasn't able to move on with her last relationship.

Her relationship with Evan Bourne, a school teacher, and somehow, seeing him again in the same place they'd met three years ago triggered the feelings—bad feelings? If you will, inside Kelly, she wanted to get out as fast as she could without him noticing her. But fate wasn't on her side this time. As if with a trick of the time warp, Evan looked at her direction, a little too early. "Kelly, is that you?" She heard him ask,

She looked at him and forced out a smile. "The one and only," she managed to say. She only hoped that she didn't sound too nervous. Evan smiled at her. "Hmm, can I sit here?" He asked. Kelly wished that he'd never asked, but that was impossible right?

"Yeah, sure, of course," the blonde said quite giddily. Evan took a seat, and grinned again. "I heard you're a children's book author." He said; not a question but a statement. Kelly nodded. Suddenly this place she called haven turned out to be one of her best? If you will, nightmare. "u-huh" Kelly replies, she didn't feel like drinking her coffee anymore.

"Wow, that's huge!" Evan said with a mile wide grin. Kelly felt like she was obligated to ask a question, so, she did—the obvious one of course. "Are you still teaching?" She asked. Evan smiled. "Yeah," he said. "I really hadn't planned on moving into another field, if that's where you're getting at."

"Like I said before Evan, I'm proud of you—I still am." The blonde said. That statement made Evan break into a mile wide, nervous, yet, boyish grin which Kelly still—well just a bit, thinks cute.

There was an awkward silence in their booth and Kelly just wanted to get the hell out of there. But she can't just leave him like that, It would be rude.

"Is there anything going on with your love life?" Evan asked out of the blue. Kelly looked at him. "I'm not dating anyone, if that's what you mean."

Evan broke into another mile wide grin. Kelly seemed confused. "What about you?" She asked; suddenly feeling nauseated by the whole situation. "Like you, I'm extremely un-dateable." He said. Kelly chuckled. "That's really good to hear." Kelly said. Evan looked at his watch and he seemed suddenly lethargic.

"I really need to go," He paused, grabbing his things. "School starts in thirty minutes and those third graders need to know a thing or two about the planets, but it was really nice seeing you again." With that, Evan was off.

Kelly was still there, still in wonder how suddenly, she felt what she had felt about a year ago.

"Kelly you need to move in quick before some other girl will." Eve Torres, her best friend slash advice giver nudged her. "move in?" Kelly asked Eve quizzically. The Latina nodded. "Hello? Earth to Kelly, I know you still love him." She said. Kelly shook her head, hating the truth. "I still do, but."

"But what Kelly?" Eve asked. "You're afraid of getting hurt again?" To that, Kelly had no answer. "What no answer?" Eve asked again. Kelly rolled her eyes. "C'mon Eve, I didn't come here for that." She said. "Then what did you come here for? My advice right? Well here it is, don't be afraid to give love the second time around a chance." Again, Kelly had no answer. "I—I'm just not ready yet." She said.

"Girl, then when will you be ready?"

Silence…

Evan Bourne sat on the couch in the teachers' lounge. After dealing with several kids, he was bone tired. Absently, Kelly's image came pass him. He shook it off…but eventually, he saw it again. What is wrong with me? He asked himself for the second time. And although he knew that their break up was nasty, he still loved Kelly. He shook his head again, his lips slightly playing a soft smile. Mrs. Daniels saw him—she was the school librarian, and even in her old age (she's sixty five by the way.) she still as sneaky as can be. "I can see that you're smiling." She said.

Evan looked up. "Huh?" he sounded too far off the world. "It's nice to see you smile because that's the first time you did it since your first teaching year." Evan laughed at Mrs. Daniels statement. "I wasn't smiling."

"You're in love, aren't you?" She asked knowingly. Evan shook his head and cleared his throat to speak.

"Was in love, I was in love." He stressed.

"What's her name?" She paused, backtracking a little. "If it's not too personal," She added. "But that's okay if you don't want to talk yet."

"Kelly, she was my former girlfriend…and when I finally thought I moved on…I see her again," he said as he blankly looked up at the ceiling. "I just thought that…" he didn't get to continue.

"That you'd feel nothing if you saw her?" Mrs. Danielson said as Evan felt a surge of memories crush back with extreme visceral force.

Silence…

Kelly just couldn't do it! She just couldn't! She'd been trying to write the first chapter of the children's book. But every time she tries to write, Evan's image comes flashing in her mind.

She knew Eve was right, because no matter how much she denies it, she's still in love with him. She missed the way he smiled at her, the way he holds her in his arms whenever she felt like the world was turning on her, and most importantly she missed him. She'd never even thought about him until they'd met again earlier. Most especially…she thought she'd already moved on. Crazy huh?

She remembered that once, her mother told her that love is destined for each of us. Has destiny announced its victory? She asked herself. Her friends had been bugging for her to go clubbing to meet some guys but she regularly turns them down. Is Evan the reason why? She closed her laptop and turned to look at her warm soft bed, the intoxicating thought of sleep began to take over her. As she turned off the lights and slowly drifted off to sleep, a smiled formed on her face when Evan's image came through her mind once again.

She woke up late but that didn't matter because the office needs her manuscript in ten thirty. Wait scratch that—ten thirty? It's already eight thirty and she's still in her night gown, with the manuscript waiting to be started…totally not her day.

She took a quick shower, then brushed her teeth and put on some clothes. She decided to skip breakfast considering the lateness of the hour. But one more problem ahead! She forgot to gas up! Totally the coming of aged disaster! She decided to take a cab but no such luck. All she received was puddle bath. She was wet. Cold…and slightly angry. Who wouldn't be?

"Hey are you okay?"

Kelly turned around; hoping and praying that the person wasn't who she thinks he is. She smiled a forced smile and greeted him. "Hey, Evan," She greeted. "What happened to you?" He asked, sipping his coffee.

"Nothing," she lied. "It's just that lady luck isn't with me today, is all." She added. Evan nodded. He removed his blazer and gave put it on Kelly. "It's cold today, and I really don't want you to catch a cold." He said.

Kelly felt something—good?—jumped inside her when she felt his hand on her shoulders. "Thanks." She said.

"Here, this was supposed to be for Mrs. Daniels but I think you need it more than ever." He said as he handed her the other coffee he was holding.

Kelly smiled. "No. she might get angry with me." She said, wanting to get out of this place right now.

"No she won't." Evan said with a chuckle. "She likes everyone and I'm pretty sure that if you meet her, you'll think that as well." Kelly looked at him, he still hadn't changed, he's still as goofy, and quirky as ever. Traits of him she missed the most and right then, she wanted to cry and let him hold her in his arms. Kelly hesitated before Evan placed the coffee in her hands.

"Thanks." She said quietly.

"My pleasure Kelly," he paused; switching from one foot to the other. "So, um," He hesitated. "I think you really need a ride to work, huh?" he trailed off. Kelly smiled at Evan. He still had that shy almost cute way of showing affection. But in this case, she thought that he was just being friendly. But to his offer, Kelly had to decline; she still couldn't quite see herself riding his car again…that will hurt her too much.

"Are you sure?" he asked. "I could drive you to your work; I think it's right on the way to the school I'm teaching at."

Yeah I know, I'd been there when I was dropping off the lunch you forgot….She thought to herself. "I'm sure."

"Okay," he said, turning away from the blonde and walking toward his car. A part of Kelly wished she didn't turn him down, but another part of her was relieved because she still is hurt about what he did to her.

It was their third anniversary that day. Kelly nodded with affirmation, she curled her hair slightly and she was wearing the necklace that Evan had given her. Evan told her that he'd meet her on the restaurant, which she thinks was odd because he always picked her up when they go on their dates. But she disregarded that immediately.

When she was waiting for the cab, she couldn't believe her eyes…her boyfriend…he—he was kissing another woman. If she were strong, she would've caused a major scene but she wasn't like that. So, she returned home, feeling her heart sinking every second. That night, Evan knocked on her door. He was angry.

"Where were you? I looked like a moron in that restaurant waiting for you." Evan hissed.

"Where were you before going to the restaurant?" Kelly countered. Evan couldn't answer.

"I was at my house…" he trailed off.

"You're lying." She said. Her eyes watering, "You were with another woman…I saw you…" tears fell endlessly.

Evan couldn't answer.

"What? Have you gone deaf now?" Kelly asked. "I want out Evan, no wonder you'd been ditching me the last couple of months."

"You know why I cheated on you?" Evan asked suddenly. "It's because you don't even want to make love with me. For Christ's sake Kelly, we'd been together for three years…I want to feel loved you know? I cheated on you because you are no good!"

Kelly slapped Evan. "I don't want to see you anymore."

Then, the door finally closed.

When Kelly remembers this, all she wants is to cry. She thought she moved on…but turns out, she still hasn't. She just got back from work. She'd never been so tired. She checked her answering machine if there were any messages. And there is. It was from her mom. She was just calling to inform her that her sister is getting married. She was happy for her, but then, she felt bad for herself. Her older sister is getting married, while she's still dumb stuck in the past.

"And I don't want to end up alone…"

Is it worth continuing?

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