Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto but I DO own this story plot XD.
Author's Note: okay so here's my newest story…enjoy
Summary: After Naruto dies he leaves his best friend Sasuke to wonder why he killed himself and to put all the pieces together. But will he like what he finds out and what does it have to do with Hinata?
Whole stories in Sasuke's POV and its addressed to his dead friend.
Friends never say Goodbye
"Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather is one of those things that give value to survival."
- C. S. Lewis
TWO months, it had already been two God forsaken months since the accident. Two months since your mom had walked into your bedroom and found you hanging on your orange ceiling, phone cord around your tan neck and large cerulean orbs wide in fear. It's already been two months since the eleventh grade has been over and you never finished, two fucking months since I lost my best friend because his life was too unbearable. At least that's what my mother says, fuck her, fuck them all they didn't know you like I did.
I stare at my dark bedroom walls, my room hasn't seen light since the day you did it, if I had a choice I wouldn't have went back to school but I had to, I have no choice but to stare at all of our old friends and watch as they laugh and get over you. While I sit there frozen in time all because I refuse to let you go. Fuck them, they were never our friends just users, pretenders. It's really funny, we all try so hard to act like someone we're not and we plan our lives out ahead of time then we never make it past sixteen. Bitter humour is what it really is, and now I don't find it so funny anymore. Maybe it's because you're not here to laugh at my dry sarcasm anymore.
I celebrated my birthday almost sixteen days ago, but it was shitty. Why you ask? Cause you weren't there and I refused to leave my dark solace. It's been the only thing that's been keeping me sane ever since you left and even now it doesn't seem to be working anymore. How's heaven? I'm afraid that if I go now I won't be joining you. HA! I was never as lucky as you…I'm a dark angel while you're a pure snowflake who hasn't been tainted even though we spent every waking moment together. I didn't cry at your funeral, they asked me to do the eulogy but what could I say? I couldn't rat you out and tell them about how we smoked behind the school building or how we ditched Chemistry because we hated Orochimaru –sensei.
I couldn't spill how we visited clubs when we said we were going to the library. How much booze we drunk or how we stole out of the convenient store on the corner from school. Even more so how we weren't virgins anymore and that we were even more experienced than the twelfth graders. HA! I'd die with those secrets buddie, they made up our twisted friendship and no one could change that. I still find it hard to believe that you're gone, though it still seems a bit unbelievable. You were so unstoppable that it's hard to believe that you brought yourself down. You were so happy, so full of life it's tough picturing your body hanging there lifeless, it makes me want to throw up.
I've already done that enough though, I feel like I'm going to be following you soon enough buddie. I don't know if I can live through another day and school's starting soon. Shit! Who am I going to smack on the back of his head in Lit because Jiraiya's calling on me to read his stupid perverted novel? Damn, I miss you dope.
A soft knock sounds at my door before it opens. "Sasuke –kun?" I hear Sakura's soft sweet voice call as she slips into my dark refuge and moves forward. I can't see her, but my eyes instantly burn as the curtains are ripped open and sunlight floods into my once dark room. I instantly snatch a pillow from behind me and smash it down on my face.
"You need to get up and get out of here. You've been moping around for too long now." She snaps and I know that her hands are on her hips and her brows furrowed making her look completely irresistible, but I don't care. "I'm worried about you Sasuke," she says not even adding the honorable suffix because we're past that now and she's becoming annoyed with me more frequently. I raise the pillow from my face because I'm really just overacting. My eyes roam over her for a moment before I open my mouth to speak. "I don't care…I didn't ask you to."
My words come out too harsh but it's too late, because her mesmerizing jade eyes have already hardened and her lips have already pursed themselves together and she has become pissed. "I know that you're hurting…but that doesn't give you the right to act like a complete jack ass!" She shouts and I just want to block her useless rants out. Turning over, I leave her to shout out my back while I stare at a photo of us on the nightstand. "God damn it! Listen to me Sasuke Uchiha!" She shrieks before I feel her sit beside me on my bed, her thin fingers playing with strands of my hair. "I know it's hard," she tries again this time in a softer voice and I know all she's trying to do is get me to talk, open up and let her in but even that's too hard now. "I know how you feel…we all do."
At that I snap, turning around swiftly and instantly I'm squeezing down on her wrist tightly. "Don't ever say that…none of you could possibly begin to understand how I feel." I hiss eyes narrowing as hers widen and shake dangerously. "You're hurting…me," she squeaks and instantly I release her and turn away brows furrowed as silence engulfs us both. I expected her to get up, leave and never speak to me again anything, but what she did next. She lowered her body beside mine and wrapped her arms around my torso. "Sasuke –kun," she whispers as her head rests in the crook of my neck and her shorter legs entangle themselves with my longer ones.
"I miss him too but…we have to let him go and move on that's what he'd want." She whispers and I want to just break down and cry but I can't because my pride won't let me and if I do I'll feel like I'm letting you go, and I don't want to because it's killing me. I feel her soft luscious pink lips on the skin of my neck and I want to push her off but I don't, I'm only human and I too have desires and hormones.
Turning in her hold, I stare into her large jade eyes. They were always too big for her face but it seems as if she has finally grown into her broad brow. She's a young woman now, with long silky pink hair which is usually tied up in a high ponytail while her long bangs frame her heart shaped face perfectly. She still has that thin curvaceous frame and those barely noticeable bosoms but I don't care how much chest she has because she's still beautiful with smooth flawless ivory skin and long slender limbs, but mostly those soft luscious lips.
"I want too…really I do want to move on but…it's hard and Naruto." I croak and I can feel the tears rising but their gone once more when she places a hand on my face. I stare into her comforting jade eyes and find my arms snaking around her thin waist pulling her closer. She's my reality and when everything else seems to crumble and fall apart she's still there, holding out a hand for me. I feel her leg slide up my own as her lips draw closer and I can feel the warmth of her breath on my own before they meet. I kiss her back despite my condition because she's my drug as she runs her fingers through my hair.
We both know where this is going to lead. We haven't done it for two months and that was mostly my fault. I had stopped, I had given up her body ever since I had found out about the accident. I felt guilty because the night before your mom found you we had done it and it pained me to know that while you were contemplating the idea of killing yourself, I was having fun with Sakura. Just thinking about it makes me hate myself even further for not being there when you needed me most.
Footsteps soft and small, yet they still echoed loudly off the walls and rang in Sasuke's ears. He didn't know where he was going as he continued down the dark hall, the only source of light came from a slightly ajar door at the end of the hall. Sasuke didn't stop, he didn't even look back as his legs just continued to take him forward.
"Sasuke?" An eerie voice called and a sudden chill overcame the dark haired boy before he turned around and nearly screamed when he stared at an ethereal figure before him. It was a girl about Sakura's height with long black hair that fell to her waist, she wore a short white tunic that exposed her milky shoulders and long legs. The girl's entire body was engulfed in a glowing white light but what caught Sasuke's attention were her eyes. Two pools of cerulean that held such fierce and enigma that they reminded him of someone.
"Naruto," she called out and he raised a questioning brow. "What?" He croaked and she smiled knowingly as she took his hand and instantly everything melted away and he stood in a void of darkness. Out of nowhere he was overwhelmed with quick flashes of blood, screaming, a lot of blond hair, a tall masked figure and pools of frightened cerulean. "SASUKE!" Naruto's voice shouted and instantly the blonds bloody body floated towards him, arms outstretched towards him. Cerulean clashed with onyx and Sasuke saw the pain and fear etched on his friend's face. "Help me Sasuke," he breathed.
Eyes snapping open, I pant loudly as a sheet of sweat covers my body and I don't know if it's from my nightmare or my activities with Sakura. Help me Sasuke, those words run through my head and I sit up on my bed and press my back against the headboard as I bring my knees closer to my body. My gaze stays locked on my bed as my breathing begins to regulate once more. The sun had already set and it cast my bedroom in darkness once more. The sheets are tugged on before they're ripped off of me and I look to my left where Sakura lays, her curvaceous body tangled in my bed sheets and her once neatly fixed hair is now tangled and messy.
I don't touch her, instead I slip off of my bed and move towards my bathroom. Locking the door behind me, I stand in front of the mirror, the lights burning holes into my eyes as I stare at my reflection. Emotionless onyx orbs stare back at me off of the same face I had been destined to have ever since my conception. Raising a shaky hand to my face, I pull down on my eye and stare the red flesh beneath it.
Removing my hand, I turn on the faucet as I blow my bangs out of my face. Splashing the cold water on my face it stings but I ignore it as I rub my eyes and raising my head, I nearly die. There in my mirror, behind my own reflection was Naruto! You look exactly like I remember you looking only thing is that your eyes were blank. "Save me Sasuke," you say and before I know it your gone. My stomach lurches and out of habit, I collapse in front of the porcelain toilet bowl and puke up my guts.
Okay so here's chapter one…I hope you guys liked it and don't forget to leave a review!!