Hey it's my first story so I hope you like it. It's set after Santana had slapped Quinn. First few chapters are a bit sad but it'll get better. All mistakes are mine. Enjoy!
Summary: After I walked out of the choir room I knew things would be different. It was time to face this unwanted goodbye. Even if it meant letting go of what I love. Because that's what people do right?I should let the love of y life be happy, even if it doesn't include me.
Santana POV
Things were falling apart. I had come back to the place I wanted to escape for the holiday, like promised. But It seems like this old town still had tricks up it's sleeves.
I walked out of the choir know that things would be different from now on. Was it all true? Were my fears coming reality? Every time I stepped foot in this building, a part of me was ripped out and scattered. Un un-official break up and an official lost best friend. What was going on?
I made my way to the only place I knew I could be, the only place I knew I could be myself and let it all out. The Auditorium. No one knows that I've been secretly sneaking into the auditorium back in college just to ease some pain. PLaying the same song over and over again because it was capable go showing what I felt. Sadness and heart ache.
I walked up the stairs and slowly made my way to the grand piano. I slid my hand over the top and pulled the bench from under the piano and sat on it. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding in and push the cover over. I ran my fingers over the keys memorizing ever feel against my fingers. I relaxed, feeling safe and confident. I stopped at a random key and fiddle with it. Just listening to the note letting it sink into me. Slowly I moved my hands onto the keys and placed them in correct posture and began to play at a low tone. I know if someone walked through the doors they'd think I was just playing but it was more than just a song and hand movements. It was my heart. My soul. Speaking the un-told words that roomed my mind and body.
I just wanted to let it all out, if only for a second I could open up, even if it meant opening up to just me, myself and I here by my side.
I sighed and began to play the song with the correct tone and let my heart speak.
I don't want to be her
I just want to be little old me
Shouldn't have to think
Who am I suppose to be today
I was lost. I was lost the moment I choice to walk into this place. The first verse was just a beginning of my heart pouring out everything I had been holding on to. This song never left right in the auditorium back in Kentucky but it felt right here.
And what gave you the right
To tell me who I should be
Who gave you that right
Cause I, I feel lovely
Just the way I am
Yes lovely
The way I am
My hands played, hitting every note on perfect pitch. As if it was the last time I would ever be alive.
I know you want the best
yeah only good things for me
But you have to realize
I can't be all these things you project
on me
Cause I'm beautiful to me
Doesn't mean a thing
I feel lovely
Just the way I am
Yes I feel lovely
The way I am
I need to be enough for you
Need that to be enough for you
Cause it's enough for me
It's enough for me
My voice sang the nest verse like never before. My hands matched every beat never missing the pitch, challenging my heart to full potential. It was now or never. This was me. Only me.
Am I suppose to give you everything I am
Just to make you happy
I thought I was the one you
Always wanted me to be
It turns out I'm just little old me
I'm just little old me
And that's fine by me
Cause I, I am lovely
Just the way that I am
Oh yes I am,
Yes I am lovely
The way that I am
I am lovely lovely
I am Lovely
As I ended the last line I didn't notice I was draining my eyes out. It was only now that I understood why my heart pounded, why my soul sang, why my feelings crumbled. It felt right not only because I was holding it in, but because this was my last time. It was the last time being here. My heart and mind knew all along, but left it to me to discover. As much as it hurt and I didn't want to leave faith decide for me, faith wanted something different than me. And I don't think I was strong enough tonight this war anymore.
Hope you liked it. I know it's kinda sort but trust me it is a good way to start the story. I have a basic outline of what the story will be about. First few chapters will be a bit heart breaking but in the end I assure you it will end the correct way. Comment and favor please! First story so don't be so hard on me!
Thank you!
Song: Lovely - Sara Haze